I realize this sounds dramatic and it is silly to post on my newsgroup,
but I think I am dying. Something is really really wrong health wise.
I am so exhausted it is like I have been up for three days always and
my chest hurts . . .I got the day wrong again. I start teaching
Monday. The paper is only half done . . .
It is bad enough that I could go to hospital but no one is here to care
for Maria, and they would be running tests for hours. I have to go
Monday after class. I have to. I swear I am too tierd to get in car
and get to doctor (let alone class).
I really do not want to die now or leave Maria. If anyone wants to talk
that would be nice. I am feeeling scared.
Going back to paper - Maria is watching a movie
I want to say something - do something - but it is on tip of my brain
and not sure what it is.
Rosena
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| User: "%" |
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10 Jun 2006 02:33:32 PM |
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"Rosena" <filpriros@aol.com> wrote in message
news:1149967957.591333.176530@m38g2000cwc.googlegroups.com...
I realize this sounds dramatic and it is silly to post on my newsgroup,
but I think I am dying. Something is really really wrong health wise.
I am so exhausted it is like I have been up for three days always and
my chest hurts . . .I got the day wrong again. I start teaching
Monday. The paper is only half done . . .
It is bad enough that I could go to hospital but no one is here to care
for Maria, and they would be running tests for hours. I have to go
Monday after class. I have to. I swear I am too tierd to get in car
and get to doctor (let alone class).
I really do not want to die now or leave Maria. If anyone wants to talk
that would be nice. I am feeeling scared.
Going back to paper - Maria is watching a movie
I want to say something - do something - but it is on tip of my brain
and not sure what it is.
Rosena
oh geeeez
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| User: "Noon Cat Nick" |
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10 Jun 2006 04:56:58 PM |
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Rosena wrote:
I realize this sounds dramatic and it is silly to post on my newsgroup,
but I think I am dying. Something is really really wrong health wise.
I am so exhausted it is like I have been up for three days always and
my chest hurts . . .I got the day wrong again. I start teaching
Monday. The paper is only half done . . .
It is bad enough that I could go to hospital but no one is here to care
for Maria, and they would be running tests for hours. I have to go
Monday after class. I have to. I swear I am too tierd to get in car
and get to doctor (let alone class).
I really do not want to die now or leave Maria. If anyone wants to talk
that would be nice. I am feeeling scared.
Going back to paper - Maria is watching a movie
I want to say something - do something - but it is on tip of my brain
and not sure what it is.
Sorry, R. I hafta leave shortly to perform in the orchestra for Aida, so
talking's not possible right now. I'd phone you or drive to C-U if I
could. All I can do right now is remind you that you remain in my heart
and my thoughts.
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| User: "Rosena" |
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10 Jun 2006 05:38:11 PM |
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Thanks Nick,
I am real glad you are performing - I mean it - I think it is just
great, and that you are doing it while you are having this difficult
time. Have a good performance! Let me know how it goes.
Rosena
Noon Cat Nick wrote:
Rosena wrote:
I realize this sounds dramatic and it is silly to post on my newsgroup,
but I think I am dying. Something is really really wrong health wise.
I am so exhausted it is like I have been up for three days always and
my chest hurts . . .I got the day wrong again. I start teaching
Monday. The paper is only half done . . .
It is bad enough that I could go to hospital but no one is here to care
for Maria, and they would be running tests for hours. I have to go
Monday after class. I have to. I swear I am too tierd to get in car
and get to doctor (let alone class).
I really do not want to die now or leave Maria. If anyone wants to talk
that would be nice. I am feeeling scared.
Going back to paper - Maria is watching a movie
I want to say something - do something - but it is on tip of my brain
and not sure what it is.
Sorry, R. I hafta leave shortly to perform in the orchestra for Aida, so
talking's not possible right now. I'd phone you or drive to C-U if I
could. All I can do right now is remind you that you remain in my heart
and my thoughts.
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| User: "Noon Cat Nick" |
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12 Jun 2006 12:23:10 AM |
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Rosena wrote:
I am real glad you are performing - I mean it - I think it is just
great, and that you are doing it while you are having this difficult
time. Have a good performance! Let me know how it goes.
Yeah, the performances are going very well. The audiences are quite
enthusiastic about the show. Now if we can only get more people to show
up...
Three days off, then we resume on Thursday.
Get yourself to the doctor, okay?
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| User: "Contrarian" |
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12 Jun 2006 02:33:45 AM |
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Noon Cat Nick <chatdemidiSPAMBEGONE@hotmail.com> wrote:
Rosena wrote:
Yeah, the performances are going very well. The audiences are quite
enthusiastic about the show. Now if we can only get more people to show
up...
Ah, yes. This is great to hear, N.C.N.
Get yourself to the doctor, okay?
Second that. Or third, since I already posted to
that effect.
And you (@R) should find a therapist. Not a run-of-the-mill
one, but one with expertise in trauma and recovery. University
towns are often a good place to find one.
--
but the edge is still Out there. Or maybe it's In... HST (1967)
when i got to the edge , i built a deck % (2005)
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| User: "Noon Cat Nick" |
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12 Jun 2006 07:05:56 AM |
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Contrarian wrote:
And you (@R) should find a therapist. Not a run-of-the-mill
one, but one with expertise in trauma and recovery. University
towns are often a good place to find one.
Precisely.
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| User: "jill" |
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10 Jun 2006 03:53:56 PM |
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Rosena wrote:
I realize this sounds dramatic and it is silly to post on my newsgroup,
but I think I am dying. Something is really really wrong health wise.
I am so exhausted it is like I have been up for three days always and
my chest hurts . . .I got the day wrong again. I start teaching
Monday. The paper is only half done . . .
It is bad enough that I could go to hospital but no one is here to care
for Maria, and they would be running tests for hours. I have to go
Monday after class. I have to. I swear I am too tierd to get in car
and get to doctor (let alone class).
I really do not want to die now or leave Maria. If anyone wants to talk
that would be nice. I am feeeling scared.
Going back to paper - Maria is watching a movie
I want to say something - do something - but it is on tip of my brain
and not sure what it is.
Rosena
I highjacked your other post and went on about coons .. I am so bad at
being supportive. I have noticed lately I only want everybody to listen
to my problems. To be sounding boards for my life. Its disgusting ..
and then when I read back something I wrote or replay a conversation in
my mind ,, I am disgusted and I feel ridiculous , disgusted and
ridiculous.. thats me..
I wish I could say something to make it all seem not so hard but I am
just filled with self loathing. the itchy creepy kind that makes me
feel all twitchy,, maybe hearing my woes has distracted you alittle
from yours.
best, jill
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| User: "Rosena" |
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10 Jun 2006 03:59:56 PM |
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Oh Jill,
I am so sorry you are feeling this bad!!!! Why would you feel self
loathing - you are so wonderful. As someone once remarked even your
writing style shows this dancing sweet flighty (in a good way) sweet
persona!
Be happy you sold your truck, maybe really do something special. Do
you have friends you get out with or do you isolate like me? You
should - I don't know - go drinking and dancing or some wonderful movie
buying spree - I know you love movies like me.
Remember what you said - little things eh? - I will wait for your movie
review. My email is always open to you.
Thanks for good thought. I am just scared. I have been putting off
doctor too long but if it gets bad today I will go to hospital. YUCK
eh?
kisses
Rosena
jill wrote:
Rosena wrote:
I realize this sounds dramatic and it is silly to post on my newsgroup,
but I think I am dying. Something is really really wrong health wise.
I am so exhausted it is like I have been up for three days always and
my chest hurts . . .I got the day wrong again. I start teaching
Monday. The paper is only half done . . .
It is bad enough that I could go to hospital but no one is here to care
for Maria, and they would be running tests for hours. I have to go
Monday after class. I have to. I swear I am too tierd to get in car
and get to doctor (let alone class).
I really do not want to die now or leave Maria. If anyone wants to talk
that would be nice. I am feeeling scared.
Going back to paper - Maria is watching a movie
I want to say something - do something - but it is on tip of my brain
and not sure what it is.
Rosena
I highjacked your other post and went on about coons .. I am so bad at
being supportive. I have noticed lately I only want everybody to listen
to my problems. To be sounding boards for my life. Its disgusting ..
and then when I read back something I wrote or replay a conversation in
my mind ,, I am disgusted and I feel ridiculous , disgusted and
ridiculous.. thats me..
I wish I could say something to make it all seem not so hard but I am
just filled with self loathing. the itchy creepy kind that makes me
feel all twitchy,, maybe hearing my woes has distracted you alittle
from yours.
best, jill
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| User: "used2be" |
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11 Jun 2006 02:38:55 PM |
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Rosena wrote:
I realize this sounds dramatic and it is silly to post on my newsgroup,
but I think I am dying. Something is really really wrong health wise.
I am so exhausted it is like I have been up for three days always and
my chest hurts . . .I got the day wrong again. I start teaching
Monday. The paper is only half done . . .
<snip>
i'm so sorry you are feeling so badly, rosena. it can't be easy to do
everything you have to do and feel as badly as you are feeling. i hope
you will get yourself to the doctor on monday and that everything will
be okay.
hang in there girl!
~u2b
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| User: "Nathan Stehle" |
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10 Jun 2006 08:09:56 PM |
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in article 1149967957.591333.176530@m38g2000cwc.googlegroups.com, Rosena at
filpriros@aol.com wrote on 6/10/06 2:32 PM:
I realize this sounds dramatic and it is silly to post on my newsgroup,
but I think I am dying. Something is really really wrong health wise.
I am so exhausted it is like I have been up for three days always and
my chest hurts . . .I got the day wrong again. I start teaching
Monday. The paper is only half done . . .
It is bad enough that I could go to hospital but no one is here to care
for Maria, and they would be running tests for hours. I have to go
Monday after class. I have to. I swear I am too tierd to get in car
and get to doctor (let alone class).
I really do not want to die now or leave Maria. If anyone wants to talk
that would be nice. I am feeeling scared.
Going back to paper - Maria is watching a movie
I want to say something - do something - but it is on tip of my brain
and not sure what it is.
Rosena
{{{{{Rosena}}}}}
Have you gone to see a doctor? You've been under so much stress, and with
everything, that can't be helping.
--
"They that can give up essential liberty to obtain a little temporary safety
deserve neither liberty nor safety."
Benjamin Franklin, Historical Review of Pennsylvania, 1759
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| User: "Rosena" |
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10 Jun 2006 11:37:41 PM |
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Hi Nathan,
Thanks - Stress surely is contributing. A bit better tonight than last
night. Doctor for sure on Monday! I don't have measure really of how
much energy you lose as you get older, maybe this is less of a concern
than I think, just real scared.
Hope all well with you?
Best
Rosena
Nathan Stehle wrote:
in article 1149967957.591333.176530@m38g2000cwc.googlegroups.com, Rosena at
filpriros@aol.com wrote on 6/10/06 2:32 PM:
I realize this sounds dramatic and it is silly to post on my newsgroup,
but I think I am dying. Something is really really wrong health wise.
I am so exhausted it is like I have been up for three days always and
my chest hurts . . .I got the day wrong again. I start teaching
Monday. The paper is only half done . . .
It is bad enough that I could go to hospital but no one is here to care
for Maria, and they would be running tests for hours. I have to go
Monday after class. I have to. I swear I am too tierd to get in car
and get to doctor (let alone class).
I really do not want to die now or leave Maria. If anyone wants to talk
that would be nice. I am feeeling scared.
Going back to paper - Maria is watching a movie
I want to say something - do something - but it is on tip of my brain
and not sure what it is.
Rosena
{{{{{Rosena}}}}}
Have you gone to see a doctor? You've been under so much stress, and with
everything, that can't be helping.
--
"They that can give up essential liberty to obtain a little temporary safety
deserve neither liberty nor safety."
Benjamin Franklin, Historical Review of Pennsylvania, 1759
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| User: "Contrarian" |
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12 Jun 2006 02:31:04 AM |
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Rosena <filpriros@aol.com> wrote:
Hi Nathan,
Thanks - Stress surely is contributing. A bit better tonight than last
night. Doctor for sure on Monday! I don't have measure really of how
much energy you lose as you get older, maybe this is less of a concern
than I think, just real scared.
Hie thyself to an M.D. soon, as in "today".
Don't diagnosis as psychogenic what might not be. Please go.
Thanks for yr msg of days past. Yes I think I
did get up and out.
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but the edge is still Out there. Or maybe it's In... HST (1967)
when i got to the edge , i built a deck % (2005)
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| User: "aaron from suburbia" |
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10 Jun 2006 11:50:49 PM |
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it's not silly or dramatic when you feel this way. I'm sorry you're
having such a bad time.
In times like these, it's best to -keep talking- don't shut down. call
your doctor. call a hotline.
call a friend. keep posting. email, chat, instant message. whatever it
takes to feel better.
i'm pretty bad at being supportive. don't know what else to say. but I hope
you gonna be okay.
stay busy. stay distracted. hang in there.
"Rosena" <filpriros@aol.com> wrote in message
news:1149967957.591333.176530@m38g2000cwc.googlegroups.com...
I realize this sounds dramatic and it is silly to post on my newsgroup,
but I think I am dying. Something is really really wrong health wise.
I am so exhausted it is like I have been up for three days always and
my chest hurts . . .I got the day wrong again. I start teaching
Monday. The paper is only half done . . .
It is bad enough that I could go to hospital but no one is here to care
for Maria, and they would be running tests for hours. I have to go
Monday after class. I have to. I swear I am too tierd to get in car
and get to doctor (let alone class).
I really do not want to die now or leave Maria. If anyone wants to talk
that would be nice. I am feeeling scared.
Going back to paper - Maria is watching a movie
I want to say something - do something - but it is on tip of my brain
and not sure what it is.
Rosena
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