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Sociology > Depression |
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"mighty mouse" |
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30 Dec 2006 06:45:44 AM |
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bloody anxiety |
(repost, bloody OE stuck the original post in the middle of an old thread.)
Why is it that as soon as I reflect on things and acknowledge to myself or
to others that I'm doing ok, I almost immediately have an increase in my
anxiety or depressive symptoms? I know it's just some form of
self-sabotage, that on some level I'm afraid of feeling better and losing
the support I have and the automatic excuse that if I fail, it's because of
the anxiety / depression.
I can understand all that on a theoretical level, and I've spoken to my pdoc
and therapist about it. But despite working hard at changing my thought
patterns and repeated reassurance that even if I'm better I can still get
help when ever I feel I need it, I'm still stuck at this point.
Now, as I reflect on how I've coped this year and I try to put a positive
spin on things, that moment of positive thinking that I've done ok
considering how bad I've felt at times this year has come back to bite me.
Two nights running now, my mind has been in an anxious spiral that only
stops when I get exhausted. I felt ok during the day, otherwise I would
have tried to contact my therp, but now it's too late. I could try to call
tomorrow, but getting privacy around here can be a nightmare.
I think I'll be ok, but this spiral will repeat again and again until I work
out how to break free. If anyone's reading and they've been here before,
any suggestions would be appreciated.
Please excuse any typo's. My concentration isn't good atm.
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| User: "electro" |
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| Title: Re: bloody anxiety |
30 Dec 2006 11:21:55 AM |
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I think I'm there right now.. ..the only suggestion I have is: find
something constructive to do to curb the anxiety.. ..that is if you tend to
sit and stew like I do.. ..if you're already busy running around
juggling things then I guess maybe try to find some kind of activity that is
relaxing.. ..and something *new*
I get really bad insomnia with my anxiety.. ..last night I didn't get to
sleep til 6:45am.. ..so, instead of lying in bed the whole time, I tackled
a project I'd been putting off.. ..and I felt much better..
Ty
"mighty mouse" <kye_99@NOSPAMyahoo.com> wrote in message
news:en5n04$k7j$1@news.datemas.de...
(repost, bloody OE stuck the original post in the middle of an old
thread.)
Why is it that as soon as I reflect on things and acknowledge to myself or
to others that I'm doing ok, I almost immediately have an increase in my
anxiety or depressive symptoms? I know it's just some form of
self-sabotage, that on some level I'm afraid of feeling better and losing
the support I have and the automatic excuse that if I fail, it's because
of the anxiety / depression.
I can understand all that on a theoretical level, and I've spoken to my
pdoc and therapist about it. But despite working hard at changing my
thought
patterns and repeated reassurance that even if I'm better I can still get
help when ever I feel I need it, I'm still stuck at this point.
Now, as I reflect on how I've coped this year and I try to put a positive
spin on things, that moment of positive thinking that I've done ok
considering how bad I've felt at times this year has come back to bite me.
Two nights running now, my mind has been in an anxious spiral that only
stops when I get exhausted. I felt ok during the day, otherwise I would
have tried to contact my therp, but now it's too late. I could try to
call tomorrow, but getting privacy around here can be a nightmare.
I think I'll be ok, but this spiral will repeat again and again until I
work out how to break free. If anyone's reading and they've been here
before,
any suggestions would be appreciated.
Please excuse any typo's. My concentration isn't good atm.
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| User: "mighty mouse" |
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| Title: Re: bloody anxiety |
31 Dec 2006 06:12:20 AM |
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"electro" <pewter_toast@NOhotmailSPAM.com> wrote in message
news:Texlh.532119$1T2.137935@pd7urf2no...
I think I'm there right now.. ..the only suggestion I have is: find
something constructive to do to curb the anxiety.. ..that is if you tend to
sit and stew like I do.. ..if you're already busy running around
juggling things then I guess maybe try to find some kind of activity that
is relaxing.. ..and something *new*
I get really bad insomnia with my anxiety.. ..last night I didn't get to
sleep til 6:45am.. ..so, instead of lying in bed the whole time, I
tackled a project I'd been putting off.. ..and I felt much better..
Ty
I find that the anxiety comes on much worse when I'm not distracted. In the
really bad times I'm just living my life running from one distraction to the
next, never really dealing with the cause of the anxiety. Luckily things
aren't that bad right now.
Nights are the worst. I listen to music while I'm at my computer, or watch
DVD's. When I sleep I listen to relaxation music quietly until I fall
asleep. Sometimes within 30 mins, sometimes it takes hours. One thing
about the anxiety, at least it exhausts me after a while.
I don't know what I can try that's new, but I'll think about it. Perhaps I
should start exercising at night.
Sorry you're feeling this way too Ty. But it's good to see you post again
:)
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| User: "Doug Laidlaw" |
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| Title: Re: bloody anxiety |
30 Dec 2006 08:18:56 AM |
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mighty mouse wrote:
(repost, bloody OE stuck the original post in the middle of an old
thread.)
Why is it that as soon as I reflect on things and acknowledge to myself or
to others that I'm doing ok, I almost immediately have an increase in my
anxiety or depressive symptoms? I know it's just some form of
self-sabotage, that on some level I'm afraid of feeling better and losing
the support I have and the automatic excuse that if I fail, it's because
of the anxiety / depression.
I can understand all that on a theoretical level, and I've spoken to my
pdoc
and therapist about it. But despite working hard at changing my thought
patterns and repeated reassurance that even if I'm better I can still get
help when ever I feel I need it, I'm still stuck at this point.
Now, as I reflect on how I've coped this year and I try to put a positive
spin on things, that moment of positive thinking that I've done ok
considering how bad I've felt at times this year has come back to bite me.
Two nights running now, my mind has been in an anxious spiral that only
stops when I get exhausted. I felt ok during the day, otherwise I would
have tried to contact my therp, but now it's too late. I could try to
call tomorrow, but getting privacy around here can be a nightmare.
I think I'll be ok, but this spiral will repeat again and again until I
work
out how to break free. If anyone's reading and they've been here before,
any suggestions would be appreciated.
Please excuse any typo's. My concentration isn't good atm.
Is it perhaps that you don't believe that it will last? Whether we are
feeling good or bad, we need to live only one day at a time.
I have about 3 days a month when I am pretty well a write-off (and I am a
man!). I can go almost by a lunar calendar. But I know that it will be
only 3 days.
Remember that your body is part of this as well, whatever the "experts" say.
I have a gene for depression, and all the attitude in the world won't
overcome that. But at the same time, I regard it as a disability, not an
illness, and to live to the full within its restrictions. My GP told me
only recently not to use the depression as an excuse. The temptation is
very subtle.
Doug L>
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The place for the knocker is outside the door.
- W.G.P.
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| User: "mighty mouse" |
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| Title: Re: bloody anxiety |
31 Dec 2006 06:03:01 AM |
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"Doug Laidlaw" <laidlaws@dougshost.invalid> wrote in message
news:h39i64-8p8.ln1@dougshost.douglaidlaw.net...
mighty mouse wrote:
(repost, bloody OE stuck the original post in the middle of an old
thread.)
Why is it that as soon as I reflect on things and acknowledge to myself
or
to others that I'm doing ok, I almost immediately have an increase in my
anxiety or depressive symptoms? I know it's just some form of
self-sabotage, that on some level I'm afraid of feeling better and losing
the support I have and the automatic excuse that if I fail, it's because
of the anxiety / depression.
I can understand all that on a theoretical level, and I've spoken to my
pdoc
and therapist about it. But despite working hard at changing my thought
patterns and repeated reassurance that even if I'm better I can still get
help when ever I feel I need it, I'm still stuck at this point.
Now, as I reflect on how I've coped this year and I try to put a positive
spin on things, that moment of positive thinking that I've done ok
considering how bad I've felt at times this year has come back to bite
me.
Two nights running now, my mind has been in an anxious spiral that only
stops when I get exhausted. I felt ok during the day, otherwise I would
have tried to contact my therp, but now it's too late. I could try to
call tomorrow, but getting privacy around here can be a nightmare.
I think I'll be ok, but this spiral will repeat again and again until I
work
out how to break free. If anyone's reading and they've been here before,
any suggestions would be appreciated.
Please excuse any typo's. My concentration isn't good atm.
Is it perhaps that you don't believe that it will last? Whether we are
feeling good or bad, we need to live only one day at a time.
I have about 3 days a month when I am pretty well a write-off (and I am a
man!). I can go almost by a lunar calendar. But I know that it will be
only 3 days.
Remember that your body is part of this as well, whatever the "experts"
say.
I have a gene for depression, and all the attitude in the world won't
overcome that. But at the same time, I regard it as a disability, not an
illness, and to live to the full within its restrictions. My GP told me
only recently not to use the depression as an excuse. The temptation is
very subtle.
Doug L>
--
The place for the knocker is outside the door.
- W.G.P.
I don't find that I can chart my increases in anxiety in relation to the
moon, hormones or anything else unfortunately. At least then I'd know when
to expect it.
I find it hard to accept that the depression and anxiety are disabilities
which I won't completely recover from. In the past, the only thing that's
kept me going when things were very dark is the belief that there was
something that would "fix" me. I know that's unrealistic, and that I have
to keep working to stay well, but it's hard because whenever I relax and
start to think that I can stop being afraid of crashing, and that things are
starting to be ok, I immediately crash again. Even if things have been
great for months, it seems to happen almost immediately after that thought.
I guess the lesson is don't take things for granted. Keep fighting, keep
pushing myself, keep believing that I have to work hard to maintain my
mental health. Because as soon as I lose that momentum, that
hypervigilance, things don't go so well.
And you're right, the temptation (not always consciously) to use depression
and anxiety as an excuse for not doing something, or failing at something
(for me, work) is always there.
Kylie
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| User: "%" |
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| Title: Re: bloody anxiety |
30 Dec 2006 09:12:27 AM |
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hi
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| User: "mighty mouse" |
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| Title: Re: bloody anxiety |
31 Dec 2006 06:08:38 AM |
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hi
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hi
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