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"Trishamolson" |
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28 Jun 2004 11:35:01 AM |
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@********@ |
SO Sick of this -- I *want* to be with Maria, and I *want* to take care of
work, and I *want* things to be good and still and yet I am swirling bile in my
stomach, my brain is unfocused, and basically I am having an -- what? a
non-functioning attack.
I Am SO SO sick of myself!!!!!!! I cannot stand having a crippled soul and
mind.
That's all -- just screaming out to the internet-wind. Ignore this. Going to
go take my meds and force Maria to take a damn "walk" with her mama.
Rosena
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| User: "Contrarian" |
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| Title: Re: @********@ |
28 Jun 2004 02:33:21 PM |
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Trishamolson <trishamolson@aol.com> wrote:
SO Sick of this -- I *want* to be with Maria, and I *want* to take care of
work, and I *want* things to be good and still and yet I am swirling bile in my
stomach, my brain is unfocused, and basically I am having an -- what? a
non-functioning attack.
This kind of post is the reason for the NG's existence. Wish I
had a better response.
Also wish the dim little chatter botlets would shut up. They
already drove one new poster away. Shame on you.
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| User: "% surfs@uniserve" |
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| Title: Re: @********@ |
28 Jun 2004 02:37:25 PM |
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"Contrarian" <adrba@OOZZ.tcyn.net> wrote in message
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Trishamolson <trishamolson@aol.com> wrote:
SO Sick of this -- I *want* to be with Maria, and I *want* to take care
of
work, and I *want* things to be good and still and yet I am swirling
bile in my
stomach, my brain is unfocused, and basically I am having an -- what? a
non-functioning attack.
This kind of post is the reason for the NG's existence. Wish I
had a better response.
Also wish the dim little chatter botlets would shut up. They
already drove one new poster away. Shame on you.
I love it when a newbie shows up here ,
and starts telling everyone what's right and who should do what ,
its a guaranteed crash in the making
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| User: "Trishamolson" |
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| Title: Re: @********@ |
28 Jun 2004 04:25:04 PM |
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Thanks you! I am calming down a bit.
Best
Rosena
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| User: "% surfs@uniserve" |
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28 Jun 2004 05:36:57 PM |
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"Trishamolson" <trishamolson@aol.com> wrote in message
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Thanks you! I am calming down a bit.
Best
Rosena
oh good i'll crank you up again then
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| User: "Trishamolson" |
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28 Jun 2004 05:50:19 PM |
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oh good i'll crank you up again then
Nope -- off to cuddle land, good book and warm chocolate -- night
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| User: "% surfs@uniserve" |
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28 Jun 2004 05:58:34 PM |
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"Trishamolson" <trishamolson@aol.com> wrote in message
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oh good i'll crank you up again then
Nope -- off to cuddle land, good book and warm chocolate -- night
sounds pleasantly fattening
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| User: "Bev Thornton" |
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| Title: Re: @********@ |
28 Jun 2004 01:00:06 PM |
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Trishamolson wrote:
SO Sick of this -- I *want* to be with Maria, and I *want* to take care of
work, and I *want* things to be good and still and yet I am swirling bile
in my stomach, my brain is unfocused, and basically I am having an --
what? a non-functioning attack.
No. There's no such thing. Like, are you in a coma or what?
I Am SO SO sick of myself!!!!!!! I cannot stand having a crippled soul
and mind.
You have to put it all together. You're dwelling on nonsensical things
caused by memory of past abuse. Last time I saw you, you were still caught
in that rescuer/hostage/terrorist triangle of the Stockholm Syndrome.
There's Rational Emotive therapies for that, probably others too. They work
but you can't do them on your own. You also have that great evil/great good
narcissistic thing going which also responds to psychotherapy. It's all
fixable, but you have to do the fixing. You have to study that and practice
with a therapist.
Even your thesis is a continuation. Those people in the middle ages who had
suffering confused with piety or whatever were nuts, wackos, and such
people are still present particularly in some local Catholic expressions, a
few protestant ones, some Hindu sects and a big chunk of Islam. Every
religion goes through that, the Hindus, Jains and Jews first, then the
Buddhists and Christians, more recently the Muslims, just a couple
centuries ago. It's a basic mistake and it even occurs about the same
number of centuries after the beginning of all major religions. Give man a
thousand years and he'll try to beat himself to death. That's all it is,
just a phenomenon of religious institutionalization and human
misunderstanding. If you don't believe me, check, look at what happened in
all the major religions between 700-1000 years after they began.
Suffering sucks. Period. Only Satan, the satiety-promising man, the
narcissistic angel, would have any ever believe otherwise. Jesus died for
your sins, not as an example. Jesus didn't face suffering on the cross, he
damn near lost it all when he made the utterance about being forsaken. He
faced the courts of man and mortality and only got suffering in return from
them. He faced his own suffering on the mountain. With Satan there to tempt
him. The suffering on the cross is related to the causes of man, of
government, of Caesar, of institutions, of Towers of Babel even. Jesus bore
it, he didn't bring it on. He faced it alone, his expression of feeling
forsaken shows that. And he survived the suffering and death by Holy Grace,
the Resurrection is evidence of that. Promotion of asceticism and suffering
as religious practice comes from politics and madness, confusion, nothing
more.
Oh, if you do the century counting thing, Church of Rome Catholicism has to
be started in the fifth century, not the first. You can use the first for
the Eastern Orthodoxies though.
You have to abandon the feeling that suffering can bring you closer to God.
It can't. It only brings you closer to Satan.
It also makes you sick.
You haven't got a crippled soul. That's just ridiculous, the very idea.
You haven't got a crippled mind. You're in a doctoral program. Finishing it?
That is correct isn't it? Crippled minds don't get to do that sort of
thing, but confused ones can as long as the confusion is somewhere other
than the area of study. Your mind is merely confused because your emotions
are currently crippled. Those crippled emotions cause confused mind. That
is how depression gets at your mind, affect colours and blocks sense and
presents illusory sense impressions and so distorts mental interpretation.
That's all -- just screaming out to the internet-wind. Ignore this. Going
to go take my meds and force Maria to take a damn "walk" with her mama.
Good plan. Did it work?
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| User: "epicphart" |
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| Title: Re: @********@ |
28 Jun 2004 11:41:46 AM |
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Trishamolson wrote:
SO Sick of this -- I *want* to be with Maria, and I *want* to take care of
work, and I *want* things to be good and still and yet I am swirling bile in my
stomach, my brain is unfocused, and basically I am having an -- what? a
non-functioning attack.
I Am SO SO sick of myself!!!!!!! I cannot stand having a crippled soul and
mind.
That's all -- just screaming out to the internet-wind. Ignore this. Going to
go take my meds and force Maria to take a damn "walk" with her mama.
Rosena
i want it to quit raining, so i can ride my internet bike without
getting wet...i hate my raingear..
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| User: "% surfs@uniserve" |
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28 Jun 2004 11:45:59 AM |
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"epicphart" <nahhhYouDontWantIt@nahh.net> wrote in message
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Trishamolson wrote:
SO Sick of this -- I *want* to be with Maria, and I *want* to take care
of
work, and I *want* things to be good and still and yet I am swirling
bile in my
stomach, my brain is unfocused, and basically I am having an -- what? a
non-functioning attack.
I Am SO SO sick of myself!!!!!!! I cannot stand having a crippled soul
and
mind.
That's all -- just screaming out to the internet-wind. Ignore this.
Going to
go take my meds and force Maria to take a damn "walk" with her mama.
Rosena
i want it to quit raining, so i can ride my internet bike without
getting wet...i hate my raingear..
i wonder how he works all night and stays up all day
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| User: "epicphart" |
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| Title: Re: @********@ |
28 Jun 2004 12:05:29 PM |
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% wrote:
"epicphart" <nahhhYouDontWantIt@nahh.net> wrote in message
news:40E04A4A.4030708@nahh.net...
Trishamolson wrote:
SO Sick of this -- I *want* to be with Maria, and I *want* to take care
of
work, and I *want* things to be good and still and yet I am swirling
bile in my
stomach, my brain is unfocused, and basically I am having an -- what? a
non-functioning attack.
I Am SO SO sick of myself!!!!!!! I cannot stand having a crippled soul
and
mind.
That's all -- just screaming out to the internet-wind. Ignore this.
Going to
go take my meds and force Maria to take a damn "walk" with her mama.
Rosena
i want it to quit raining, so i can ride my internet bike without
getting wet...i hate my raingear..
i wonder how he works all night and stays up all day
its a disorder called manic depression (bi-polar..whateva)...something
you have no clue about...neither the manic, or the depressive..
research you posts punky...you'll see how clueless you really are.
you insinuating again? someone as short on brain as you should never
ever make an assumption...you can get killed easily that way...
%: wull. i assumed the PTO was out, huh..welp, at least i still got one arm.
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| User: "% surfs@uniserve" |
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28 Jun 2004 12:12:39 PM |
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"epicphart" <nahhhYouDontWantIt@nahh.net> wrote in message
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% wrote:
"epicphart" <nahhhYouDontWantIt@nahh.net> wrote in message
news:40E04A4A.4030708@nahh.net...
Trishamolson wrote:
SO Sick of this -- I *want* to be with Maria, and I *want* to take care
of
work, and I *want* things to be good and still and yet I am swirling
bile in my
stomach, my brain is unfocused, and basically I am having an -- what? a
non-functioning attack.
I Am SO SO sick of myself!!!!!!! I cannot stand having a crippled soul
and
mind.
That's all -- just screaming out to the internet-wind. Ignore this.
Going to
go take my meds and force Maria to take a damn "walk" with her mama.
Rosena
i want it to quit raining, so i can ride my internet bike without
getting wet...i hate my raingear..
i wonder how he works all night and stays up all day
its a disorder called manic depression (bi-polar..whateva)...something
you have no clue about...neither the manic, or the depressive..
research you posts punky...you'll see how clueless you really are.
you insinuating again? someone as short on brain as you should never
ever make an assumption...you can get killed easily that way...
%: wull. i assumed the PTO was out, huh..welp, at least i still got one
arm.
i wonder how he works all night and stays up all day
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| User: "% surfs@uniserve" |
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28 Jun 2004 11:45:05 AM |
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and what steps are you taking to change any of this
"Trishamolson" <trishamolson@aol.com> wrote in message
news:20040628123501.29866.00000560@mb-m18.aol.com...
SO Sick of this -- I *want* to be with Maria, and I *want* to take care of
work, and I *want* things to be good and still and yet I am swirling bile
in my
stomach, my brain is unfocused, and basically I am having an -- what? a
non-functioning attack.
I Am SO SO sick of myself!!!!!!! I cannot stand having a crippled soul
and
mind.
That's all -- just screaming out to the internet-wind. Ignore this. Going
to
go take my meds and force Maria to take a damn "walk" with her mama.
Rosena
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| User: "Contrarian" |
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| Title: Re: @********@ |
28 Jun 2004 02:30:35 PM |
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% <surfs@uniserve> wrote:
and what steps are you taking to change any of this
Someone's playing ELIZA-bot, I'd say. It's rather easy
for a human to imitate ELIZA (the "therapy" program) I'm
not impressed.
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| User: "% surfs@uniserve" |
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28 Jun 2004 02:34:12 PM |
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"Contrarian" <adrba@OOONNN.tcyn.net> wrote in message
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% <surfs@uniserve> wrote:
and what steps are you taking to change any of this
Someone's playing ELIZA-bot, I'd say. It's rather easy
for a human to imitate ELIZA (the "therapy" program) I'm
not impressed.
its a good thing you're not impressed ,
because i didn't say this to impress you ,
in fact anything i do here ,
is more for the purpose of not impressing you ,
so carry on , you are playing the game just the way i want you to
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| User: "epicphart" |
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28 Jun 2004 12:01:14 PM |
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% wrote:
and what steps are you taking to change any of this
thats like the only "help" line you know...
dude you blow...
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| User: "% surfs@uniserve" |
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28 Jun 2004 12:01:38 PM |
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"epicphart" <nahhhYouDontWantIt@nahh.net> wrote in message
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% wrote:
and what steps are you taking to change any of this
thats like the only "help" line you know...
dude you blow...
right on ... Slap Nutts
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| User: "epicphart" |
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28 Jun 2004 12:09:41 PM |
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% wrote:
"epicphart" <nahhhYouDontWantIt@nahh.net> wrote in message
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% wrote:
and what steps are you taking to change any of this
thats like the only "help" line you know...
dude you blow...
right on ... Slap Nutts
yeah, i figured that be your response...cuz your lame, and whats
that??impotent????
that has to suck...
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| User: "% surfs@uniserve" |
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28 Jun 2004 12:13:07 PM |
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"epicphart" <nahhhYouDontWantIt@nahh.net> wrote in message
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% wrote:
"epicphart" <nahhhYouDontWantIt@nahh.net> wrote in message
news:40E04EDA.1060106@nahh.net...
% wrote:
and what steps are you taking to change any of this
thats like the only "help" line you know...
dude you blow...
right on ... Slap Nutts
yeah, i figured that be your response...cuz your lame, and whats
that??impotent????
that has to suck...
right on ... Slap Nutts
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| User: "Trishamolson" |
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28 Jun 2004 12:38:23 PM |
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Oh both of you -- shut up!!
I am putting last edit on draft, going to go color with Maria, and send damn
thing in, so will not be distracted by you two waving private part at each
other. :)
Rosena
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| User: "% surfs@uniserve" |
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28 Jun 2004 12:42:17 PM |
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"Trishamolson" <trishamolson@aol.com> wrote in message
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Oh both of you -- shut up!!
I am putting last edit on draft, going to go color with Maria, and send
damn
thing in, so will not be distracted by you two waving private part at each
other. :)
Rosena
the fact that you had to make reference to my private part tells me ,
you already are being distracted by something you want but will never have
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| User: "epicphart" |
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28 Jun 2004 12:51:51 PM |
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% wrote:
"Trishamolson" <trishamolson@aol.com> wrote in message
news:20040628133823.29796.00000584@mb-m18.aol.com...
Oh both of you -- shut up!!
I am putting last edit on draft, going to go color with Maria, and send
damn
thing in, so will not be distracted by you two waving private part at each
other. :)
Rosena
the fact that you had to make reference to my private part tells me ,
you already are being distracted by something you want but will never have
what an ill *****...
k, sorry rosena, couldnt resist slappin the nut..
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| User: "% surfs@uniserve" |
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28 Jun 2004 01:02:24 PM |
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"epicphart" <nahhhYouDontWantIt@nahh.net> wrote in message
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% wrote:
"Trishamolson" <trishamolson@aol.com> wrote in message
news:20040628133823.29796.00000584@mb-m18.aol.com...
Oh both of you -- shut up!!
I am putting last edit on draft, going to go color with Maria, and send
damn
thing in, so will not be distracted by you two waving private part at
each
other. :)
Rosena
the fact that you had to make reference to my private part tells me ,
you already are being distracted by something you want but will never
have
what an ill *****...
k, sorry rosena, couldnt resist slappin the nut..
right on ... Slap Nutts
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| User: "epicphart" |
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28 Jun 2004 12:50:57 PM |
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Trishamolson wrote:
Oh both of you -- shut up!!
I am putting last edit on draft, going to go color with Maria, and send damn
thing in, so will not be distracted by you two waving private part at each
other. :)
Rosena
% aint got a private part, er at least one that works...
ok, for you i'll quit..
on this thread...
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| User: "% surfs@uniserve" |
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28 Jun 2004 01:01:53 PM |
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"epicphart" <nahhhYouDontWantIt@nahh.net> wrote in message
news:40E05A81.7020600@nahh.net...
Trishamolson wrote:
Oh both of you -- shut up!!
I am putting last edit on draft, going to go color with Maria, and send
damn
thing in, so will not be distracted by you two waving private part at
each
other. :)
Rosena
% aint got a private part, er at least one that works...
ok, for you i'll quit..
on this thread...
and again my little plan fools Slap Nutts
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