Insanity and crippling quiet despair - I almost plan in my mind to just
get through until Maria is squared away, maybe at college age, and
finally end this - I am such a fucking waste of space.
Rosena
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25 Apr 2005 08:10:01 AM |
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"Rosena" <filpriros@aol.com> wrote in message
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Insanity and crippling quiet despair - I almost plan in my mind to just
get through until Maria is squared away, maybe at college age, and
finally end this - I am such a *** waste of space.
don't believe those tapes playing in your mind that tell you that you are a
waste of space. they aren't true and you KNOW IT!!! you gotta keep telling
yourself over and over, "God don't make no junk!" :-)
i do understand what you are saying, though. i don't know how many times
i've told myself that i only have to "hang in there" until my kids are out
of the house. but of course, that's just not true. you still leave a
terrible legacy of suicide behind for them even if you wait til they are
grown. and how do they tell THEIR kids that they don't have a grandma
because grandma killed herself before they were born???? nope, you have no
choice. you have to stick around, hun. that's just how it is.
be well, rosena.
~u2b
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25 Apr 2005 09:06:17 AM |
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Thank you for sticking around, U2B and Rosenna.
As you said, U2B, Motherhood, Grandmotherhood, etc. are tremendously
important jobs. In times of struggle, bolster yourselves with the
reminder that there is reason for hope that you will one day succeed in
pushing depression into remission.
Christopher
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24 Apr 2005 09:04:20 PM |
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"Rosena" <filpriros@aol.com> wrote in message
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Insanity and crippling quiet despair - I almost plan in my mind to just
get through until Maria is squared away, maybe at college age, and
finally end this - I am such a fucking waste of space.
Rosena
(((Rosena))) You can get through this!!!
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"What a terrible thing to have lost one's mind.
Or not to have a mind at all. How true that is."
(Dan Quayle)
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| User: "Nom dePlume nomdeplume1000-at-yahoo.com" |
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24 Apr 2005 09:15:39 PM |
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Not at all. You are a delightful woman, who is having a hard time.
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Nom dePlume, Ph.D.
Why, yes, in fact, I am a rocket scientist.
Guide to Medications for Mental Illness:
http://www.geocities.com/nomdeplume1000
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"Rosena" <filpriros@aol.com> wrote in message
news:1114383080.712350.62460@z14g2000cwz.googlegroups.com...
Insanity and crippling quiet despair - I almost plan in my mind to
just
get through until Maria is squared away, maybe at college age, and
finally end this - I am such a fucking waste of space.
Rosena
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24 Apr 2005 08:19:50 PM |
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You are not a waste of space, Rosenna. You are a Lady, a Scholar, and
a caring mother. I'm sorry you're feeling like crap. You can e-mail
me if you want.
Patience
Rosena wrote:
Insanity and crippling quiet despair - I almost plan in my mind to
just
get through until Maria is squared away, maybe at college age, and
finally end this - I am such a fucking waste of space.
Rosena
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24 Apr 2005 08:29:41 PM |
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Hi Patience,
You know I am so embarrassed to ask this but I do not know if you are
female or male. I don't know that it matters, but I always want to get
a picture of posters I like :)
Thanks for your reply. I got a little work done (some sample questions
for Contracts). I am jusery depressed that Maria's father will be
going with us to Illinois. But no way out of it yet. And I guess I am
a tad lonley. Though this is my own fault for being so shy in RL.
Hope you are doing better.
Rosena
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| User: "Alan Harding" |
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25 Apr 2005 01:03:43 AM |
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In message <1114392581.731189.256750@o13g2000cwo.googlegroups.com>,
Rosena <filpriros@aol.com> writes
Though this is my own fault for being so shy in RL.
Is that why you never showed?
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The opinions given above may be mine. They might also
just be what I feel like saying right now, okay?
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| User: "Patience" |
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24 Apr 2005 09:42:55 PM |
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Rosenna,
All you had to do was to click "show options" and take a peek at my
e-mail address. There's about eighty percent of "Christopher" there.
I don't watch TV anymore, but when I had a TV, about three years ago, I
saw a show discussing people (and I don't mean to gross you out) that
have both female and male sex organs. They're stuck in between. And
its not nearly as uncommon as you would imagine. From the show, I
remember well a man who had been born without the usual man-related
hardware, and had many surgeries in attempt to bring his body into
conformity. The surgeries were great disappointments for him. Ever
since then, I've somewhat resented being presented with papers that
asked me to put a check or x on "male" or "female", for I am always
reminded of those poor souls who must think before checking one of the
boxes (not that I resent your question in the least- it just reminded
me of the show I had seen, and what I had learned from watching it).
Moves are rotten. The last one nearly killed me. I understand.
Christopher
P.S. When I spell checked this post on my word processor, I discovered
about half of a post I had written, directed to you, last night, that I
had grown too tired to finish.. I had wanted to discuss Ambien. In
combination with an SSRI, Ambien can cause mild hallucinations. Also,
I have read LOTS of usenet stories like Ken's regarding this sleep-med.
Its like one quarter of the brain is getting a good nights sleep,
while the other three quarters are still going. The big problem with
this is that the 3/4's that is awake has full muscular control, and
occasionally takes the user on all sorts of strange adventures.
Without that sleeping 1/4, 3/4-brained-you can get you into trouble- if
not killed. Here was my intro, which discussed moving:
Sorry you had a rough time with move-related stuff, Rosenna. Moves can
be stressful.
I think I finally learned my lesson on my most recent move- last month.
Were it not for the provigil, which has been giving me more energy
during the day, I don't know how I would accomplished this move, for
once again I wildly misjudged the amount of work involved. I don't
want to repeat the experience ever again, and next time, will start
organizing, sorting, and packing weeks in advance, and reserve a rental
van a month and a half in advance. If it was a short move, I would
overlap one or two rental days to allow time for the move...
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| User: "Patience" |
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24 Apr 2005 09:01:53 PM |
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You're not a waste of space, Rosenna. You are a Lady, a Scholar, and
(I'll bet) a good mother. Sorry you're feeling like crap. You can
e-mail me if you want.
Patience
Rosena wrote:
Insanity and crippling quiet despair - I almost plan in my mind to
just
get through until Maria is squared away, maybe at college age, and
finally end this - I am such a fucking waste of space.
Rosena
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