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"Heather" <shouton@volfirst.net> wrote in message
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I know it's an odd subject. I need a friend real bad. Please someone
care.
I
apologize for posting. If I'm not welcome. I won't bother anyone. I'm
really
depressed. I'm trying to deal with my mom. I can't help my situation.
I'm
a
hemiplegic ( paralyzed on one side) and blind in one eye. Mom says she
is
stressed out over me , worrying, etc. The stress affected her heart.
She
had a heart attack from under too much stress. Right after sister came
to
visit mom with her baby. Mom did too much preparing for them and so on.
After sister left mom got sick from returning from the store. It was
hot.
Mom came inside and got sick said her chest was hurting. The next day
she
saw her doctor and they discovered she had a heart murmur. On the EKG
the
doctor discovered she had a heart attack. Now mom blames this on me. I
don't
ask for help. If I fell I have to find a way to get up by myself. I
don't
bother her asking for help. I wonder if I'm better off dead? Would it
make
her life better? Mom never had heart problems until my brain surgeries.
The
stress caused her to start having blood pressure problems. She was
healthy
until then. I'm the reason for her to have health problems. I can't help
it.
I never asked for these problems. I hate myself. Please can someone help
me?
I apologizing for posting. Anyone care?
--
Heather
you are powerless over how your mother deals with anything ,
it's really up to her to figure her way to accept it
I agree . It seems to me , that it is mostly your mothers problem , in that
she is blaiming you for stuff that might well have happined to her even if
you were never born .
.
