I was shown one day that I was bragging about being more than this or that
person or Saint. Because I do not understand the reason why I am dreaming
this stuff I want to confess myself with you all and apologize for being
arrogant or appearing as more important than I really am. I am nothing and
nobody, just one more man on planet Earth trying to do something more.
I have dreamed one day of passing in front of a man, dressed as in the times
of Jesus when men of faith used to go around with a white cloth only,
encircling their private parts just like short pants of the modern world. I
remember that I was dressed as if I was in my real time and that man was
looking at me while holding the stone made cover of his tomb, straight up
and in vertical position. That main said "In all times there has never been
a man with as much faith as John". I can only think that he was speaking of
the real St. John that had Jesus baptized. In that moment I was John, but I
was the representation of St. John, not the real St. John. It's got to be
that! Whatever it is I should have never posted this stuff in this N.G.
Every time I do this and every time I am forced to do this I feel I might be
doing something that is not appropriate. If I don't do it, It's
inappropriate as well. If I rely on the old way of doing things, I think
there will be too much screening of information. Whatever I do, one thing I
know, I am covering myself with arrogance.
I don't know yet of a way out of this situation. For the moment I would
prefer on keeping to apologize with you all.
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