| Topic: |
Sociology > Depression |
| User: |
"mighty mouse" |
| Date: |
25 Feb 2007 06:06:06 AM |
| Object: |
flat day |
Things have been really good lately. I've been looking at houses and
lodging rental applications and I've been optimistic about the future.
Today I decided to have a lazy day and just bum around the house, and that
drop in momentum is taking a toll.
I know even normies have flat days. And that's probably all this is.
Although it may not be coincidence that I'm having an increase in
neurological symptoms today either. The two could be related.
Tomorrow will be a better day. If not, I'll call my therp I guess, before
it gets to be a problem. It also may not be coincidence that as soon as I
go to take a step out on my own, where it will be vitally important that I'm
ok enough to hold down a job, that I start to experience some symptoms which
make me start to worry about my stability.
I can't let the what if's rule my life. What if I crash. What if I lose my
job again. What if I can't afford the rent. If I let those control me I'll
never get on with my life. There is no certainty about anything.
I know all that rationally. But I think something in my mind that isn't
rational is worrying and messing with me. And I'm now comitted to moving
and past the point of no return. Not that I think I should go back and
hide. I have to move forward.
I'm going to be ok. Tomorrow will be a better day.
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