Well it has been an interesting year for me. I know others have had some
huge tragedies this year and I'm not for a moment trying to make myself
out
to be anywhere as unfortunate as them, but I think this year could count
as
not entirely sprinkling me with shiny, happy, magic fortune dust. Every
day
hundreds of little things go wrong, but this year I've had quite a few
bigger things happen too.

I started out the year being terrorised by teenage thugs who had been
vandalising, attacking, stealing, breaking in, assaulting and generally
making this area hell. I was one of the few people who stood up to them
so
I was targeted for special treatment. In the end I came out on top, so
that's something. Then I was forced by my real estate to move into a new
apartment with a $55 a week rent rise. I have a neurological condition
that
makes getting and keeping work difficult, so that extra rent on a pension
wasn't easy, but I manage. On the day I was to move, I was hospitalised
with gastro enteritis. Apparently uncontrollable diarrhoea and vomiting
wasn't enough (the ambulance guys said they had never seen anyone vomit
like
I did...they were calling me a hero for how far they saw me chuck....it's
an
Australian male thing), while I was in hospital I was diagnosed with
diabetes, which I will have for the rest of my life...medication, blood
testing, shortened life....everything! After a week in hospital for
treating my various ailments, I got home, prepared my first diabetic meal,
took a bite...and my tooth broke in half. It took 8 months on the public
dental system to get an appointment, so the jagged edges of the tooth
continued to cut into my jaw, providing aches, pain, blood and a huge
amount
of scar tissue. When I finally went to have the tooth removed, the
dentist
had lots of trouble and eventually pierced my sinus in the process. I
haemorrhaged for an hour and half and now have a hole in my jaw up through
my sinus that won't heal. I'm not allowed to blow my nose or sneeze for
the
next couple of months, but since I also have hay fever that's proving very
hard. My best, closest and most loved friend was assimilated by the
Christ-borg and hasn't spoken to me for 6 months, my ex-girlfriend...the
only girl who I have ever truly loved...is getting engaged and my old real
estate basically stole two weeks rent and is refusing to credit it to me.
As I said getting work is difficult as when I go to interviews twitching
and
shaking due to my long term neurological condition, I rarely get very far.
One place did give me a chance and I enjoyed the job and was doing very
well...until two weeks into the job I feel down and sprained my ankle and
spent 10 days out of commission. I was back on the job for a week when
the
company lost it's major contract and the three most junior staff had to be
let go...including yours truly! Next job was working with high care
elderly
patients and was so traumatic that it left me with insomnia and when I did
sleep, terrible nightmares, but work is so rare I had to keep it....I need
the work too badly! That's when the whole dentist thing happened and I
was
told I had to stay away from dust and chemicals, so I couldn't continue
working there. Strike two! Now I have another job and while it's not
very
much, it's something!! So I thought "FINALLY...things are looking up!"
The other day I was given a "do it yourself" hair trimmer. Due to the
fact
I can't control my head, going to a barber is impossible...I might end up
with a pair of scissors through my skull, so I basically have to shave my
head every six months or so. Someone thought this hair trimmer thing
would
make things easier for me. I tried it...well long story short...it made
such a mess I had to shave my head again anyway! My head gets very dry
and
I have to apply moisturiser. As I was doing this yesterday I discovered
exactly how I was going to end the year 2004...

...I found a lump in my neck!

It's at the back on the right. It's not on the surface so it's not a
pimple
or infected follicle. It's deep in the muscle of my neck, it's hard and
about the size of a hazelnut and it's not supposed to be there! I've
decided that I think I've had enough surprises and diagnoses this year! I
think I'm going to wait for a couple of weeks. If there's going to be
biopsies and oncologists, I think I'll wait until 2005 before getting into
it. Start off the new year with a new set of problems and just leave
what's
left of this year run a bit smoother than the rest. I'm not really
afraid...just don't think that what could POSSIBLY be bad news isn't
needed
this close to Xmas. I'll let you all know how it turns out....it's
probably
nothing!

...I found a lump in my neck!

It's at the back on the right. It's not on the surface so it's not a pimple
or infected follicle. It's deep in the muscle of my neck, it's hard and
about the size of a hazelnut and it's not supposed to be there! I've
decided that I think I've had enough surprises and diagnoses this year! I
think I'm going to wait for a couple of weeks. If there's going to be
biopsies and oncologists, I think I'll wait until 2005 before getting into
it. Start off the new year with a new set of problems and just leave what's
left of this year run a bit smoother than the rest. I'm not really
afraid...just don't think that what could POSSIBLY be bad news isn't needed
this close to Xmas. I'll let you all know how it turns out....it's probably
nothing!

Well it has been an interesting year for me. I know others have had some
huge tragedies this year and I'm not for a moment trying to make myself out
to be anywhere as unfortunate as them, but I think this year could count as
not entirely sprinkling me with shiny, happy, magic fortune dust. Every day
hundreds of little things go wrong, but this year I've had quite a few
bigger things happen too.

I started out the year being terrorised by teenage thugs who had been
vandalising, attacking, stealing, breaking in, assaulting and generally
making this area hell. I was one of the few people who stood up to them so
I was targeted for special treatment. In the end I came out on top, so
that's something. Then I was forced by my real estate to move into a new
apartment with a $55 a week rent rise. I have a neurological condition that
makes getting and keeping work difficult, so that extra rent on a pension
wasn't easy, but I manage. On the day I was to move, I was hospitalised
with gastro enteritis. Apparently uncontrollable diarrhoea and vomiting
wasn't enough (the ambulance guys said they had never seen anyone vomit like
I did...they were calling me a hero for how far they saw me chuck....it's an
Australian male thing), while I was in hospital I was diagnosed with
diabetes, which I will have for the rest of my life...medication, blood
testing, shortened life....everything! After a week in hospital for
treating my various ailments, I got home, prepared my first diabetic meal,
took a bite...and my tooth broke in half. It took 8 months on the public
dental system to get an appointment, so the jagged edges of the tooth
continued to cut into my jaw, providing aches, pain, blood and a huge amount
of scar tissue. When I finally went to have the tooth removed, the dentist
had lots of trouble and eventually pierced my sinus in the process. I
haemorrhaged for an hour and half and now have a hole in my jaw up through
my sinus that won't heal. I'm not allowed to blow my nose or sneeze for the
next couple of months, but since I also have hay fever that's proving very
hard. My best, closest and most loved friend was assimilated by the
Christ-borg and hasn't spoken to me for 6 months, my ex-girlfriend...the
only girl who I have ever truly loved...is getting engaged and my old real
estate basically stole two weeks rent and is refusing to credit it to me.
As I said getting work is difficult as when I go to interviews twitching and
shaking due to my long term neurological condition, I rarely get very far.
One place did give me a chance and I enjoyed the job and was doing very
well...until two weeks into the job I feel down and sprained my ankle and
spent 10 days out of commission. I was back on the job for a week when the
company lost it's major contract and the three most junior staff had to be
let go...including yours truly! Next job was working with high care elderly
patients and was so traumatic that it left me with insomnia and when I did
sleep, terrible nightmares, but work is so rare I had to keep it....I need
the work too badly! That's when the whole dentist thing happened and I was
told I had to stay away from dust and chemicals, so I couldn't continue
working there. Strike two! Now I have another job and while it's not very
much, it's something!! So I thought "FINALLY...things are looking up!"
The other day I was given a "do it yourself" hair trimmer. Due to the fact
I can't control my head, going to a barber is impossible...I might end up
with a pair of scissors through my skull, so I basically have to shave my
head every six months or so. Someone thought this hair trimmer thing would
make things easier for me. I tried it...well long story short...it made
such a mess I had to shave my head again anyway! My head gets very dry and
I have to apply moisturiser. As I was doing this yesterday I discovered
exactly how I was going to end the year 2004...

...I found a lump in my neck!

It's at the back on the right. It's not on the surface so it's not a pimple
or infected follicle. It's deep in the muscle of my neck, it's hard and
about the size of a hazelnut and it's not supposed to be there! I've
decided that I think I've had enough surprises and diagnoses this year! I
think I'm going to wait for a couple of weeks. If there's going to be
biopsies and oncologists, I think I'll wait until 2005 before getting into
it. Start off the new year with a new set of problems and just leave what's
left of this year run a bit smoother than the rest. I'm not really
afraid...just don't think that what could POSSIBLY be bad news isn't needed
this close to Xmas. I'll let you all know how it turns out....it's probably
nothing!

Well it has been an interesting year for me. I know others have had some
huge tragedies this year and I'm not for a moment trying to make myself out
to be anywhere as unfortunate as them, but I think this year could count as
not entirely sprinkling me with shiny, happy, magic fortune dust. Every day
hundreds of little things go wrong, but this year I've had quite a few
bigger things happen too.

I started out the year being terrorised by teenage thugs who had been
vandalising, attacking, stealing, breaking in, assaulting and generally
making this area hell. I was one of the few people who stood up to them so
I was targeted for special treatment. In the end I came out on top, so
that's something. Then I was forced by my real estate to move into a new
apartment with a $55 a week rent rise. I have a neurological condition that
makes getting and keeping work difficult, so that extra rent on a pension
wasn't easy, but I manage. On the day I was to move, I was hospitalised
with gastro enteritis. Apparently uncontrollable diarrhoea and vomiting
wasn't enough (the ambulance guys said they had never seen anyone vomit like
I did...they were calling me a hero for how far they saw me chuck....it's an
Australian male thing), while I was in hospital I was diagnosed with
diabetes, which I will have for the rest of my life...medication, blood
testing, shortened life....everything! After a week in hospital for
treating my various ailments, I got home, prepared my first diabetic meal,
took a bite...and my tooth broke in half. It took 8 months on the public
dental system to get an appointment, so the jagged edges of the tooth
continued to cut into my jaw, providing aches, pain, blood and a huge amount
of scar tissue. When I finally went to have the tooth removed, the dentist
had lots of trouble and eventually pierced my sinus in the process. I
haemorrhaged for an hour and half and now have a hole in my jaw up through
my sinus that won't heal. I'm not allowed to blow my nose or sneeze for the
next couple of months, but since I also have hay fever that's proving very
hard. My best, closest and most loved friend was assimilated by the
Christ-borg and hasn't spoken to me for 6 months, my ex-girlfriend...the
only girl who I have ever truly loved...is getting engaged and my old real
estate basically stole two weeks rent and is refusing to credit it to me.
As I said getting work is difficult as when I go to interviews twitching and
shaking due to my long term neurological condition, I rarely get very far.
One place did give me a chance and I enjoyed the job and was doing very
well...until two weeks into the job I feel down and sprained my ankle and
spent 10 days out of commission. I was back on the job for a week when the
company lost it's major contract and the three most junior staff had to be
let go...including yours truly! Next job was working with high care elderly
patients and was so traumatic that it left me with insomnia and when I did
sleep, terrible nightmares, but work is so rare I had to keep it....I need
the work too badly! That's when the whole dentist thing happened and I was
told I had to stay away from dust and chemicals, so I couldn't continue
working there. Strike two! Now I have another job and while it's not very
much, it's something!! So I thought "FINALLY...things are looking up!"
The other day I was given a "do it yourself" hair trimmer. Due to the fact
I can't control my head, going to a barber is impossible...I might end up
with a pair of scissors through my skull, so I basically have to shave my
head every six months or so. Someone thought this hair trimmer thing would
make things easier for me. I tried it...well long story short...it made
such a mess I had to shave my head again anyway! My head gets very dry and
I have to apply moisturiser. As I was doing this yesterday I discovered
exactly how I was going to end the year 2004...

...I found a lump in my neck!

It's at the back on the right. It's not on the surface so it's not a pimple
or infected follicle. It's deep in the muscle of my neck, it's hard and
about the size of a hazelnut and it's not supposed to be there! I've
decided that I think I've had enough surprises and diagnoses this year! I
think I'm going to wait for a couple of weeks. If there's going to be
biopsies and oncologists, I think I'll wait until 2005 before getting into
it. Start off the new year with a new set of problems and just leave what's
left of this year run a bit smoother than the rest. I'm not really
afraid...just don't think that what could POSSIBLY be bad news isn't needed
this close to Xmas. I'll let you all know how it turns out....it's probably
nothing!

...I found a lump in my neck!

It's at the back on the right. It's not on the surface so it's not a
pimple or infected follicle. It's deep in the muscle of my neck, it's
hard and about the size of a hazelnut and it's not supposed to be
there! I've decided that I think I've had enough surprises and
diagnoses this year! I think I'm going to wait for a couple of weeks.
If there's going to be biopsies and oncologists, I think I'll wait
until 2005 before getting into it. Start off the new year with a new
set of problems and just leave what's left of this year run a bit
smoother than the rest. I'm not really afraid...just don't think that
what could POSSIBLY be bad news isn't needed this close to Xmas. I'll
let you all know how it turns out....it's probably nothing!

Well it has been an interesting year for me. I know others have had some
huge tragedies this year and I'm not for a moment trying to make myself out
to be anywhere as unfortunate as them, but I think this year could count as
not entirely sprinkling me with shiny, happy, magic fortune dust. Every day
hundreds of little things go wrong, but this year I've had quite a few
bigger things happen too.

I started out the year being terrorised by teenage thugs who had been
vandalising, attacking, stealing, breaking in, assaulting and generally
making this area hell. I was one of the few people who stood up to them so
I was targeted for special treatment. In the end I came out on top, so
that's something. Then I was forced by my real estate to move into a new
apartment with a $55 a week rent rise. I have a neurological condition that
makes getting and keeping work difficult, so that extra rent on a pension
wasn't easy, but I manage. On the day I was to move, I was hospitalised
with gastro enteritis. Apparently uncontrollable diarrhoea and vomiting
wasn't enough (the ambulance guys said they had never seen anyone vomit like
I did...they were calling me a hero for how far they saw me chuck....it's an
Australian male thing), while I was in hospital I was diagnosed with
diabetes, which I will have for the rest of my life...medication, blood
testing, shortened life....everything! After a week in hospital for
treating my various ailments, I got home, prepared my first diabetic meal,
took a bite...and my tooth broke in half. It took 8 months on the public
dental system to get an appointment, so the jagged edges of the tooth
continued to cut into my jaw, providing aches, pain, blood and a huge amount
of scar tissue. When I finally went to have the tooth removed, the dentist
had lots of trouble and eventually pierced my sinus in the process. I
haemorrhaged for an hour and half and now have a hole in my jaw up through
my sinus that won't heal. I'm not allowed to blow my nose or sneeze for the
next couple of months, but since I also have hay fever that's proving very
hard. My best, closest and most loved friend was assimilated by the
Christ-borg and hasn't spoken to me for 6 months, my ex-girlfriend...the
only girl who I have ever truly loved...is getting engaged and my old real
estate basically stole two weeks rent and is refusing to credit it to me.
As I said getting work is difficult as when I go to interviews twitching and
shaking due to my long term neurological condition, I rarely get very far.
One place did give me a chance and I enjoyed the job and was doing very
well...until two weeks into the job I feel down and sprained my ankle and
spent 10 days out of commission. I was back on the job for a week when the
company lost it's major contract and the three most junior staff had to be
let go...including yours truly! Next job was working with high care elderly
patients and was so traumatic that it left me with insomnia and when I did
sleep, terrible nightmares, but work is so rare I had to keep it....I need
the work too badly! That's when the whole dentist thing happened and I was
told I had to stay away from dust and chemicals, so I couldn't continue
working there. Strike two! Now I have another job and while it's not very
much, it's something!! So I thought "FINALLY...things are looking up!"
The other day I was given a "do it yourself" hair trimmer. Due to the fact
I can't control my head, going to a barber is impossible...I might end up
with a pair of scissors through my skull, so I basically have to shave my
head every six months or so. Someone thought this hair trimmer thing would
make things easier for me. I tried it...well long story short...it made
such a mess I had to shave my head again anyway! My head gets very dry and
I have to apply moisturiser. As I was doing this yesterday I discovered
exactly how I was going to end the year 2004...

...I found a lump in my neck!

It's at the back on the right. It's not on the surface so it's not a pimple
or infected follicle. It's deep in the muscle of my neck, it's hard and
about the size of a hazelnut and it's not supposed to be there! I've
decided that I think I've had enough surprises and diagnoses this year! I
think I'm going to wait for a couple of weeks. If there's going to be
biopsies and oncologists, I think I'll wait until 2005 before getting into
it. Start off the new year with a new set of problems and just leave what's
left of this year run a bit smoother than the rest. I'm not really
afraid...just don't think that what could POSSIBLY be bad news isn't needed
this close to Xmas. I'll let you all know how it turns out....it's probably
nothing!

Well it has been an interesting year for me.

Well it has been an interesting year for me. I know others have had some
huge tragedies this year and I'm not for a moment trying to make myself out
to be anywhere as unfortunate as them, but I think this year could count as
not entirely sprinkling me with shiny, happy, magic fortune dust. Every day
hundreds of little things go wrong, but this year I've had quite a few
bigger things happen too.

I started out the year being terrorised by teenage thugs who had been
vandalising, attacking, stealing, breaking in, assaulting and generally
making this area hell. I was one of the few people who stood up to them so
I was targeted for special treatment. In the end I came out on top, so
that's something. Then I was forced by my real estate to move into a new
apartment with a $55 a week rent rise. I have a neurological condition that
makes getting and keeping work difficult, so that extra rent on a pension
wasn't easy, but I manage. On the day I was to move, I was hospitalised
with gastro enteritis. Apparently uncontrollable diarrhoea and vomiting
wasn't enough (the ambulance guys said they had never seen anyone vomit like
I did...they were calling me a hero for how far they saw me chuck....it's an
Australian male thing), while I was in hospital I was diagnosed with
diabetes, which I will have for the rest of my life...medication, blood
testing, shortened life....everything! After a week in hospital for
treating my various ailments, I got home, prepared my first diabetic meal,
took a bite...and my tooth broke in half. It took 8 months on the public
dental system to get an appointment, so the jagged edges of the tooth
continued to cut into my jaw, providing aches, pain, blood and a huge amount
of scar tissue. When I finally went to have the tooth removed, the dentist
had lots of trouble and eventually pierced my sinus in the process. I
haemorrhaged for an hour and half and now have a hole in my jaw up through
my sinus that won't heal. I'm not allowed to blow my nose or sneeze for the
next couple of months, but since I also have hay fever that's proving very
hard. My best, closest and most loved friend was assimilated by the
Christ-borg and hasn't spoken to me for 6 months, my ex-girlfriend...the
only girl who I have ever truly loved...is getting engaged and my old real
estate basically stole two weeks rent and is refusing to credit it to me.
As I said getting work is difficult as when I go to interviews twitching and
shaking due to my long term neurological condition, I rarely get very far.
One place did give me a chance and I enjoyed the job and was doing very
well...until two weeks into the job I feel down and sprained my ankle and
spent 10 days out of commission. I was back on the job for a week when the
company lost it's major contract and the three most junior staff had to be
let go...including yours truly! Next job was working with high care elderly
patients and was so traumatic that it left me with insomnia and when I did
sleep, terrible nightmares, but work is so rare I had to keep it....I need
the work too badly! That's when the whole dentist thing happened and I was
told I had to stay away from dust and chemicals, so I couldn't continue
working there. Strike two! Now I have another job and while it's not very
much, it's something!! So I thought "FINALLY...things are looking up!"
The other day I was given a "do it yourself" hair trimmer. Due to the fact
I can't control my head, going to a barber is impossible...I might end up
with a pair of scissors through my skull, so I basically have to shave my
head every six months or so. Someone thought this hair trimmer thing would
make things easier for me. I tried it...well long story short...it made
such a mess I had to shave my head again anyway! My head gets very dry and
I have to apply moisturiser. As I was doing this yesterday I discovered
exactly how I was going to end the year 2004...

...I found a lump in my neck!

It's at the back on the right. It's not on the surface so it's not a pimple
or infected follicle. It's deep in the muscle of my neck, it's hard and
about the size of a hazelnut and it's not supposed to be there! I've
decided that I think I've had enough surprises and diagnoses this year! I
think I'm going to wait for a couple of weeks. If there's going to be
biopsies and oncologists, I think I'll wait until 2005 before getting into
it. Start off the new year with a new set of problems and just leave what's
left of this year run a bit smoother than the rest. I'm not really
afraid...just don't think that what could POSSIBLY be bad news isn't needed
this close to Xmas. I'll let you all know how it turns out....it's probably
nothing!