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Sociology > Depression |
| User: |
"Who Cares" |
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23 Apr 2004 12:18:16 PM |
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Battling depression! |
And its working. I havent been truly depressed in a week .. even though
this week has been really bad for me in terms of falling out with a couple
of good friends .. almost breaking up with my band .. messing up 2 major
reports and presentations .... but for some reason .. I'm happy.
Well .. this is how Ive been keeping myself happy. Im no longer thinking of
taking it one step at a time. Ive started thinking about the bigger
picture. Ive started thinking about what happens 10 years down the road and
not the next day. And for some reason .. I have this feeling that I'll be
happy 10 years from now .. that life will change ..that somehow I will find
people that will make me feel important and that I have will have
importance in their lives.
I had a falling out with that girl I keep posting about. Some of you that
have been following my posts will know who Im talking about. I realised
that she's not important enough for me to be stressing over. I was kinda
getting romantically involved with her .. told her flat out that I think Im
getting involved with you .. and that it would be better if we didn't spend
any more time together. She was ok with it as well .. I might as well save
my feelings for someone that can return them.
Anyways . I almost broke up with my band as well .. Our show on Sunday
night was a huge mess .. we spent 24 hours waiting for some quality
practice time, but the organizers fucked things up for us. And then made it
worse by shifting our slot to the end, meaning half the people left before
we could get on stage. I let the lead vocalist have it afterwards .. and
half the college knows that we had a fight. But then I apologised and
things are smooth for now
Despite all this crap .. I'm not depressed .. which is a huge deal for me
... because in the past smaller things have made me feel terrible. You know
... some of it can be attributed to the fact that I can come home every
night and express it somewhere .. even if it is in a world of binary codes.
:)
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| User: "Don Exist" |
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| Title: Re: Battling depression! |
23 Apr 2004 08:22:03 PM |
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Good fighter, keep it up!
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