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12 Sep 2007 09:52:01 AM |
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deep in the pit (long and rambling) |
It's been many months or a year or two since I last posted. I'm
really in the pit. My job was cut last summer, but then I was called
back to 2 weeks in July. I've been out of work since then. I'm
living off of savings. The company kept my benefits going until end
of Sept. I wasn't able to keep paying large $ for COBRA, so now I'm
uninsured. I've be deluged with offers for med insurance, but can't
make a decision. I see my pdoc every now & then, mainly for meds.
The pennants move out of my rental condo in Jan '06. I finally got
around to start fixing the place up in Oct '06. The condo was orig
managed by my ex-gf. I had to take over in Jan '05 cuz my ex was
collecting rent but not paying me. so I have a love HATE feeling
about the place. Anyway, I hired a handyman to take care of the big
stuff (tiling, carpet, etc), while I did smaller stuff (electrical
appliances, plumbing, painting trim). Working on the house was a full
time job for me. The condo went on the market in late May. Housing
slaes are sluggish. I had hoped that it would be sold by now cuz I
really need the $. So people tell me to look for a job. Sounds
simple, huh. But I've been so depressed that last 2~3 months that I
don't know if I can do a high tech job (I was a programmer) again. No
obly dod I need to convince a potential employer that I can do what my
resume says I can do, but _I need to convince myself_, too. Who would
want to hire a burned out depressed person? There's so much more I
need to say, but can't find the words or energy. At least I have my 2
cats to keep me company.
-Dave
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| User: "Noon Cat Nick" |
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| Title: Re: deep in the pit (long and rambling) |
12 Sep 2007 02:57:53 PM |
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wrote:
It's been many months or a year or two since I last posted. I'm
really in the pit. My job was cut last summer, but then I was called
back to 2 weeks in July. I've been out of work since then. I'm
living off of savings. The company kept my benefits going until end
of Sept. I wasn't able to keep paying large $ for COBRA, so now I'm
uninsured. I've be deluged with offers for med insurance, but can't
make a decision. I see my pdoc every now & then, mainly for meds.
The pennants move out of my rental condo in Jan '06. I finally got
around to start fixing the place up in Oct '06. The condo was orig
managed by my ex-gf. I had to take over in Jan '05 cuz my ex was
collecting rent but not paying me. so I have a love HATE feeling
about the place. Anyway, I hired a handyman to take care of the big
stuff (tiling, carpet, etc), while I did smaller stuff (electrical
appliances, plumbing, painting trim). Working on the house was a full
time job for me. The condo went on the market in late May. Housing
slaes are sluggish. I had hoped that it would be sold by now cuz I
really need the $. So people tell me to look for a job. Sounds
simple, huh. But I've been so depressed that last 2~3 months that I
don't know if I can do a high tech job (I was a programmer) again. No
obly dod I need to convince a potential employer that I can do what my
resume says I can do, but _I need to convince myself_, too. Who would
want to hire a burned out depressed person? There's so much more I
need to say, but can't find the words or energy. At least I have my 2
cats to keep me company.
-Dave
Now might be a good time to file for Social Security disability, SSI
disability, and Medicaid/Medicare. If there's an organization in your
area that provides mental health services, a case worker might be able
to help you fill out the forms. A letter from your pdoc stating you have
a disabling condition would also help with SSI or SSDI. If you get
turned down for Medicaid/Medicare, you can still apply for public aid.
I know you didn't specifically ask for advice in your post. And you
might not be keen on receiving public assistance...or on doing much of
anything right now, for that matter. I guess I'm thinking about your
cats, who seem to be a therapeutic presence for you. I'd hate for things
to get bad enough for you to the point where you might have to give them
up. (Yeah, it's a depressing thought in itself, and I apologize if
bringing it up made you feel more down.) What I'm thinking, I suppose,
is that, with your cats, it's more than just you that you have to take
care of. They're a comfort to you, I'm inferring, and you and they need
each other. I know my own cat has kept me going, even to a small extent,
when things have been really hard for me; and I'd be plain miserable
without him, even if I didn't have to deal with depression.
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| User: "David" |
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| Title: Re: deep in the pit (long and rambling) |
12 Sep 2007 10:28:20 AM |
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you're bloating
<vze24h5m@verizon.net> wrote in message
news:441ge31ksmjb0388c1bvvranlv0pd2v8n9@4ax.com...
It's been many months or a year or two since I last posted. I'm
really in the pit. My job was cut last summer, but then I was called
back to 2 weeks in July. I've been out of work since then. I'm
living off of savings. The company kept my benefits going until end
of Sept. I wasn't able to keep paying large $ for COBRA, so now I'm
uninsured. I've be deluged with offers for med insurance, but can't
make a decision. I see my pdoc every now & then, mainly for meds.
The pennants move out of my rental condo in Jan '06. I finally got
around to start fixing the place up in Oct '06. The condo was orig
managed by my ex-gf. I had to take over in Jan '05 cuz my ex was
collecting rent but not paying me. so I have a love HATE feeling
about the place. Anyway, I hired a handyman to take care of the big
stuff (tiling, carpet, etc), while I did smaller stuff (electrical
appliances, plumbing, painting trim). Working on the house was a full
time job for me. The condo went on the market in late May. Housing
slaes are sluggish. I had hoped that it would be sold by now cuz I
really need the $. So people tell me to look for a job. Sounds
simple, huh. But I've been so depressed that last 2~3 months that I
don't know if I can do a high tech job (I was a programmer) again. No
obly dod I need to convince a potential employer that I can do what my
resume says I can do, but _I need to convince myself_, too. Who would
want to hire a burned out depressed person? There's so much more I
need to say, but can't find the words or energy. At least I have my 2
cats to keep me company.
-Dave
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| User: "the_dawggie" |
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| Title: Re: deep in the pit (long and rambling) |
12 Sep 2007 11:34:55 PM |
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On Sep 13, 1:28 am, "David" <d...@davnet.name> wrote:
obly dod I need to convince a potential employer that I can do what my
resume says I can do, but _I need to convince myself_, too. Who would
want to hire a burned out depressed person? There's so much more I
need to say, but can't find the words or energy
Join the club, I'm sure there is a long line in this
NG. Programmer? yeah I'm one of those, C Basic, Java,
some assembly code. Computer hardware and design skills,
none of it interests me anymore.
I'm moving more towards automotive type stuff, I seem
to be more interested in it, however sleeping is my main
interest.
"Been there, done tha"t sums it up.
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