Haven't had my zyprexa for two days -- will get today. So perhaps that is why
I am lost and anguished today. I have no respect for myself. See my-self with
contemptuous eyes. I could with ease inflict harm on myself at this moment but
know it is forbidden because of the one light that shines through the body that
is my daughter. But gripping to hold ground right now. I was pretty once . . .

Rosena