Overcome with emotion. Eyes keep starting with tears. 3:00 oclock
here, and need to bury myself in History reader production and then
turn to Prometheus Bound.
Amor Fati - love of one's fate. A teaching I had forgotten until I
came across it looking for something on Nietzsche. I respect this
teaching, I stand in awe of it actually and, yet, I am a coward and
recoil from pain. Nor can I stand to see Maria suffer.
I am falling down here the last three weeks and struggling to stand up.
I am sorry for not answering replies and emails. Easter is hard,
close to time I miscarried Enrico (I named the baby) and John refused
all pleas for his return.
Tierd of self-focus that comes when one is struggling. Disgusted by
it, actually. Tonight will be sure to spend time with Maria, maybe
rent a movie and just brush her hair, kiss her if she lets me, and cut
into this self-obession with my own pain with a sharp blade of
self-denial.
I miss my mother.
Rosena
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"Rosena" <filpriros@aol.com> wrote in message news:1111868366.702093.69290@f14g2000cwb.googlegroups.com...
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: Overcome with emotion. Eyes keep starting with tears. 3:00 oclock
: here, and need to bury myself in History reader production and then
: turn to Prometheus Bound.
:
: Amor Fati - love of one's fate. A teaching I had forgotten until I
: came across it looking for something on Nietzsche. I respect this
: teaching, I stand in awe of it actually and, yet, I am a coward and
: recoil from pain. Nor can I stand to see Maria suffer.
:
: I am falling down here the last three weeks and struggling to stand up.
: I am sorry for not answering replies and emails. Easter is hard,
: close to time I miscarried Enrico (I named the baby) and John refused
: all pleas for his return.
:
: Tierd of self-focus that comes when one is struggling. Disgusted by
: it, actually. Tonight will be sure to spend time with Maria, maybe
: rent a movie and just brush her hair, kiss her if she lets me, and cut
: into this self-obession with my own pain with a sharp blade of
: self-denial.
:
: I miss my mother.
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: Rosena
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i miss mine too
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