Alan Harding wrote...

In message <Xns962D2468DCECDmccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4>,
lisa in mass. <mccats@rcn.com> writes

my bath didn't help.

i had bubles, candles, a book, a cup of raspberry tea, and
all i wanted was to get out of there. it's usually my place
to relax, the one place where i'm not depressed, not
feeling anything but the moment. not tonight.

and now that i've done my requisite time, i can't wind
down. all keyed up. i have to leave the house in 7 hours
with the kids, and i'll be up at least another 3 or 4.

even the sound of the rain on the roof isn't calming. it's
insipient mud. we have a dirt path leading to the door and
it's going to be ankle-deep in mud. every spring joe
promises to at least finish graveling the walk (it's 1/3
graveled, near the house), and every summer he puts off the
project.

so here i am with sleeping husband, sleeping kitties, and
i'm all wired up. there's only one thing i know that will
calm me down, but i'm not going there.

just remembered i need a new pain patch tonight. maybe that
and an extra pill will do it. something's got to help.

I hope they do help. Sleep, Lisa, sleep.

thanks, alan. i did sleep. just 3 hrs, but it was something.
i'll take whatever i can get. i got a good nap in this
evening. hoping i can sleep tonight.