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"Rosena" |
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29 May 2005 01:45:58 PM |
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@ Rough Time @ |
I don't know if it is the surgery or the fact that we move and start a
whole new life in a couple of months, but I am in a setback. This
entire last eight years since the initial breakdown feel like a
struggle to keep my head and Maria's above water. There is no rest
from the struggle to survive - in basics - such as sanity, housing,
food, and creating even the smallest kind of home for her and me. . .
Dwelling on past and it takes such monumental effort to force my will
to do otherwise.
Exhausted yet inside sick with nerves that churn the fluids of my
stomach in a constant turmoil.
I am fighting against what is obviously best. Leif is downstairs
making me eggs, bacon and a bagel since I still cannot stand or walk in
kitchen to cook. John would never do this (even in best of times) for
he expected a woman to serve him and he is not good about caring for
another. He gets edgy and befuddled. I should appreciate Leif doing
this and be thankful I do not have to depend on John to help. . . I am
twisted. So fucking twisted.
Rosena
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| User: "Rhiannon" |
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| Title: Re: @ Rough Time @ |
29 May 2005 04:42:39 PM |
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"Rosena" <filpriros@aol.com> wrote in message
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I am twisted. So fucking twisted.
Rosena
No. Just human. How dare you? <g>
--
rhianon@sympatico.ca
"Often but unfortunately, our best view of
God is from Hell."
@LW2005
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| User: "lisa in mass." |
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| Title: Re: @ Rough Time @ |
29 May 2005 05:45:30 PM |
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Rosena wrote...
I don't know if it is the surgery or the fact that we move
and start a whole new life in a couple of months, but I am
in a setback. This entire last eight years since the
initial breakdown feel like a struggle to keep my head and
Maria's above water. There is no rest from the struggle to
survive - in basics - such as sanity, housing, food, and
creating even the smallest kind of home for her and me. . .
Dwelling on past and it takes such monumental effort to
force my will to do otherwise.
Exhausted yet inside sick with nerves that churn the fluids
of my stomach in a constant turmoil.
I am fighting against what is obviously best. Leif is
downstairs making me eggs, bacon and a bagel since I still
cannot stand or walk in kitchen to cook. John would never
do this (even in best of times) for he expected a woman to
serve him and he is not good about caring for another. He
gets edgy and befuddled. I should appreciate Leif doing
this and be thankful I do not have to depend on John to
help. . . I am twisted. So fucking twisted.
Rosena
try to keep in mind that you're going to settle down for a few
years soon. maybe that will help.
as much as leif is a jerk, i'm glad he's there to help you out
now. did the docs say how much longer it will be before you'll
really be up and about?
-lisa
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| User: "%." |
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| Title: Re: @ Rough Time @ |
29 May 2005 02:01:17 PM |
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i think its because you need more attention than a boiling over pot ,
you just did all this move and start a new life a few months ago ,
professionals call it , " The Geographical Change " and it never works
"Rosena" <filpriros@aol.com> wrote in message
news:1117392358.517071.214070@g43g2000cwa.googlegroups.com...
I don't know if it is the surgery or the fact that we move and start a
whole new life in a couple of months, but I am in a setback. This
entire last eight years since the initial breakdown feel like a
struggle to keep my head and Maria's above water. There is no rest
from the struggle to survive - in basics - such as sanity, housing,
food, and creating even the smallest kind of home for her and me. . .
Dwelling on past and it takes such monumental effort to force my will
to do otherwise.
Exhausted yet inside sick with nerves that churn the fluids of my
stomach in a constant turmoil.
I am fighting against what is obviously best. Leif is downstairs
making me eggs, bacon and a bagel since I still cannot stand or walk in
kitchen to cook. John would never do this (even in best of times) for
he expected a woman to serve him and he is not good about caring for
another. He gets edgy and befuddled. I should appreciate Leif doing
this and be thankful I do not have to depend on John to help. . . I am
twisted. So fucking twisted.
Rosena
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| User: "Rhiannon" |
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| Title: Re: @ Rough Time @ |
29 May 2005 04:48:12 PM |
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"%." <surfs@uniserve.com> wrote in message
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i think its because you need more attention than a boiling over pot ,
you just did all this move and start a new life a few months ago ,
professionals call it , " The Geographical Change " and it never works
You're right. On the other hand she does have to go to where the jobs are
offered no?
--
rhianon@sympatico.ca
"Often but unfortunately, our best view of
God is from Hell."
@LW2005
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| User: "%." |
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| Title: Re: @ Rough Time @ |
29 May 2005 04:21:07 PM |
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"Rhiannon" <rhianon@sympatico.ca> wrote in message
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"%." <surfs@uniserve.com> wrote in message
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i think its because you need more attention than a boiling over pot ,
you just did all this move and start a new life a few months ago ,
professionals call it , " The Geographical Change " and it never works
You're right. On the other hand she does have to go to where the jobs are
offered no?
--
rhianon@sympatico.ca
"Often but unfortunately, our best view of
God is from Hell."
@LW2005
then its a continuation of a process not a new begining
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| User: "Rosena" |
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| Title: Re: @ Rough Time @ |
29 May 2005 04:19:37 PM |
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Rhiannon wrote:
"%." <surfs@uniserve.com> wrote in message
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i think its because you need more attention than a boiling over pot ,
you just did all this move and start a new life a few months ago ,
professionals call it , " The Geographical Change " and it never works
You're right. On the other hand she does have to go to where the jobs are
offered no?
Thanks . . .I think? :) Dave always forgets the facts such as this is
a one year visitorship and grad school is next. He seems to like to do
that, forget facts, so he can ***** at me a lot. He seems to get a
kick out of it. Don't know why.
Rosena
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| User: "Teilhard Knight" |
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| Title: Re: @ Rough Time @ |
29 May 2005 07:05:28 PM |
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"Rosena" <filpriros@aol.com> wrote in message
news:1117401577.036108.287050@g14g2000cwa.googlegroups.com...
Rhiannon wrote:
"%." <surfs@uniserve.com> wrote in message
news:119k4avsi4mac64@corp.supernews.com...
i think its because you need more attention than a boiling over pot ,
you just did all this move and start a new life a few months ago ,
professionals call it , " The Geographical Change " and it never works
You're right. On the other hand she does have to go to where the jobs
are
offered no?
Thanks . . .I think? :) Dave always forgets the facts such as this is
a one year visitorship and grad school is next. He seems to like to do
that, forget facts, so he can ***** at me a lot. He seems to get a
kick out of it. Don't know why.
Because he is a jerk, Rosena. He lives like a peasant and he doesn't have
the needs the rest of us have. He talks everyday to his cow and with that
and getting drunk on a regular basis, he is OK(?).
--
Teilhard Knight
The Extraterrestrial
Change "privacy" for "softhome" if you want to intrude my inbox
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| User: "" |
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| Title: Re: @ Rough Time @ |
29 May 2005 02:49:57 PM |
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On Sun, 29 May 2005 12:01:17 -0700, "%." <surfs@uniserve.com> wrote:
->i think its because you need more attention than a boiling over pot ,
->you just did all this move and start a new life a few months ago ,
->professionals call it , " The Geographical Change " and it never works
:-X
->> I am fighting against what is obviously best. Leif is downstairs
->> making me eggs, bacon and a bagel since I still cannot stand or walk in
->> kitchen to cook. John would never do this (even in best of times) for
->> he expected a woman to serve him and he is not good about caring for
->> another. He gets edgy and befuddled. I should appreciate Leif doing
->> this and be thankful I do not have to depend on John to help. . . I am
->> twisted. So fucking twisted.
Yeah, you should be grateful. Imagine if no one were around to help
you with meals when you're too sick to get them yourself. That's my
reality, baby.
Grow the hell up.
Oh, wait, I'm a spoiled little princess. Never mind.
--
I've always loved me, I was just taught that I didn't.
- %
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| User: "Luna" |
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| Title: Re: @ Rough Time @ |
29 May 2005 03:07:37 PM |
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"notchimera" <dont@bother.com> wrote in message
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On Sun, 29 May 2005 12:01:17 -0700, "%." <surfs@uniserve.com> wrote:
->i think its because you need more attention than a boiling over pot ,
->you just did all this move and start a new life a few months ago ,
->professionals call it , " The Geographical Change " and it never works
:-X
->> I am fighting against what is obviously best. Leif is downstairs
->> making me eggs, bacon and a bagel since I still cannot stand or walk in
->> kitchen to cook. John would never do this (even in best of times) for
->> he expected a woman to serve him and he is not good about caring for
->> another. He gets edgy and befuddled. I should appreciate Leif doing
->> this and be thankful I do not have to depend on John to help. . . I am
->> twisted. So fucking twisted.
Yeah, you should be grateful. Imagine if no one were around to help
you with meals when you're too sick to get them yourself. That's my
reality, baby.
Grow the hell up.
I see you're not going back to school after all. Boy, was I ever shocked to
read that.
<eye gymnastics>
Jean
Oh, wait, I'm a spoiled little princess. Never mind.
--
I've always loved me, I was just taught that I didn't.
- %
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| User: "packrat" |
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| Title: Re: @ Rough Time @ |
29 May 2005 06:14:11 PM |
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Hey Claudia,
I know it's hard as hell not to have anyone to fall back on or to nurse you
when you've had surgery like what you've been through in the last year or
so. It plain sucks and it's not fair that some people have someone to help
when other don't have anyone. I feel for you, I honestly do. I'm sorry
life has been nothing but hard knocks for you, harder than I could imagine.
I've read your posts, I wouldn't want to have to go through it, none of us
here would either.
It doesn't make it right to come down on Rosena either. She's struggling to
make it through a bunch of crap too. Trying to get on her feet after a
serious surgery. Yeah she's fortunate to have help. She's still going
through a bunch of stuff though.
I'm not attacking you, otoh, I cringe seeing someone trying to make it
through get kicked when they're down.
I do wish you the best, as I do Rosena.
Cindi
"notchimera" <dont@bother.com> wrote in message
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On Sun, 29 May 2005 12:01:17 -0700, "%." <surfs@uniserve.com> wrote:
->i think its because you need more attention than a boiling over pot ,
->you just did all this move and start a new life a few months ago ,
->professionals call it , " The Geographical Change " and it never works
:-X
->> I am fighting against what is obviously best. Leif is downstairs
->> making me eggs, bacon and a bagel since I still cannot stand or walk
in
->> kitchen to cook. John would never do this (even in best of times) for
->> he expected a woman to serve him and he is not good about caring for
->> another. He gets edgy and befuddled. I should appreciate Leif doing
->> this and be thankful I do not have to depend on John to help. . . I
am
->> twisted. So fucking twisted.
Yeah, you should be grateful. Imagine if no one were around to help
you with meals when you're too sick to get them yourself. That's my
reality, baby.
Grow the hell up.
Oh, wait, I'm a spoiled little princess. Never mind.
--
I've always loved me, I was just taught that I didn't.
- %
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| User: "" |
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| Title: Re: @ Rough Time @ |
29 May 2005 08:18:32 PM |
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On Sun, 29 May 2005 23:14:11 GMT, "packrat" <maddie_75@yahoo.com>
wrote:
->It doesn't make it right to come down on Rosena either. She's struggling to
->make it through a bunch of crap too. Trying to get on her feet after a
->serious surgery. Yeah she's fortunate to have help. She's still going
->through a bunch of stuff though.
I'm only giving back what she's given me.
I don't wish Rosena any harm. Yes, she's struggling too. I am sick of
her whiny romantic crap and her fixation on John.
->I'm not attacking you, otoh, I cringe seeing someone trying to make it
->through get kicked when they're down.
Tell that to Rosena. Again, I don't want to see any harm come to her.
I'm tired of people seeing her as some kind of saint. She's kicked me
too many times to count.
->I do wish you the best, as I do Rosena.
I hope you can get out of your parents' house ASAP. I'm sorry your
divorce has been so awful.
--
I've always loved me, I was just taught that I didn't.
- %
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| User: "Rosena" |
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29 May 2005 04:02:22 PM |
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Oh shut the ***** up Claudia:
1. You have been around ASD long enough to know it is a sin of
stupidity to compare people's troubles. I am sure we both have our war
stories (I know I have mine which you know nothing about), your war is
your own, and mine is my own. You idiot.
2. All you ever doooooooo is complain and complain AND then do
absolutely nothing. It really is disgusting (and I very rarely use
this word to describe other's actions). You play the victim endlessly.
I too am not surpised you did not stick school out.
3. And BTW - While I am not spoiled, though I loved to be spoiled and
giggle like most girls would, I am indeed rather queenly insofar as I
try to live a noble life and you damn well should follow my example.
Rosena ( really peeved)
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| User: "Luna" |
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| Title: Re: @ Rough Time @ |
29 May 2005 04:25:47 PM |
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"Rosena" <filpriros@aol.com> wrote in message
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Oh shut the ***** up Claudia:
1. You have been around ASD long enough to know it is a sin of
stupidity to compare people's troubles. I am sure we both have our war
stories (I know I have mine which you know nothing about), your war is
your own, and mine is my own. You idiot.
2. All you ever doooooooo is complain and complain AND then do
absolutely nothing. It really is disgusting (and I very rarely use
this word to describe other's actions). You play the victim endlessly.
I too am not surpised you did not stick school out.
3. And BTW - While I am not spoiled, though I loved to be spoiled and
giggle like most girls would, I am indeed rather queenly insofar as I
try to live a noble life and you damn well should follow my example.
Brava, Rosena.
Getting told to grow up by someone like Claudia rates awfully high on my irony
meter.
Jean
Rosena ( really peeved)
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