I hurt. Pain is a funny thing - severe physical pain takes over
everything and makes one's focus myopic as the entirety of desire is to
wipe out the pain. Animalistic. I am use to this when emotional pain
is involved, and I adapt working and functioning with the pain as I
learn new coping strategy. Bu physical pain . . .I am a total coward. I
want my mother.
And guess what? Drama never ends. They said it will take six weeks to
recover but I am to start teaching in two. Not sure how I am going to
do it. I will do it. I always find a way. But I am tierd of having to
always "find a way." Stress is not my friend or motivator. I can do
without it very well, thank you.
Maria had been a doll. I burst into tears last night for I was so
overwhelmed between belly pain, incision pain, and cramps as my bodily
functions were trying to return to normal, and she just came in and
held my hand and tried to make little jokes to get me to laugh. She is
a real good girl.
Rosena
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18 May 2005 01:20:08 PM |
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x-no-archive: yes
its getting hard to adapt anymore, i kind of know how you feel. I feel
'sustained', then allowed to cry tears
often, i am in my parents bedroom 'after', when I was around five or
so, lying there staring at the mini blinds in the window. I imagined it
being a face, watching me there, I remember, not remembering.
i hope this is ok
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