"David" <davidd614@cox.net> wrote in message
news:PP92i.350$wv7.10@newsfe18.lga...

I have been doing well, I have to tell that I am self-destructive

again. I

hate the feelings and urges that go along with it. Maybe soon I can

find the

courage to describe it. Nothing painful, though I may have a bruise or

two.

It is a difficult time for all of us. The urges are overwhelming,

though I

don't have any plans or anything. I don't think I need a hospital, but

have

the therapist coming out on Monday.

I have just got a new host, it is a reseller plan that I am real happy

with.

Will try to cancel the others I already have. Will let you know the

domain

in case there is an interest.

Am sorry to Jane, for things I said, though I was feeling impulsive

and

could not relieve myself. The feelings to harm myself were much like
committing a murder, and I didn't think to call for crisis. I think I

will

keep a hotline ready stuck to the computer in case I need to call.

I am hungry, I think I may try to find something here, though I need

to go

to the store. I keep seeing people I recognize from TV and thinking of

a

pool, strange, maybe something in my meds needs to be changed. I did

just

switch from Cymbalta to Lexapro recently, so maybe that was it. I have
started recordering, I like to watch myself though I do not know how
convenient that is. Have been worried about someone looking in on my
computer that is not supposed to, on my hard drive. I do have a web

cam, it

is kind of fun, I thought I'd tell the group.

I will write more later, I plan to stay up all night as I slept in

until

around 5pm. I have my days and nights mixed up tonight. I hope this

ends

soon.

David

oh good , i'm staying up all night too