No!!!!!!! I am coughing....I was not laughing at him. I did make the comment to
Cin.Nbrry that I wanted to make him laugh but not because it was funny but to
help him and myself. Laughing is supposed to be good for you. It wasn't meant
to be disrespectful or rude. I would not laugh at someone who is sick. I try to
get them to laugh in order to help relieve stress levels which lead to
depression which leads to physical problems. I think this person purposely
misinterpreted me out of spite or even jealousy because on the last few days
that I was there she said this to me, <sarcastic tone of voice>" You're welcome
back her anytime...Everyone just loooooveees you" <fake grin>No wonder why I
could not figure out why they were all laughing at me; it was over something
that was not true. I thought they were doing it because I was overweight.

I thought of some more things that I needed to tell you.

Rya. C. I wrote an e-mail around this time last year, which I know you already
know about, which was designed, not to screw you over or cause problems for
you, it was designed to scare and weed out certain people that I felt
threatened by and I was highly suspicious of hacking into my computer. It was
a scare tactic done in self-defense in response to some threatening e-mail that
I had received along with a rash of hang-up calls. In one of the e-mails was
the name "D**" and another word that applied to something this person used to
do for a living which led me to believe that it was this person that was
attacking me. I wanted to scare him and to get a response so that I could get
some more information so that he would quit and leave me alone. It did not work
the way I thought instead it caused different people to attack me. That e-mail
should have caused a stir. Ironically the response I got was silence, no direct
response, except I did get two screen names and a group of African-Americans
that were gathered around my porch when I got home from school one night not to
mention the people who were following me around at school. Again if you thought
I did that to screw you over, you are wrong. I did not have anything against
you. In my mind it seemed like self-defense. I wanted him to think that there
were people that would defend me if he messed with me...I also wanted the
people that I was suspicious of to come forward and quit doing things behind my
back I thought if I pissed them off that they would confront me...this did not
work either. I was told that I should not have used your last name but I wanted
them to think that they could no longer mess with me...it was a bluff. I was
told that the internet police were after me; I don't know why unless you were
pissed about that e-mail. Apparently the popular opinion as to why I did what I
did was..."to make up stuff to screw people over..." Not true.

To him :
People do not like me talking about this but I'll clear it up anyway. If you
read something that I wrote and it made you furious...I wish you would have
confronted me. That particular e-mail was not meant for everyone to be reading
it. You could have told me that you knew that woman and then I would have
explained to you why I said what I said. It was not for entertainment or to
make myself look bettter than that person or to make myself feel important. I
did not think I was better than she was and had no issues with her. I never
spoke to her in person or on the phone. I didn't even know her. And I am not
responsible for anything that you're blaming me for...no wonder why you wanted
to beat me up and said " Die Jennifer"... At the time the e-mail was written, I
had a hacker who just would not get out of my computer...a certain train
engineer which I thought was either R.C. S.H. J.H or B.W. It was to weed out a
"train engineer"(personal hacker) from my computer. It was supposed to cause
anger but not to you...(I was *****)....meant for the idiots that would
not leave me alone.. There was a reason for it and it had to do with something
that you did not know about...or come to think about it maybe you did.. You
guys could have just told me that you knew this person but then I guess if you
did that, you would not have a reason to screw with me so badly. I don't know
why she wanted people to pretend to like me and then break my heart? I am glad
that At didn't really want to do it. I saw her screaming at him at the customer
service desk that day...he screamed back at her.... Were you planning to kill
me or something? Is that why you had that horrified look on your face when I
said I was quitting? That was stupid. You seriously just hated me. You would
rather see me die than to try to confront me about it...thought you were a
friend. I also saw Ste...telling her stuff that caused her to have an anger
reaction but when I confronted Ste about it she would not tell me what she was
telling her that was making her so mad. Which I knew she was faking her
friendliness when I was talking to her about it and her and Ro..had a fit of
rage and then tried to hide it from me. I also know they faked it in SD and I
know his mother knew about what they did to me at work and was pretending to
like me. I also strongly suspect a family member of participating in this
unjustified attack.

Rumors :
I was told that he told his brother-in-law that I tried to get myself pregnant
with a condom that he used and he told people that I was obsessed with him and
trying to break-up his marriage(smearing my name)...NOT true. I never had sex
with that man. Not sure if I even told anyone that but that was not the real
reason. He lied....which needless to say pissed me off again...which led me to
want to befriend a certain family member because I knew it would make him
mad...I wanted him to be mad. When I found out he was mad, my mission was
accomplished. Not sure what you heard about the break-up but the reason we
broke-up is because we got into an argument that was NOT my fault. I was led to
believe that he was going to marry me. I even looked at wedding dresses and was
calling myself by his last name. Come to find out he didn't like me...was
pretending I suppose. Then a year later, the wife gets on the computer under
his screen name and pretends to be him and tells me that he's married, I didn't
really believe it and was teasing "him" about it, and then proceeds to rub it
in my face. Come to find out later that while I was sitting there crying over
it, they, the brother-n-law, the wife, and the husband, were laughing about it
and thinking it was funny to break my heart like that.

I was told that I had no friends because I was making up stories....would not
have had to do that if people would have just been honest with me in the first
place. I can't just let people attack me like that. What did you want me to do?

Avenge and Revenge :
I have no idea if he actually filmed me or has pictures of me up on the
internet. I think it was the mom, STe or J.H. that did it. I did get an e-mail
about someone who does computer graphics for television and I know who that
is....and then I got an e-mail that said something about blackmail and someone
named bearberry. Can you edit video tapes to make it look like someone is doing
something that they really did not do? There was also this mexican lady that
was at my mom's church and was asking her about her credit cards and if she
kept them in a safety deposit box and then asking her personal information
about who she likes ect.....

Today someone I know got an e-mail saying that they didn't really want to kill
little Debbie....which just happens to be my mother's nickname from a long time
ago....

Are you insane? Why on Earth is all of this happening to me and my family? All
of you involved in this are crazy...you would have to be to mess with one
person this badly. That is obsession. That is not normal.

Before I forget, I do remember back in 2000 a certain someone at my job was
asking me a lot of question about "Boatwright." I told her that I never met him
in person and only know him from the newsgroup.

Again before you attack and judge me for " making up stories, bluffing, lying
and whatever else..." you try going through that by yourself..without your
fellow gangsters to back you up...and let's see how you do it any better than
what I did...

Also the hypothetical situation about leaving someone who is sick....As I have
learned from reading research on the topic, Avoidance of pain is a normal and
very common reaction to high stress levels;it's not something you punish. It
doesn't mean the person is a *****. It means they're human and having a natural
reaction to a stressor.