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"Used2Be" |
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22 Jan 2004 08:14:02 PM |
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feeling weary, sad and afraid... |
I just feel so down tonight. The reality of my husband's injury is sinking
in slowly, and I just feel so afraid. We were already struggling so much
because of job losses he's had in the last 4 years. And the job he has now
isn't all that great, but it's better than nothing. And now he's
practically disabled with his hand injury and unable to work for awhile, and
I'm so afraid of what the future will be like. I don't want to have to go
back to work full time. I finally had to quit my stressful job last spring
because it was making me so ill, and I was able to begin working part time
this past fall teaching music at my church's preschool. I love that job.
It's the first time in my life that I've actually enjoyed my job. And I
don't want to have to give it up. I also don't want to have to give up the
extra time I now have with my children. It's just not fair that as soon as
I get to do this, it might get taken away. <sigh> But I know that life
isn't fair. :-( I do know that. And I know that I must make the best of
it. But tonight I just feel so tired and afraid. I'm so tired of life
being a constant struggle. I just want things to work out so that I don't
have to worry so much about the future. Greg and I have been married nearly
20 years, and I'm still worried about the future. I always thought by now
we'd have things all figured out and I wouldn't have to worry so much at
this point in my life. But I'm a worrier by nature. And I guess I always
will be. It's part of what keeps me in a constant state of depression. But
I fight it, and I stay as up as I possibly can. I try not to let it get to
me. Yet, I am just constantly afraid. I hate that about myself. That I
can't let go of my worry. I know I can't control the future, so what good
is it to worry? I just wish things were easier. Don't we all? <sigh>
Yes, don't we all.
I'm just feeling terribly down and kind of hopeless tonight. Thanks to
anyone who bothered to listen to me ramble.
Feelin' sad,
u2b
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| User: "son of the yellow river" |
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22 Jan 2004 08:53:34 PM |
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"Used2Be" <cindyb@ERASETHISaustin.rr.com> wrote in message
news:Kr%Pb.9406$RR3.7439@fe1.texas.rr.com...
I'm just feeling terribly down and kind of hopeless tonight. Thanks to
anyone who bothered to listen to me ramble.
Feelin' sad,
u2b
maybe you can try to focus on the positives. no matter how bad things are,
they could be even worse...
i have no life-threatening or disabling illnesses. i have a well paid and
somewhat interesting job. i have food, shelter, and access to health care.
many people have more serious problems. i should keep that in mind.
focusing on the good things in life usually doesn't work for me, though. i
just keep feeling lonely and sad, and realize that my "life" is empty and
meaningless. a few more decades of work, then complete emptiness. i don't
look forward to retirement. it is going to feel terrible to retire and still
live alone. at least work gives me something to do, a reason to get up in
the morning.
well, i probably haven't made you feel any better, but i hope you will.
- sotyr
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| User: "Used2Be" |
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22 Jan 2004 09:18:09 PM |
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"son of the yellow river" wrote
maybe you can try to focus on the positives. no matter how bad things are,
they could be even worse...
yes, i tell myself that over and over. funny, but it doesn't make me feel
any better.
i have no life-threatening or disabling illnesses. i have a well paid and
somewhat interesting job. i have food, shelter, and access to health care.
many people have more serious problems. i should keep that in mind.
agreed. and i do keep that in mind when i can. yet, still, depression
often seeps in and steals all of my logical thought and attempts to think
positively.
focusing on the good things in life usually doesn't work for me, though. i
just keep feeling lonely and sad, and realize that my "life" is empty and
meaningless. a few more decades of work, then complete emptiness. i don't
look forward to retirement. it is going to feel terrible to retire and
still
live alone. at least work gives me something to do, a reason to get up in
the morning.
this is what royally pisses me off about depression. life feels empty even
when it isn't. and no matter how hard we try, that feeling doesn't go away.
it makes me so angry.
well, i probably haven't made you feel any better, but i hope you will.
i don't guess it's your job to make me feel better. but thanks for hoping
that i do. :)
u2b
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| User: "alvintchase" |
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23 Jan 2004 12:27:04 PM |
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"Used2Be" <cindyb@ERASETHISaustin.rr.com> wrote in message news:<Kr%Pb.9406$RR3.7439@fe1.texas.rr.com>...
I just feel so down tonight. The reality of my husband's injury is sinking
in slowly, and I just feel so afraid. We were already struggling so much
because of job losses he's had in the last 4 years. And the job he has now
isn't all that great, but it's better than nothing. And now he's
practically disabled with his hand injury and unable to work for awhile, and
I'm so afraid of what the future will be like. I don't want to have to go
back to work full time. I finally had to quit my stressful job last spring
because it was making me so ill, and I was able to begin working part time
this past fall teaching music at my church's preschool. I love that job.
It's the first time in my life that I've actually enjoyed my job. And I
don't want to have to give it up. I also don't want to have to give up the
extra time I now have with my children. It's just not fair that as soon as
I get to do this, it might get taken away. <sigh> But I know that life
isn't fair. :-( I do know that. And I know that I must make the best of
it. But tonight I just feel so tired and afraid. I'm so tired of life
being a constant struggle. I just want things to work out so that I don't
have to worry so much about the future. Greg and I have been married nearly
20 years, and I'm still worried about the future. I always thought by now
we'd have things all figured out and I wouldn't have to worry so much at
this point in my life. But I'm a worrier by nature. And I guess I always
will be. It's part of what keeps me in a constant state of depression. But
I fight it, and I stay as up as I possibly can. I try not to let it get to
me. Yet, I am just constantly afraid. I hate that about myself. That I
can't let go of my worry. I know I can't control the future, so what good
is it to worry? I just wish things were easier. Don't we all? <sigh>
Yes, don't we all.
I'm just feeling terribly down and kind of hopeless tonight. Thanks to
anyone who bothered to listen to me ramble.
Feelin' sad,
u2b
I'm sorry your feeling sad,I hope you feel better!!!
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| User: "Used2Be" |
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24 Jan 2004 12:56:42 PM |
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"alvintchase" <relayer211@yahoo.com> wrote
I'm sorry your feeling sad,I hope you feel better!!!
thank you, alvin.
u2b
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| User: "Amy" |
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22 Jan 2004 11:15:50 PM |
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((((((Cindy))))))
Life sure throws some curve-balls....you think you have it all mapped out,
then *boom*
Just try to take each day as it comes, as hard as it seems. This too, shall
pass. Before you know it, it's usually resolved itself without you having to
do a thing. Lol, if only we knew what would resolve iself so we could quit
wasting time on things that don't need to be worried about, and focus on
solutions for the ones that really need fixing.
The only way I get through sometimes is with a big bar of rum & raisin
chocolate and a mindless comedy that doesn't require me to think about
anything for a few hours. It's possible to pass weeks like that, and some
things do go away when you ignore them. It's sorting out those ones from the
rest :-)
I hope this one resolves itself quickly.
"Used2Be" <cindyb@ERASETHISaustin.rr.com> wrote in message
news:Kr%Pb.9406$RR3.7439@fe1.texas.rr.com...
I just feel so down tonight. The reality of my husband's injury is
sinking
in slowly, and I just feel so afraid. We were already struggling so much
because of job losses he's had in the last 4 years. And the job he has
now
isn't all that great, but it's better than nothing. And now he's
practically disabled with his hand injury and unable to work for awhile,
and
I'm so afraid of what the future will be like. I don't want to have to go
back to work full time. I finally had to quit my stressful job last
spring
because it was making me so ill, and I was able to begin working part time
this past fall teaching music at my church's preschool. I love that job.
It's the first time in my life that I've actually enjoyed my job. And I
don't want to have to give it up. I also don't want to have to give up
the
extra time I now have with my children. It's just not fair that as soon
as
I get to do this, it might get taken away. <sigh> But I know that life
isn't fair. :-( I do know that. And I know that I must make the best of
it. But tonight I just feel so tired and afraid. I'm so tired of life
being a constant struggle. I just want things to work out so that I don't
have to worry so much about the future. Greg and I have been married
nearly
20 years, and I'm still worried about the future. I always thought by now
we'd have things all figured out and I wouldn't have to worry so much at
this point in my life. But I'm a worrier by nature. And I guess I always
will be. It's part of what keeps me in a constant state of depression.
But
I fight it, and I stay as up as I possibly can. I try not to let it get
to
me. Yet, I am just constantly afraid. I hate that about myself. That I
can't let go of my worry. I know I can't control the future, so what good
is it to worry? I just wish things were easier. Don't we all? <sigh>
Yes, don't we all.
I'm just feeling terribly down and kind of hopeless tonight. Thanks to
anyone who bothered to listen to me ramble.
Feelin' sad,
u2b
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| User: "Used2Be" |
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24 Jan 2004 12:46:55 PM |
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"Amy" <don'tspamme@hotmail.com> wrote
The only way I get through sometimes is with a big bar of rum & raisin
chocolate and a mindless comedy that doesn't require me to think about
anything for a few hours. It's possible to pass weeks like that, and some
things do go away when you ignore them. It's sorting out those ones from
the
rest :-)
I hope this one resolves itself quickly.
i kind of like those ideas amy. maybe some chocolate chip cookie dough ice
cream and a mindless movie from blockbuster is the escape i'll have today.
:)
u2b
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| User: "Trishamolson" |
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23 Jan 2004 07:32:02 AM |
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Dear Cindy,
Of course you feel down! Such a terrible thing to happen. But reading your
post I could also tell how warm and loving your family must be, and you too.
That is the most important blessing eh? You and the children and Greg.
I hope that all works out and I will keep my fingers crossed -- God Bless
Rosena
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| User: "Used2Be" |
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24 Jan 2004 12:50:10 PM |
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"Trishamolson" <trishamolson@aol.com> wrote
Dear Cindy,
Of course you feel down! Such a terrible thing to happen. But reading
your
post I could also tell how warm and loving your family must be, and you
too.
That is the most important blessing eh? You and the children and Greg.
yes, i do know that we are blessed. that's what really frustrates me about
depression. it's hard to see the forrest through the trees.
I hope that all works out and I will keep my fingers crossed -- God Bless
Rosena
thanks rosena. appreciate that!
hugs,
cindy
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| User: "Indigo Moon Man" |
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22 Jan 2004 08:58:21 PM |
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Used2Be <cindyb@ERASETHISaustin.rr.com> spake thusly:
I just feel so down tonight. The reality of my husband's injury is
sinking in slowly, and I just feel so afraid. We were already struggling
so much because of job losses he's had in the last 4 years. And the job
he has now isn't all that great, but it's better than nothing. And now
he's practically disabled with his hand injury and unable to work for
awhile, and I'm so afraid of what the future will be like. I don't want
to have to go back to work full time. I finally had to quit my stressful
job last spring because it was making me so ill, and I was able to begin
working part time this past fall teaching music at my church's preschool.
I love that job. It's the first time in my life that I've actually
enjoyed my job. And I don't want to have to give it up. I also don't
want to have to give up the extra time I now have with my children. It's
just not fair that as soon as I get to do this, it might get taken away.
<sigh> But I know that life isn't fair. :-( I do know that. And I
know that I must make the best of it. But tonight I just feel so tired
and afraid. I'm so tired of life being a constant struggle. I just want
things to work out so that I don't have to worry so much about the
future. Greg and I have been married nearly 20 years, and I'm still
worried about the future. I always thought by now we'd have things all
figured out and I wouldn't have to worry so much at this point in my
life. But I'm a worrier by nature. And I guess I always will be. It's
part of what keeps me in a constant state of depression. But I fight it,
and I stay as up as I possibly can. I try not to let it get to me. Yet,
I am just constantly afraid. I hate that about myself. That I can't let
go of my worry. I know I can't control the future, so what good is it to
worry? I just wish things were easier. Don't we all? <sigh> Yes, don't
we all.
I'm just feeling terribly down and kind of hopeless tonight. Thanks to
anyone who bothered to listen to me ramble.
{{{{{Used2Be}}}}}
I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers that things work out well for you
guys.
--
For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given: and the
government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall
be called Wonderful, Counsellor, The mighty God, The
everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace.
Isaiah 9:6
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| User: "Used2Be" |
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22 Jan 2004 09:20:44 PM |
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"Indigo Moon Man" <indigomoon@bonbon.net> wrote
{{{{{Used2Be}}}}}
I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers that things work out well for you
guys.
thanks, blue guy.
:)
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| User: "zer0 the her0" |
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23 Jan 2004 12:30:39 PM |
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Used2Be wrote:
I just wish things were easier. Don't we all? <sigh>
Yes, don't we all.
I'm just feeling terribly down and kind of hopeless tonight. Thanks to
anyone who bothered to listen to me ramble.
Feelin' sad,
u2b
if wishes were fishes, we'd all live in the ocean.
big sQueezy hugs for (((((((u2b)))))))
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| User: "Used2Be" |
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24 Jan 2004 12:57:58 PM |
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"zer0 the her0" <no@no.net> wrote
if wishes were fishes, we'd all live in the ocean.
:-D
big sQueezy hugs for (((((((u2b)))))))
thanks, epic. back at ya!
u2b
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| User: "Lynda" |
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23 Jan 2004 03:02:23 PM |
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u2b
when things happen in our lives like what happened to you an your
husband its normal to just start second guessing our lives...you have
been through something horrible but don't give up and don't give
in......just be thankful he is alive and things will work out in
time.....((((u2b)))) Lynda
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| User: "Used2Be" |
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24 Jan 2004 01:07:13 PM |
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"Lynda" <homdepo20@webtv.net> wrote
u2b
when things happen in our lives like what happened to you an your
husband its normal to just start second guessing our lives...you have
been through something horrible but don't give up and don't give
in......just be thankful he is alive and things will work out in
time.....((((u2b)))) Lynda
i am trying to be thankful. i think the boy has 9 lives. i'm afraid he's
going to use them all up if he doesn't take it easy. God has saved him so
many times already that i keep thinking surely his # will soon be up.
believe it or not, this isn't even the worst thing that's happened to him.
right before we got married, he got drunk with some friends (he's an
alcoholic, but has been sober 7 years now), and went out driving and hit a
chain link fence at 55 mph. the pole across the top of the fence...the one
that the chain links connect to...came through the window and impaled him in
the upper right hand side of his chest. yes, it went all the way through
him. they had to cut one end of the pipe off close to his chest so that
they could remove him from the car (with a portion of the pipe still in him
which was later surgically removed...we even have a polaroid picture of him
in the ER laying on his side with the pipe still in place). he wasn't
supposed to survive that time, but he did. i'm convinced God has big plans
for that boy, but he just keeps pushing his luck!!!!! :) and last year he
shot his femur with a roofing nail while using a nail gun. not a little
nail. a big one. that had to be yanked out in the ER as well. as a friend
of mine told me last week, "you lead such an exciting life!" sometimes it's
a little TOO exciting!!!
thanks lynda. i'm hanging in there!
u2b
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| User: "wombn" |
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24 Jan 2004 04:05:14 PM |
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On Sat, 24 Jan 2004 19:07:13 GMT, "Used2Be"
<cindyb@ERASETHISaustin.rr.com> wrote:
"Lynda" <homdepo20@webtv.net> wrote
u2b
when things happen in our lives like what happened to you an your
husband its normal to just start second guessing our lives...you have
been through something horrible but don't give up and don't give
in......just be thankful he is alive and things will work out in
time.....((((u2b)))) Lynda
i am trying to be thankful. i think the boy has 9 lives. i'm afraid he's
going to use them all up if he doesn't take it easy. God has saved him so
many times already that i keep thinking surely his # will soon be up.
believe it or not, this isn't even the worst thing that's happened to him.
right before we got married, he got drunk with some friends (he's an
alcoholic, but has been sober 7 years now), and went out driving and hit a
chain link fence at 55 mph. the pole across the top of the fence...the one
that the chain links connect to...came through the window and impaled him in
the upper right hand side of his chest. yes, it went all the way through
him. they had to cut one end of the pipe off close to his chest so that
they could remove him from the car (with a portion of the pipe still in him
which was later surgically removed...we even have a polaroid picture of him
in the ER laying on his side with the pipe still in place). he wasn't
supposed to survive that time, but he did. i'm convinced God has big plans
for that boy, but he just keeps pushing his luck!!!!! :) and last year he
shot his femur with a roofing nail while using a nail gun. not a little
nail. a big one. that had to be yanked out in the ER as well. as a friend
of mine told me last week, "you lead such an exciting life!" sometimes it's
a little TOO exciting!!!
thanks lynda. i'm hanging in there!
u2b
OMG
*shudder*
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If laughter is the best medicine,
then kittens should be covered by our health insurance. :-)
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| User: "Rhiannon" |
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23 Jan 2004 08:12:23 AM |
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x-no-archive: yes
Personally - empathy for others who have less than we do and, remembering to
appreciate our own lot in life, especially when tested by adversity is an
admirable quality, and something I try to do every day. However, that said,
and given the fact that you have discussed your Christianity openly in
group, you *know* that Jesus himself had moments of despair. I think it is
healthy to indulge those feelings for a period of time. There is nothing
wrong with feeling afraid or angry or frustrated, and admitting it outright
does not make you a bad or ungrateful person. You're only human, you can
only tolerate so much at once, and if you need to stamp your foot and yell
out loud because what has happened to you is unfair, and you're feeling
sorry for yourself, then you do it! It _is_ unfair, damned unfair, and you
are entitled to feel bad about it. Get it out of your system, nurture
yourself for a couple days, and only then focus on what you can do to move
forward in a more positive frame of mind. For me...it's small charitable
acts that put me back on track. Two weeks ago, I was in line behind a very
old gentleman in the grocery checkout. He ended up five dollars short of
his total, and considering the few items he had were necessities, he was
unsure of what item to take off the bill. He was very embarrassed, and
becoming more flustered with each passing second, he wasn't sure what to do.
I discreetly as possible, to avoid making him feel worse, put a five dollar
bill into his hand and smiled. He was so shocked he didn't say a word
besides thank you. Once he had left, the cashier, as well as the man behind
me in line, both made a point of saying how nice a gesture it was, and I
left the store feeling better about myself. The man was waiting for me
outside. He told me it had been a long time since someone had done
something nice for him, and the fact that it was a stranger made it all that
more special. He even hugged me before departing, and my entire day
changed. A simple gesture, I know, but it made me feel better about myself
when an hour earlier I had been feeling awful. Left me feeling confident
that the three people involved would be inspired to continue the "pay it
forward" ideology and make a small difference to someone else. My improved
mood gave me something else to think about instead of dwelling on myself.
It didn't make my problems go away, but it did give me strength, and make
them a little easier to bear. Find something, no matter how small, that
means something to you, that you can reasonably accommodate at the moment,
to help you feel better, and move on after you give into to a good old
screamfest.<g>
--
Rhiannon
rhiannon_@rogers.com
(rhiannon underscore at rogers dot com)
The Labyrinth of the Divine Miss Rhiannon
a.k.a. The Wondrous One
"If you pick up a starving dog and make him
prosperous, he will not bite you; that is the
principal difference between a dog and a
man."-- Mark Twain
"Used2Be" <cindyb@ERASETHISaustin.rr.com> wrote in message
news:Kr%Pb.9406$RR3.7439@fe1.texas.rr.com...
I just feel so down tonight. The reality of my husband's injury is
sinking
in slowly, and I just feel so afraid. We were already struggling so much
because of job losses he's had in the last 4 years. And the job he has
now
isn't all that great, but it's better than nothing. And now he's
practically disabled with his hand injury and unable to work for awhile,
and
I'm so afraid of what the future will be like. I don't want to have to go
back to work full time. I finally had to quit my stressful job last
spring
because it was making me so ill, and I was able to begin working part time
this past fall teaching music at my church's preschool. I love that job.
It's the first time in my life that I've actually enjoyed my job. And I
don't want to have to give it up. I also don't want to have to give up
the
extra time I now have with my children. It's just not fair that as soon
as
I get to do this, it might get taken away. <sigh> But I know that life
isn't fair. :-( I do know that. And I know that I must make the best of
it. But tonight I just feel so tired and afraid. I'm so tired of life
being a constant struggle. I just want things to work out so that I don't
have to worry so much about the future. Greg and I have been married
nearly
20 years, and I'm still worried about the future. I always thought by now
we'd have things all figured out and I wouldn't have to worry so much at
this point in my life. But I'm a worrier by nature. And I guess I always
will be. It's part of what keeps me in a constant state of depression.
But
I fight it, and I stay as up as I possibly can. I try not to let it get
to
me. Yet, I am just constantly afraid. I hate that about myself. That I
can't let go of my worry. I know I can't control the future, so what good
is it to worry? I just wish things were easier. Don't we all? <sigh>
Yes, don't we all.
I'm just feeling terribly down and kind of hopeless tonight. Thanks to
anyone who bothered to listen to me ramble.
Feelin' sad,
u2b
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| User: "Used2Be" |
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24 Jan 2004 12:56:20 PM |
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"Rhiannon" <rhiannon_@rogers.com> wrote
Personally - empathy for others who have less than we do and, remembering
to
appreciate our own lot in life, especially when tested by adversity is an
admirable quality, and something I try to do every day. However, that
said,
and given the fact that you have discussed your Christianity openly in
group, you *know* that Jesus himself had moments of despair. I think it
is
healthy to indulge those feelings for a period of time. There is nothing
wrong with feeling afraid or angry or frustrated, and admitting it
outright
does not make you a bad or ungrateful person. You're only human, you can
only tolerate so much at once, and if you need to stamp your foot and yell
out loud because what has happened to you is unfair, and you're feeling
sorry for yourself, then you do it! It _is_ unfair, damned unfair, and
you
are entitled to feel bad about it. Get it out of your system, nurture
yourself for a couple days, and only then focus on what you can do to move
forward in a more positive frame of mind. For me...it's small charitable
acts that put me back on track. Two weeks ago, I was in line behind a
very
old gentleman in the grocery checkout. He ended up five dollars short of
his total, and considering the few items he had were necessities, he was
unsure of what item to take off the bill. He was very embarrassed, and
becoming more flustered with each passing second, he wasn't sure what to
do.
I discreetly as possible, to avoid making him feel worse, put a five
dollar
bill into his hand and smiled. He was so shocked he didn't say a word
besides thank you. Once he had left, the cashier, as well as the man
behind
me in line, both made a point of saying how nice a gesture it was, and I
left the store feeling better about myself. The man was waiting for me
outside. He told me it had been a long time since someone had done
something nice for him, and the fact that it was a stranger made it all
that
more special. He even hugged me before departing, and my entire day
changed. A simple gesture, I know, but it made me feel better about
myself
when an hour earlier I had been feeling awful. Left me feeling confident
that the three people involved would be inspired to continue the "pay it
forward" ideology and make a small difference to someone else. My
improved
mood gave me something else to think about instead of dwelling on myself.
It didn't make my problems go away, but it did give me strength, and make
them a little easier to bear. Find something, no matter how small, that
means something to you, that you can reasonably accommodate at the moment,
to help you feel better, and move on after you give into to a good old
screamfest.<g>
what a beautiful story, rhiannon. and you are right. it is definitely
"more blessed to give than to receive." i'm trying to focus my energy on
things that will bless other people instead of focusing negatively on my own
worries. yesterday I took one of my best friends out for the day. she is
also temporarily disabled. :) she dropped a table top on her foot and
broke 3 bones in it last saturday and she's sick of being cooped up at home.
so i took her out and drove her around all day yesterday. then took her
kids home with me last night. it was nice to do something for someone else.
i try to focus on others as often as i can so that i don't dwell on myself
too much. i guess what is hardest is that the feeling of depression itself
never leaves. even when you are focusing on something else, the despair is
still there. like a nagging cough that won't leave after a bad cold. a
constant reminder. it just never leaves. ah, such is life.
thanks for your post and kind words!
u2b
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| Title: Re: feeling weary, sad and afraid... |
23 Jan 2004 06:34:06 AM |
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Used2Be wrote:
Greg and I have been married nearly
20 years, and I'm still worried about the future. I always thought by now
we'd have things all figured out and I wouldn't have to worry so much at
this point in my life.
With the economy and the job situation and stuff, I think a lot of people
aren't where they thought they ought to be at this point-- and were told they
could expect to be. It may feel like you did something wrong, but you're hardly
alone. But then if you get an accident or illness, that's just another whole
thing on top of it.
I hope you can find some way to keep the job you have.
Naomi D.
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24 Jan 2004 12:48:43 PM |
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"Naomi Darvell" <darvell349@aol.com> wrote
With the economy and the job situation and stuff, I think a lot of people
aren't where they thought they ought to be at this point-- and were told
they
could expect to be. It may feel like you did something wrong, but you're
hardly
alone. But then if you get an accident or illness, that's just another
whole
thing on top of it.
i guess life is what we make of it, right? <sigh> no one is going to hand
me a secure future on a silver platter, that's for sure.
thanks,
u2b
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