At the doctor's the other day, when I was getting my bloodwork drawn,
the assistant was kind of close (nothing unusual) and I smelled her
breath. It kind of reminded me of being close to someone like that,
maybe she got a signal from me or something. This is the kind of social
anxiety I have on occasion, from a low self-image. It reminded me how
normal I am, and that I am a little overweight. She was attractive, I
kept looking at her.

I am kind of interested in someone I met a long time ago, at a village
inn here in town, that was one reason why I stayed here for so long,
that I would meet her one day, or she would find out who I am. I guess
I've held on to the memory, for some reason. I think I am still
interested in holding on, but maybe more rational and less emphasized. I
hope some of you understand.