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Sociology > Depression |
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"antje asaru" |
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23 Feb 2004 09:33:44 PM |
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Fear,,, & Intro |
Hello,
Its been almost a year since my last post... So much has happened and
at the same time so little... Just a quick intro, (or pledge?) I
spent some time on the psych hosp. then in a clinic about 3 months,
therapy, much less meds! :) And ive been, ok... tough times some good
ones.
But... the big one...
Im getting so damn tired, ive been doing my job, wich aint easy most
of the time, ive been blue, desperate, yes, but not like this. And I
can only think... Not again!!!!
This feeling of a void, not just in the stomach, in the heart, every
gut. This deep lonliness, the disconection, and im just starting, i
know, i know this feeling to well, and im getting scared, and anxious,
i cant seem to get past my bedroom door, tomorrow IŽll start with
risperdal, but it seems a lifetime before i can feel safe. I know a
med wont erase it, but sometimes it does calm me a little.
And theres that suicide and self harm ideas, and i dont want to feel
more lonley and outcast, and the anger, and regrests, so far i havent
done it again, but its like a splinter deep into the flesh, cant eat
well, cant sleep well. And all the doctors cant make a diference, its
better, but its still there.
I only feel fear and desperation, and i dont want it.
Asaru
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| User: "Whiskers" |
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| Title: Re: Fear,,, & Intro |
25 Feb 2004 02:51:53 PM |
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On Tue, 24 Feb 2004 03:33:44 +0000, antje asaru <asaru@axtel.netNOSPAM>
wrote:
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I only feel fear and desperation, and i dont want it.
Understood, and agreed. Sadly.
Welcome (back) to ASD :))
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| User: "JPT" |
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| Title: Re: Fear,,, & Intro |
24 Feb 2004 09:05:56 PM |
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On Tue, 24 Feb 2004 03:33:44 GMT, antje asaru <asaru@axtel.netNOSPAM>
wrote:
I only feel fear and desperation, and i dont want it.
I hope that the risperdal is indeed calming for you. Try to hang in
there until it has a chance to work. Be patient.
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"Hanging on in quiet desperation is the English way"
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