"cyberhive" <cyberh...@googlemail.com> wrote:

It's not bad is it? I like my chemical romance, they seem to have a
wonderful ability to bring the less mainstream culture into the public
eye, i think that most people like them now...

Well, there are still some lyrics in that song that just hurt....

"And we will send you reeling from decimated dreams
Your misery and hate will kill us all..."

" Though your dead and gone believe me Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated You're weary widow marches
on..."

"I could not care at all Do or die..."

I know that the song is trying to put a positive spin on these things,
to say that despite all these things that we can carry on, but right
now I'm in too much pain, and what I feel in those lyrics is what this
person is going through more than the determination to not let these
things keep them from living. Well, I've been there, in the fight to
go on, to carry on, and right now I am just not there, I am in the
dark pit of despair and hopelessness that no positive outlook,
positive thinking, changing my thoughts, etc can help at the moment.
I cannot change these feelings with the power of my brain. I'm tired
of fighting my way out of the nightmare known as severe depression
only to be back there again, each episode even worse than the one
before it. I have failed too many times in that fight, doing
everything I know possible to help myself, giving myself 'self care',
taking baby steps to do simple tasks, doing the most basic things
around the house, relying on my family in any way, to do anything
right now, except to come on this website. I'm weary, weary, weary,
and feel dead and empty inside, and right now I just feel like I can't
and won't fight my way out of this again only to find myself here
again at some point, most likely being even worse that this time,
though I don't know how that would be possible. So, that song is just
depressing to me, even though they are trying to give it a positve
spin. I hope you can understand what I'm saying...from what I
understand (and I could be wrong) from your activity in the group and
other's responses to you, you are young....all I can tell you is what
I am saying, how I feel, is as sure and as real as the sky being blue,
the sun rising and setting every day, as real as the fact that you're
living and breathing.

Rose