He goes on and on and doesn't make any snese. He rambles and his
thoughts go from one idea to the next with no real formula. He is
possesed by the evil that lives in this world and enfects some of us.
The monster he is is a result of the evil that lives in this world.
yes hate him yes he did bad things why is it so hard to imagine taht
there are somtimes explantations that you may not understand? Why is
it so hard for people to accept that people can bge infectied with an
evilness that theycan't always fight and win?
Is it good engouth taht the evil people lose thiery families? Is it
good enough that ehy live all alone in the world now? Is thaty
payback enough for not being strong enough to not fight it
successfuylly? It wins sometimes and it speasks for y8ou. If you
have never met that kind fo evil and never had to fight that kind of
evil form getting inside you then you cant possibly understand how
hard it can be.
It beat him. I'ts beaten me. It took everything I ever had ever
loved and ever wantede in my whole life. It winhs. It always wins.
They havennt inventied a medication to keep this monster away. They
don't have a therapy to make them not exist.
He lives the rest of his life in a cell to relive teh evil he has
done. Only he knows what caused those things to happen. Only the
people who have expericned the evil monster know the truth. I'm sick
of fighting it cause I have nothing left to figh it for. There is
only me and it just doens't matter anyujmore. There are people in
thisw world who desefve teh pain tehy get. I'm all aobutu giveing
instead of recieving now. It has won. It always does. My cell
awaits.
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| User: "David" |
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| Title: Re: Factor X |
19 Aug 2005 04:40:39 AM |
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Hi Kenster,
Am sorry you're having problems. A lot of times my thoughts get a
jumbled later during the day, and it gets really scary sometimes,
because I think of all the things that could happen to me. My therapist
has been helping me with some coping skills to deal with some of these
thoughts, part of which is doing other things that can keep you busy.
Sometimes you have to make yourself get up and do something positive.
Yesterday I put together some book shelves, and did some much needed
cleaning. Meditation is also helpful, listening to relaxing music, or
letting your thoughts wonder is helpful. If your thoughts give you
anxiety you could mention this to your doctor, but usually it takes a
little effort to try and do things for yourself, but it can be done.
Hope this is helpful.
Kenster wrote:
He goes on and on and doesn't make any snese. He rambles and his
thoughts go from one idea to the next with no real formula. He is
possesed by the evil that lives in this world and enfects some of us.
The monster he is is a result of the evil that lives in this world.
yes hate him yes he did bad things why is it so hard to imagine taht
there are somtimes explantations that you may not understand? Why is
it so hard for people to accept that people can bge infectied with an
evilness that theycan't always fight and win?
Is it good engouth taht the evil people lose thiery families? Is it
good enough that ehy live all alone in the world now? Is thaty
payback enough for not being strong enough to not fight it
successfuylly? It wins sometimes and it speasks for y8ou. If you
have never met that kind fo evil and never had to fight that kind of
evil form getting inside you then you cant possibly understand how
hard it can be.
It beat him. I'ts beaten me. It took everything I ever had ever
loved and ever wantede in my whole life. It winhs. It always wins.
They havennt inventied a medication to keep this monster away. They
don't have a therapy to make them not exist.
He lives the rest of his life in a cell to relive teh evil he has
done. Only he knows what caused those things to happen. Only the
people who have expericned the evil monster know the truth. I'm sick
of fighting it cause I have nothing left to figh it for. There is
only me and it just doens't matter anyujmore. There are people in
thisw world who desefve teh pain tehy get. I'm all aobutu giveing
instead of recieving now. It has won. It always does. My cell
awaits.
.
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| User: "HanginIn" |
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| Title: Re: Factor X |
18 Aug 2005 11:48:00 PM |
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Well, we're here to listen, for what that's worth. You are at least
communicating your suffering. Sometimes that's all you can do - sometimes
you are helpless against the rest of it and just have to get through it for
a while.
I assume from your comment about medication that you are under regular care
of a psychiatrist. Also that you are taking the best of what's been tried on
you for meds. If not, get in to see a psychiatrist. Or go to the ER if it
gets really bad.
It sounds as if you may harm yourself or others. If this is the case,
definitely go to the ER. They will get you settled down for a while anyways.
Don't allow this to take you over. Sometimes that means surrendering your
care to others.
I'm sorry that you have to go through this. Sounds very hard.
scott
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He goes on and on and doesn't make any snese. He rambles and his
thoughts go from one idea to the next with no real formula. He is
possesed by the evil that lives in this world and enfects some of us.
The monster he is is a result of the evil that lives in this world.
yes hate him yes he did bad things why is it so hard to imagine taht
there are somtimes explantations that you may not understand? Why is
it so hard for people to accept that people can bge infectied with an
evilness that theycan't always fight and win?
Is it good engouth taht the evil people lose thiery families? Is it
good enough that ehy live all alone in the world now? Is thaty
payback enough for not being strong enough to not fight it
successfuylly? It wins sometimes and it speasks for y8ou. If you
have never met that kind fo evil and never had to fight that kind of
evil form getting inside you then you cant possibly understand how
hard it can be.
It beat him. I'ts beaten me. It took everything I ever had ever
loved and ever wantede in my whole life. It winhs. It always wins.
They havennt inventied a medication to keep this monster away. They
don't have a therapy to make them not exist.
He lives the rest of his life in a cell to relive teh evil he has
done. Only he knows what caused those things to happen. Only the
people who have expericned the evil monster know the truth. I'm sick
of fighting it cause I have nothing left to figh it for. There is
only me and it just doens't matter anyujmore. There are people in
thisw world who desefve teh pain tehy get. I'm all aobutu giveing
instead of recieving now. It has won. It always does. My cell
awaits.
.
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