I think I am back for a bit. Been missing everyone. Maria is doing
okay. No cutting, depression a bit better, no hostile scenes etc.
Problem is she misses kids. Found a middle school teacher to home
school her just til end of this year so that is going great.
Was forced to have contact with John very briefly over conference (we
make sure we are not both at same conference) and was very gut
wrenching . . .but we settled it for next two years so we won't have to
have contact. Also, a professor friend of mine is dealing with future
arrangements with him to contact not direct. "It" is very far away now
- several universes - but the aspect that remains is self-contempt,
deep abiding contempt, and this is as one could imagine hard to live
with.
My article on blood sanction and suffering is finally getting published
in good journal and I teach medieval history here in summer. These are
good things. But I feel like an imposter, and I am slipping behind in
work because of time with Maria, health, and depression. See doctor
about med adjustment in a couple of weeks. . . found a girl I'd like to
have coffee with and strike up a friendship. Just not sure how to go
about it anymore. Every time I open my mouth to speak on a subject in
class, or anywhere, I can taste my foot.
How is everyone? Seriously. Tell me please. Missed you all.
Rosena
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| User: "millipede man" |
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11 Feb 2006 06:19:31 PM |
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"Rosena" <filpriros@aol.com> wrote in
news:1139687542.853765.90710@o13g2000cwo.googlegroups.com:
I think I am back for a bit. Been missing everyone. Maria is doing
okay. No cutting, depression a bit better, no hostile scenes etc.
Problem is she misses kids. Found a middle school teacher to home
school her just til end of this year so that is going great.
That's good news. Once Maria recovers, she may be able to go back to a
regular school.
Was forced to have contact with John very briefly over conference (we
make sure we are not both at same conference) and was very gut
wrenching . . .but we settled it for next two years so we won't have
to have contact. Also, a professor friend of mine is dealing with
future arrangements with him to contact not direct. "It" is very far
away now - several universes - but the aspect that remains is
self-contempt, deep abiding contempt, and this is as one could imagine
hard to live with.
My article on blood sanction and suffering is finally getting
published in good journal and I teach medieval history here in summer.
These are good things. But I feel like an imposter, and I am slipping
behind in work because of time with Maria, health, and depression.
See doctor about med adjustment in a couple of weeks. . . found a girl
I'd like to have coffee with and strike up a friendship. Just not sure
how to go about it anymore. Every time I open my mouth to speak on a
subject in class, or anywhere, I can taste my foot.
How is everyone? Seriously. Tell me please. Missed you all.
Rosena
I'm ok. Just fat and tired. My millipedes are happy and healthy, though.
:)
- millipede man
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12 Feb 2006 12:01:20 PM |
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Hi!
Glad the pets are fine. I fret about you at times. Hope you are
finding some joy.
Yes, you are right. maria will start high school so steady as we go
eh?
Best
Rosena
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| User: "Nom dePlume nomdeplume1000-at-yahoo.com" |
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11 Feb 2006 06:05:19 PM |
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"Rosena" <filpriros@aol.com> wrote in message
news:1139687542.853765.90710@o13g2000cwo.googlegroups.com...
How is everyone? Seriously. Tell me please. Missed you all.
Rosena
It's good to see you back. I'm glad Maria is doing better. And
congratulations on your article!
I hope your medication adjustment goes well.
As for how to issue coffee invitations, how about saying, "I was
thinking of going to JavaLand for coffee. Would you like to join me?"
Keep it casual, and if the answer is no, she may give some indication
that it's "No" this time for a particular reason, but another time
would be fine.
Alternatively, spray your foot with vegetable oil, so you can at least
get it out easily. :)
I'm fine. Still busy at work (as always), and slowly writing the next
chapter to my medication book. I think this one will be popular--it's
about treating sexual dysfunction.
--
Nom dePlume, Ph.D.
Why, yes, in fact, I am a rocket scientist.
Guide to Medications for Mental Illness:
http://www.geocities.com/nomdeplume1000/
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12 Feb 2006 12:05:12 PM |
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Hi there,
The medication book sounds neat - you are right, sexy topic, so to
speak.
I will ask her for coffee. Just got to build up nerve. I am real
happy Maria is better though what school did in kicking her out just
burns me. She is really really sweet sensitive child so not good for
her self-esteem.
Yes, article getting published is one more line on resume and great ego
boost. I am tierd though Nom, deep inside. Need a bit of infusion of
silly joy.
Always good to "see" you by the way, my friend.
Rosena
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| User: "Bev Thornton" |
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11 Feb 2006 02:48:57 PM |
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On 2006-02-11, Rosena wrote:
Every time I open my mouth to speak on a subject in
class, or anywhere, I can taste my foot.
Oh, you must be getting better, much better. That seem to be how it goes.
How is everyone? Seriously. Tell me please. Missed you all.
I'm OK. You must be, too.
If you can recognise self-contempt, then you can deal withit. Be kind to
yourself, that sort of thing. What is it in Christian terms? forgiveness?
The suffering of living is enough.
--
<reply.4.bev@xoxy.net> Support: <http://www.cidi.org/>
Victory breeds hatred. The defeated live in pain.
Happily the peaceful live, giving up victory and defeat.
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11 Feb 2006 04:31:20 PM |
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Hey Bev,
Glad you are doing fine. Yes, forgiveness. Not easy to forgive
oneself. But if I take long view, Maria and I have passed a million
miles from a few years ago.
He he - yes, the suffering of another Latin test is enough!!
Best
Rosena
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14 Feb 2006 02:56:03 AM |
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Rosena <filpriros@aol.com> wrote:
I think I am back for a bit. Been missing everyone.
We missed you.p
wrenching . . .but we settled it for next two years so we won't have to
have contact.
Excellent, I am so glad to hear that, and the arrangements
for indirect communication.
--
but the edge is still Out there. Or maybe it's In... HST (1967)
when i got to the edge , i built a deck % (2005)
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| User: "Rosena" |
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15 Feb 2006 10:26:46 AM |
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Hi you!!
Are you doing fine? What is up in your neck of the woods?
Best
Rosena
Contrarian wrote:
Rosena <filpriros@aol.com> wrote:
I think I am back for a bit. Been missing everyone.
We missed you.p
wrenching . . .but we settled it for next two years so we won't have to
have contact.
Excellent, I am so glad to hear that, and the arrangements
for indirect communication.
--
but the edge is still Out there. Or maybe it's In... HST (1967)
when i got to the edge , i built a deck % (2005)
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| User: "Contrarian" |
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17 Feb 2006 02:22:41 PM |
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Rosena <filpriros@aol.com> wrote:
Are you doing fine?
not too badly. pushing for a re-evaluation of my Rx.
What is up in your neck of the woods?
umm ah, not me sometimes.
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| User: "lisa in mass." |
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11 Feb 2006 02:57:01 PM |
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Rosena wrote...
I think I am back for a bit. Been missing everyone. Maria
is doing okay. No cutting, depression a bit better, no
hostile scenes etc. Problem is she misses kids. Found a
middle school teacher to home school her just til end of
this year so that is going great.
Was forced to have contact with John very briefly over
conference (we make sure we are not both at same
conference) and was very gut wrenching . . .but we settled
it for next two years so we won't have to have contact.
Also, a professor friend of mine is dealing with future
arrangements with him to contact not direct. "It" is very
far away now - several universes - but the aspect that
remains is self-contempt, deep abiding contempt, and this
is as one could imagine hard to live with.
My article on blood sanction and suffering is finally
getting published in good journal and I teach medieval
history here in summer. These are good things. But I feel
like an imposter, and I am slipping behind in work because
of time with Maria, health, and depression. See doctor
about med adjustment in a couple of weeks. . . found a girl
I'd like to have coffee with and strike up a friendship.
Just not sure how to go about it anymore. Every time I
open my mouth to speak on a subject in class, or anywhere,
I can taste my foot.
How is everyone? Seriously. Tell me please. Missed you
all.
Rosena
i'm glad to hear that maria is doing well, if lonely. and you
sound better than when you were here last.
i'm doing very well. found a good dosage of my antidepressant,
and feel better than i have in many years. i'm a little
worried about what happens when it poops out, but trying to
keep that in perspective and live in the present.
maybe you can check in more often- people ask about you.
-lisa
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| User: "Rosena" |
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11 Feb 2006 04:33:48 PM |
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Hi Lisa,
I am SO glad you have found something that seems to work. Don't fret!
Just be glad for now eh?
Are you sleeping better?
I am off to doctors in next couple of weeks for more leg stuff -- it is
nice to hear your "voice"
Best
Rosena
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| User: "lisa in mass." |
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11 Feb 2006 05:09:01 PM |
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Rosena wrote...
Hi Lisa,
I am SO glad you have found something that seems to work.
Don't fret! Just be glad for now eh?
Are you sleeping better?
I am off to doctors in next couple of weeks for more leg
stuff -- it is nice to hear your "voice"
Best
Rosena
still not sleeping well, but that's easier to deal with when i'm
feeling better, regardless.
i hope something hopeful comes from your doctor appt. you've
been struggling with this for so long.
nice to hear you, too.
-lisa
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| User: "humble.life" |
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11 Feb 2006 03:22:11 PM |
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Rosena wrote:
I think I am back for a bit. Been missing everyone. Maria is doing
okay. No cutting, depression a bit better, no hostile scenes etc.
Problem is she misses kids. Found a middle school teacher to home
school her just til end of this year so that is going great.
Was forced to have contact with John very briefly over conference (we
make sure we are not both at same conference) and was very gut
wrenching . . .but we settled it for next two years so we won't have to
have contact. Also, a professor friend of mine is dealing with future
arrangements with him to contact not direct. "It" is very far away now
- several universes - but the aspect that remains is self-contempt,
deep abiding contempt, and this is as one could imagine hard to live
with.
My article on blood sanction and suffering is finally getting published
in good journal and I teach medieval history here in summer. These are
good things. But I feel like an imposter, and I am slipping behind in
work because of time with Maria, health, and depression. See doctor
about med adjustment in a couple of weeks. . . found a girl I'd like to
have coffee with and strike up a friendship. Just not sure how to go
about it anymore. Every time I open my mouth to speak on a subject in
class, or anywhere, I can taste my foot.
How is everyone? Seriously. Tell me please. Missed you all.
Rosena
neep
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| User: "Rosena" |
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11 Feb 2006 04:34:47 PM |
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What is neep??
Best
Rosena
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| User: "humble.life" |
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11 Feb 2006 04:40:52 PM |
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Rosena wrote:
What is neep??
Best
Rosena
everyone asks that
i don't know
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