"Rosena" <filpriros@aol.com> wrote in message
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I have to check her everyday for fresh cuts and if there are any they
said she must go in patient. I can't keep the horror from my face
everytime I do it. I try. But I just want to wrap her up in her
blankey, give her coco and get her bear for her . . .I feel desperate
to protect her, help her self-esteem, give her stability, make her
world okay. Really fucking desperate.

Can't much imagine this, I'd be pretty fucking desperate too.

I got it in my head we have to have autumn flowers - that she needs
them. And cookie dough. I am nuts I think and not good at this. Yes
Yes, I know I am asking for it, but I am also having problems with my
wounds on my arms though it is not the kind of SH Maria is going
through, but the world feels in pieces sometimes.

Did Latin exam today turned in written exam . . .did seminar, Maria had
a good day first day at partial but it broke my heart to hear her talk
of it - she thinks she is in the movie Girl Interrupted and
unfortunately is enjoying the drama of these kids who attempted suicide
in group, or that boy who does drugs, etc. etc. She is only 12 and the
youngest . . .I don't know, got to just wait it out.

Maria is only 12, wow. My girl at 12 was still climbing trees. On the up
side, Maria is brighter than average, obviously. She seems to have an
excellent grasp on existential angst.

We are both angry at Leif - he is just snippy and makes it hard to be
positive or try to grab small joys. But right now, it is what it is.
maybe just tierd. At least it is almost Friday.

Lief. Wish he posted here, I'd love to debate with him.

Hold on, Rosena. Them's two profound words.

Jean

Rosena