"Rosena" <filpriros@aol.com> wrote in message
news:1149453127.443109.278130@u72g2000cwu.googlegroups.com...

Where are you?

Travolti da un insolito boxer bundle nell'azzurro mare d'agosto :-)

What are you doing?

listening to music, reading, practicing piano, ripping some mp3's, checking
in here now and then.

Personally, I am in hell, but I thought I'd peek out and see if you were
out there.

is the hell because of the self-hate, self-disrespect, self-disgust you
wrote about yesterday? you have no reason to feel these things. i don't know
why it doesn't help the person feeling them to be told they have no reason
to, but i do understand. couple of weeks ago i went through the same thing,
on another newsgroup, against a veritable chorus of people telling me to
snap out of it. no way was i going to snap out of it on their say-so.

i still don't think i'm the fabulous guy they make me out to be. just a
shlep with (apparently) survival potential. otoh in retrospect, i admit
their say-so helped some on that occasion. helped build me back up to
surviving shlep level, and i agreed with myself not to hate me for not being
more.

but to me you're a pretty fabulous person. someone i admire. fwiw, which may
not be a lot, but still. so please stop hurting yourself with these terrible
judgements.