"thegathaterra" <lynnevaneck@bigpond.com> wrote in message
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So who wants to check out right now??

Some days I do, other's I don't, right now I don't

On Mon, 30 Apr 2007 14:57:19 GMT, "thegathaterra"
<lynnevaneck@bigpond.com> wrote:

So who wants to check out right now??

actually, i've been thinking of it quite a lot lately but don't have the
means. i live in northern Germany we don't have any high places,
electric oven, i'm not into pain to slice my wrists, don't keep the
right pills in the house specifically this reason.

and because Alu's father hung himself last August and told Alu he was
going to do because he was so ill he had no quality of life and didn't
want to anymore. then he called every day for two weeks telling Alu
exactly what needed doing, what was where. he wanted to make sure Alu
knew to dot every i and cross every t. i really hated that man by the
time he got around to actually do it. Alu respected his father and
respected his decision and would not interfere. it tore him apart
having to listen to his father saying his last words and tying up lose
ends. all he could do was love him, he couldn't stop him. when he
didn't hear from him, he had to use his key and call the police.

he has stood by me for 10 years supporting me every way he could. loving
me when i didn't deserve it. being the best. i would not do it to him.
instead, i silently wish to die.

except when i'm ill and in pain, then i go to the doctor because i
refuse to die in pain. '-)

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