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17 Dec 2005 10:32:32 PM |
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God this sucks |
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Hell if I know why, but I'm about as depressed as I can remember at
the moment. And my shrink is away for 2 weeks. Just came home from a
weekend away with the in laws. I only just made it through without
insulting somebody or doing damage to myself.
You just simply forget how horrid it is until it visits again don't
you?
Oh yeah, I've also started with these weird mood swings. Up and down
and up and down within a matter of minutes. It's all new to me. I look
like somebody has run over me with a truck. Anywho, pffft, I dunno, I
just wanted someone to know how ***** I am feeling at the moment.
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yuluwirri
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yuluwirri@hotmail.com
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18 Dec 2005 09:31:27 PM |
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((((((((yules))))))))
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19 Dec 2005 01:42:19 PM |
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On Mon, 19 Dec 2005 03:31:27 GMT, "Used2be" <used2be@nowhere.com>
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((((((((yules))))))))
Thanks mate and back atcha. I know you are having a hard time too. We
just need to get through this hard spot hey? See if we can be as kind
to ourselves as we can.
love ya,
xoxo
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yuluwirri
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18 Dec 2005 07:39:15 PM |
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"yuluwirri" <yuluwirri@hotmail.com> wrote in message
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Hell if I know why, but I'm about as depressed as I can remember at
the moment. And my shrink is away for 2 weeks. Just came home from a
weekend away with the in laws. I only just made it through without
insulting somebody or doing damage to myself.
You just simply forget how horrid it is until it visits again don't
you?
Oh yeah, I've also started with these weird mood swings. Up and down
and up and down within a matter of minutes. It's all new to me. I look
like somebody has run over me with a truck. Anywho, pffft, I dunno, I
just wanted someone to know how ***** I am feeling at the moment.
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yuluwirri
Sorry Grace. I sure understand. I hope today is better, if not maybe
tomorrow.
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19 Dec 2005 01:41:08 PM |
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On Mon, 19 Dec 2005 01:39:15 GMT, "Wanda"
<mmmilady@NOSPAMsbcglobal.net> wrote:
"yuluwirri" <yuluwirri@hotmail.com> wrote in message
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Hell if I know why, but I'm about as depressed as I can remember at
the moment. And my shrink is away for 2 weeks. Just came home from a
weekend away with the in laws. I only just made it through without
insulting somebody or doing damage to myself.
You just simply forget how horrid it is until it visits again don't
you?
Oh yeah, I've also started with these weird mood swings. Up and down
and up and down within a matter of minutes. It's all new to me. I look
like somebody has run over me with a truck. Anywho, pffft, I dunno, I
just wanted someone to know how ***** I am feeling at the moment.
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yuluwirri
Sorry Grace. I sure understand. I hope today is better, if not maybe
tomorrow.
Thanks Wanda. I think I'm in it for the long haul at the moment. Are
you having a rough time of it too? I'm sorry, i haven't been able to
read all the posts. We shall all hang in here together. xoxox
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yuluwirri
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Fish know.
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yuluwirri@hotmail.com
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| User: "Wanda" |
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19 Dec 2005 08:34:55 PM |
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"yuluwirri" <yuluwirri@hotmail.com> wrote in message
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On Mon, 19 Dec 2005 01:39:15 GMT, "Wanda"
<mmmilady@NOSPAMsbcglobal.net> wrote:
"yuluwirri" <yuluwirri@hotmail.com> wrote in message
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Hell if I know why, but I'm about as depressed as I can remember at
the moment. And my shrink is away for 2 weeks. Just came home from a
weekend away with the in laws. I only just made it through without
insulting somebody or doing damage to myself.
You just simply forget how horrid it is until it visits again don't
you?
Oh yeah, I've also started with these weird mood swings. Up and down
and up and down within a matter of minutes. It's all new to me. I look
like somebody has run over me with a truck. Anywho, pffft, I dunno, I
just wanted someone to know how ***** I am feeling at the moment.
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yuluwirri
Sorry Grace. I sure understand. I hope today is better, if not maybe
tomorrow.
Thanks Wanda. I think I'm in it for the long haul at the moment. Are
you having a rough time of it too? I'm sorry, i haven't been able to
read all the posts. We shall all hang in here together. xoxox
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yuluwirri
I had a rough spot for about a month recently. I had a med change and it's
working very well. Feeling better every day!
I'm a bit tired and stressed right now. We leave for home Friday to spend
Christmas with my kids. That will be a 700 mile road trip each way, 8 days
total. Lots to do. Don't know how I'm going to fit it all in the car. So
all in all, just normal life stress :-)
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| User: "solidac" |
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20 Dec 2005 02:07:41 AM |
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i see you've been having a rough time of it
sorry to hear that
hope it smooths out for you sometime soon
take care of yerself over there, in sunny land
"yuluwirri" <yuluwirri@hotmail.com> wrote in message
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Hell if I know why, but I'm about as depressed as I can remember at
the moment. And my shrink is away for 2 weeks. Just came home from a
weekend away with the in laws. I only just made it through without
insulting somebody or doing damage to myself.
You just simply forget how horrid it is until it visits again don't
you?
Oh yeah, I've also started with these weird mood swings. Up and down
and up and down within a matter of minutes. It's all new to me. I look
like somebody has run over me with a truck. Anywho, pffft, I dunno, I
just wanted someone to know how ***** I am feeling at the moment.
--
yuluwirri
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Fish know.
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yuluwirri@hotmail.com
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| User: "Gayle" |
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18 Dec 2005 05:56:45 AM |
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Hell if I know why, but I'm about as depressed as I can remember at
the moment. And my shrink is away for 2 weeks.
I don't know if my memory is accurate,
but -- didn't your stability take a dive
the last time your shrink was away for
awhile? Not sure if it's a pattern or
not. But, if it is, would it help you to
remember that there's a limited number
of days 'til the doc is back in town?
Whatever the factors, though, I do hope
your depression lifts, at least a
little, and soon.
Gayle
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| User: "yuluwirri" |
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18 Dec 2005 01:26:34 PM |
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On Sun, 18 Dec 2005 06:56:45 -0500, Gayle <gayleco@rcn.com> wrote:
Hell if I know why, but I'm about as depressed as I can remember at
the moment. And my shrink is away for 2 weeks.
I don't know if my memory is accurate,
but -- didn't your stability take a dive
the last time your shrink was away for
awhile?
Did I? Gosh I can't remember. You know, I was sure looking forward to
the break but perhaps it is a factor. My hubby told me last night that
he doesn't know why I am so worried. He says that I crash every single
year just before Christmas and that nothing is different and that I
will be alright. I get so damned scared of the intensity of the
depression and all reason goes out the window. I don't know why I
crash every year (and I certainly don't really remember it, although I
know around this time of year is hard for me). I wish I could work
through whatever it is that gets this thing started and be done with
it once and for all you know?
Not sure if it's a pattern or
not. But, if it is, would it help you to
remember that there's a limited number
of days 'til the doc is back in town?
Whatever the factors, though, I do hope
your depression lifts, at least a
little, and soon.
Thanks Gayle. I sure hope so too. I'm useless like this and I can't
even pick up my hands to play the piano. You know sometimes I fool
myself into thinking that I don't have "depression" anymore. And it's
funny because every time it comes back I am surprised. Denial I think?
Thanks mate.
xoxo
Gayle
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yuluwirri
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yuluwirri@hotmail.com
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| User: "Nina" |
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18 Dec 2005 01:51:02 PM |
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On Sun, 18 Dec 2005 19:26:34 GMT, yuluwirri <yuluwirri@hotmail.com>
wrote:
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On Sun, 18 Dec 2005 06:56:45 -0500, Gayle <gayleco@rcn.com> wrote:
Hell if I know why, but I'm about as depressed as I can remember at
the moment. And my shrink is away for 2 weeks.
I don't know if my memory is accurate,
but -- didn't your stability take a dive
the last time your shrink was away for
awhile?
Did I? Gosh I can't remember. You know, I was sure looking forward to
the break but perhaps it is a factor. My hubby told me last night that
he doesn't know why I am so worried. He says that I crash every single
year just before Christmas and that nothing is different and that I
will be alright. I get so damned scared of the intensity of the
depression and all reason goes out the window. I don't know why I
crash every year (and I certainly don't really remember it, although I
know around this time of year is hard for me). I wish I could work
through whatever it is that gets this thing started and be done with
it once and for all you know?
I think that's the worst thing about all of this. You think you can
fix something and be done with it, and it just comes back again and
again and again. And it doesn't get any easier to deal with, either.
Harder, if anything.
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18 Dec 2005 02:30:11 PM |
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On Sun, 18 Dec 2005 14:51:02 -0500, Nina <ninaNOSPAM@economika.net>
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On Sun, 18 Dec 2005 19:26:34 GMT, yuluwirri <yuluwirri@hotmail.com>
wrote:
On Sun, 18 Dec 2005 06:56:45 -0500, Gayle <gayleco@rcn.com> wrote:
Hell if I know why, but I'm about as depressed as I can remember at
the moment. And my shrink is away for 2 weeks.
I don't know if my memory is accurate,
but -- didn't your stability take a dive
the last time your shrink was away for
awhile?
Did I? Gosh I can't remember. You know, I was sure looking forward to
the break but perhaps it is a factor. My hubby told me last night that
he doesn't know why I am so worried. He says that I crash every single
year just before Christmas and that nothing is different and that I
will be alright. I get so damned scared of the intensity of the
depression and all reason goes out the window. I don't know why I
crash every year (and I certainly don't really remember it, although I
know around this time of year is hard for me). I wish I could work
through whatever it is that gets this thing started and be done with
it once and for all you know?
I think that's the worst thing about all of this. You think you can
fix something and be done with it, and it just comes back again and
again and again. And it doesn't get any easier to deal with, either.
Harder, if anything.
I agree with you Nina. It does get harder.
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yuluwirri
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Fish know.
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yuluwirri@hotmail.com
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| User: "bunny" |
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18 Dec 2005 03:04:39 PM |
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"yuluwirri" <yuluwirri@hotmail.com> wrote
I agree with you Nina. It does get harder.
Hang on and grit your teeth, ladies. Make that "duckies" for Grace. :-))
It's the only thing I know to do. We're survivors. And later there will be
chocolate.
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| User: "Nina" |
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18 Dec 2005 03:06:34 PM |
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On Sun, 18 Dec 2005 21:04:39 GMT, "bunny"
<bunnynospam@nospam.blarg.net> wrote:
"yuluwirri" <yuluwirri@hotmail.com> wrote
I agree with you Nina. It does get harder.
Hang on and grit your teeth, ladies. Make that "duckies" for Grace. :-))
It's the only thing I know to do. We're survivors. And later there will be
chocolate.
I begin to wonder if there is actually some point where it isn't worth
making the effort any more.
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| User: "bunny" |
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18 Dec 2005 03:18:06 PM |
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"Nina" <ninaNOSPAM@economika.net> wrote in message
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On Sun, 18 Dec 2005 21:04:39 GMT, "bunny"
<bunnynospam@nospam.blarg.net> wrote:
"yuluwirri" <yuluwirri@hotmail.com> wrote
I agree with you Nina. It does get harder.
Hang on and grit your teeth, ladies. Make that "duckies" for Grace. :-))
It's the only thing I know to do. We're survivors. And later there will
be
chocolate.
I begin to wonder if there is actually some point where it isn't worth
making the effort any more.
I wonder about the entropy of it all. But then, the autonomic nervous
system keeps things going and effort is required to end it, too. I think of
"worth it to me right now, in this life" as a small part of the picture, of
the continuum. That keeps me going, reluctantly sometimes, but going.
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18 Dec 2005 03:32:28 PM |
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On Sun, 18 Dec 2005 21:18:06 GMT, "bunny"
<bunnynospam@nospam.blarg.net> wrote:
"Nina" <ninaNOSPAM@economika.net> wrote in message
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On Sun, 18 Dec 2005 21:04:39 GMT, "bunny"
<bunnynospam@nospam.blarg.net> wrote:
"yuluwirri" <yuluwirri@hotmail.com> wrote
I agree with you Nina. It does get harder.
Hang on and grit your teeth, ladies. Make that "duckies" for Grace. :-))
It's the only thing I know to do. We're survivors. And later there will
be
chocolate.
I begin to wonder if there is actually some point where it isn't worth
making the effort any more.
I wonder about the entropy of it all. But then, the autonomic nervous
system keeps things going and effort is required to end it, too. I think of
"worth it to me right now, in this life" as a small part of the picture, of
the continuum. That keeps me going, reluctantly sometimes, but going.
I don't know. I do believe that if I stop this now, I'll just have to
do it all over again the next time around. But maybe I'd do it
better. Sometimes you get to the point where you just feel like
you've fucked up everything enough that it's not worth making that
effort to put it all together again, to get some kind of positiveness
and hope going, to keep trying.
It's not like I have any real choice, which is as bad as anything.
And sometimes it's simply unbearable.
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18 Dec 2005 03:46:52 PM |
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"Nina" <ninaNOSPAM@economika.net> wrote
I don't know. I do believe that if I stop this now, I'll just have to
do it all over again the next time around. But maybe I'd do it
better. Sometimes you get to the point where you just feel like
you've fucked up everything enough that it's not worth making that
effort to put it all together again, to get some kind of positiveness
and hope going, to keep trying.
I don't want to do this all over again the next time, either. I think that
just having this experience, seeing it through as best as I can -- that
counts. I suspect that I bit off more than I could chew this time -- if
there are choices for what we get each time around, maybe my eyes were
bigger than my karmic stomach and I overestimated how much I could handle.
Hopefully that in itself is a learning experience that'll be helpful later.
I bet next time around we *will* do it better. We're working with what
we've got. We're working under handicaps. We have learned what it's like
to live like this. We've learned what it's like to struggle with this.
What if that in itself is a big lesson, is a big experience to learn about,
and that just by being here and experiencing this we're accomplishing
something? I'm learning what it's like to be limited. I'm learning what
it's like to live with pain, to keep going anyway. I've learned what a life
with depression is like.
One teaching, one thing some people believe in, is that there are a large
range of experiences we're supposed to have and that we learn stuff from
them -- each thing to its own time. What if this is our time to learn this?
By just experiencing this, by this being our time to do this, we're doing
what we're supposed to do? Maybe we don't need to discover the way to fix
this. Maybe there isn't a fix. Maybe this is our spin on the mandala this
time and after this we never have to do this again.
Maybe after this we never have to do this again.
It's not like I have any real choice, which is as bad as anything.
And sometimes it's simply unbearable.
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18 Dec 2005 04:05:38 PM |
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On Sun, 18 Dec 2005 21:46:52 GMT, "bunny"
<bunnynospam@nospam.blarg.net> wrote:
"Nina" <ninaNOSPAM@economika.net> wrote
I don't know. I do believe that if I stop this now, I'll just have to
do it all over again the next time around. But maybe I'd do it
better. Sometimes you get to the point where you just feel like
you've fucked up everything enough that it's not worth making that
effort to put it all together again, to get some kind of positiveness
and hope going, to keep trying.
I don't want to do this all over again the next time, either. I think that
just having this experience, seeing it through as best as I can -- that
counts. I suspect that I bit off more than I could chew this time -- if
there are choices for what we get each time around, maybe my eyes were
bigger than my karmic stomach and I overestimated how much I could handle.
Hopefully that in itself is a learning experience that'll be helpful later.
I bet next time around we *will* do it better. We're working with what
we've got. We're working under handicaps. We have learned what it's like
to live like this. We've learned what it's like to struggle with this.
What if that in itself is a big lesson, is a big experience to learn about,
and that just by being here and experiencing this we're accomplishing
something? I'm learning what it's like to be limited. I'm learning what
it's like to live with pain, to keep going anyway. I've learned what a life
with depression is like.
One teaching, one thing some people believe in, is that there are a large
range of experiences we're supposed to have and that we learn stuff from
them -- each thing to its own time. What if this is our time to learn this?
By just experiencing this, by this being our time to do this, we're doing
what we're supposed to do? Maybe we don't need to discover the way to fix
this. Maybe there isn't a fix. Maybe this is our spin on the mandala this
time and after this we never have to do this again.
Maybe after this we never have to do this again.
I hope not. I just feel like I've gotten to my limit, recently.
I'm sure, somehow, that this will pass. But it's hard to see any
light right now, and it's hard to derive much comfort from the idea
that at least I'm storing up some kind of good karma for the next
spin. Although I'll take what I can get.
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18 Dec 2005 04:17:47 PM |
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"Nina" <ninaNOSPAM@economika.net> wrote
I hope not. I just feel like I've gotten to my limit, recently.
Yeah. And yet the beat goes on. And so will we, for a variety of reasons,
including the people who are depending on us to still be here. It doesn't
feel like enough, sometimes, but here we are still alive today.
I'm sure, somehow, that this will pass. But it's hard to see any
light right now, and it's hard to derive much comfort from the idea
that at least I'm storing up some kind of good karma for the next
spin. Although I'll take what I can get.
I don't see why we'd ever have to do this again. After this we're going to
know what this is, what this feels like, what it's like to live like this.
I can't imagine ever understanding what this is from the outside. I don't
much enjoy understanding what this is like from the inside, either, but I'm
hoping my perspective on that changes once this one is over and I'm on the
outside again.
When we're both done with this one, I want to find you and give you a hug
and say man, aren't you glad *that's* over? And just be glad with you.
Maybe that's when the light is. If it is, I'll take it too.
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18 Dec 2005 04:50:08 PM |
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On Sun, 18 Dec 2005 22:17:47 GMT, "bunny"
<bunnynospam@nospam.blarg.net> wrote:
"Nina" <ninaNOSPAM@economika.net> wrote
I hope not. I just feel like I've gotten to my limit, recently.
Yeah. And yet the beat goes on. And so will we, for a variety of reasons,
including the people who are depending on us to still be here. It doesn't
feel like enough, sometimes, but here we are still alive today.
I'm sure, somehow, that this will pass. But it's hard to see any
light right now, and it's hard to derive much comfort from the idea
that at least I'm storing up some kind of good karma for the next
spin. Although I'll take what I can get.
I don't see why we'd ever have to do this again. After this we're going to
know what this is, what this feels like, what it's like to live like this.
I can't imagine ever understanding what this is from the outside. I don't
much enjoy understanding what this is like from the inside, either, but I'm
hoping my perspective on that changes once this one is over and I'm on the
outside again.
When we're both done with this one, I want to find you and give you a hug
and say man, aren't you glad *that's* over? And just be glad with you.
Maybe that's when the light is. If it is, I'll take it too.
Me too. Me too. I just don't know how to get from here to there.
It's funny; you really forget, in between, what this level of despair
really feels like. That's a kind thing, I suppose, but when it hits
you all over again, it's hard to be braced for it.
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18 Dec 2005 06:14:59 PM |
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On Sun, 18 Dec 2005 17:50:08 -0500, Nina <ninaNOSPAM@economika.net>
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On Sun, 18 Dec 2005 22:17:47 GMT, "bunny"
<bunnynospam@nospam.blarg.net> wrote:
"Nina" <ninaNOSPAM@economika.net> wrote
I hope not. I just feel like I've gotten to my limit, recently.
Yeah. And yet the beat goes on. And so will we, for a variety of reasons,
including the people who are depending on us to still be here. It doesn't
feel like enough, sometimes, but here we are still alive today.
I'm sure, somehow, that this will pass. But it's hard to see any
light right now, and it's hard to derive much comfort from the idea
that at least I'm storing up some kind of good karma for the next
spin. Although I'll take what I can get.
I don't see why we'd ever have to do this again. After this we're going to
know what this is, what this feels like, what it's like to live like this.
I can't imagine ever understanding what this is from the outside. I don't
much enjoy understanding what this is like from the inside, either, but I'm
hoping my perspective on that changes once this one is over and I'm on the
outside again.
When we're both done with this one, I want to find you and give you a hug
and say man, aren't you glad *that's* over? And just be glad with you.
Maybe that's when the light is. If it is, I'll take it too.
Me too. Me too. I just don't know how to get from here to there.
It's funny; you really forget, in between, what this level of despair
really feels like. That's a kind thing, I suppose, but when it hits
you all over again, it's hard to be braced for it.
That's what I was just saying to my sister this morning. You do forget
(thank God) but when it comes back you re-experience the ferocity of
it all over again. At least I know I do and I sense you do too.
This morning I feel as though I don't belong anywhere. I feel as
though i have just come back from a very strange place to be in a very
strange place yet it's my home. I'm going to bed. (it's 10.12am)
Hopefully I will gain enough energy to do at least a little bit of
piano practise this arvo. Exams in March. Hope this depression pisses
off by then. Nina you are in my thoughts, as are all of us having a
wretched time at the moment.
(Hi Bunny!) :)
((((((((((for all of us having a ***** arse time))))))))))
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yuluwirri
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Fish know.
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yuluwirri@hotmail.com
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19 Dec 2005 01:37:26 AM |
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In message <4lubq1tjqn3p6vkgs0ctqcv84s4kd8fbdk@4ax.com>, yuluwirri
<yuluwirri@hotmail.com> writes
This morning I feel as though I don't belong anywhere.
You'll always belong here.
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The opinions given above may be mine. They might also
just be what I feel like saying right now, okay?
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19 Dec 2005 01:37:38 PM |
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On Mon, 19 Dec 2005 07:37:26 +0000, Alan Harding
<Alan@harding.demon.co.uk> wrote:
In message <4lubq1tjqn3p6vkgs0ctqcv84s4kd8fbdk@4ax.com>, yuluwirri
<yuluwirri@hotmail.com> writes
This morning I feel as though I don't belong anywhere.
You'll always belong here.
Thank you Alan. What a kind and beautiful thing to say. I have tears
now, but they are good tears. :)
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yuluwirri
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Fish know.
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yuluwirri@hotmail.com
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| User: "yuluwirri" |
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18 Dec 2005 06:08:26 PM |
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On Sun, 18 Dec 2005 16:06:34 -0500, Nina <ninaNOSPAM@economika.net>
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On Sun, 18 Dec 2005 21:04:39 GMT, "bunny"
<bunnynospam@nospam.blarg.net> wrote:
"yuluwirri" <yuluwirri@hotmail.com> wrote
I agree with you Nina. It does get harder.
Hang on and grit your teeth, ladies. Make that "duckies" for Grace. :-))
It's the only thing I know to do. We're survivors. And later there will be
chocolate.
I begin to wonder if there is actually some point where it isn't worth
making the effort any more.
I was thinking this only last night, but then I looked at my daughter.
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yuluwirri
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Fish know.
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yuluwirri@hotmail.com
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| User: "Nina" |
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18 Dec 2005 06:12:04 PM |
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On Mon, 19 Dec 2005 00:08:26 GMT, yuluwirri <yuluwirri@hotmail.com>
wrote:
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On Sun, 18 Dec 2005 16:06:34 -0500, Nina <ninaNOSPAM@economika.net>
wrote:
On Sun, 18 Dec 2005 21:04:39 GMT, "bunny"
<bunnynospam@nospam.blarg.net> wrote:
"yuluwirri" <yuluwirri@hotmail.com> wrote
I agree with you Nina. It does get harder.
Hang on and grit your teeth, ladies. Make that "duckies" for Grace. :-))
It's the only thing I know to do. We're survivors. And later there will be
chocolate.
I begin to wonder if there is actually some point where it isn't worth
making the effort any more.
I was thinking this only last night, but then I looked at my daughter.
Yeah. That's the catch, or part of it anyway. Although a lot of the
time these days, I wonder if I'm doing my son more harm that good. I
know, logically, that's wrong. But sometimes I think other things.
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| User: "yuluwirri" |
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19 Dec 2005 01:36:33 PM |
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On Sun, 18 Dec 2005 19:12:04 -0500, Nina <ninaNOSPAM@economika.net>
wrote:
On Mon, 19 Dec 2005 00:08:26 GMT, yuluwirri <yuluwirri@hotmail.com>
wrote:
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On Sun, 18 Dec 2005 16:06:34 -0500, Nina <ninaNOSPAM@economika.net>
wrote:
On Sun, 18 Dec 2005 21:04:39 GMT, "bunny"
<bunnynospam@nospam.blarg.net> wrote:
"yuluwirri" <yuluwirri@hotmail.com> wrote
I agree with you Nina. It does get harder.
Hang on and grit your teeth, ladies. Make that "duckies" for Grace. :-))
It's the only thing I know to do. We're survivors. And later there will be
chocolate.
I begin to wonder if there is actually some point where it isn't worth
making the effort any more.
I was thinking this only last night, but then I looked at my daughter.
Yeah. That's the catch, or part of it anyway. Although a lot of the
time these days, I wonder if I'm doing my son more harm that good. I
know, logically, that's wrong. But sometimes I think other things.
I understand this thought process too Nina. I still cry when I see
pictures of my daughter as a child and the regret and loss become
overwhelming when I think of the lost time these illness's stole from
us.
However, some wise person once said to me to start with now, start
with today and build on it and whilst she didn't have a well mother
when she was a wee one, she can have somebody who loves her and to
whom she can trust and come to now.
At the moment I am fighting to stay alive, but I know deep within my
heart that our kiddies are definitely better off with us in their
lives warts and all. Hang in there mate. xoxoxo
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yuluwirri
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Fish know.
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yuluwirri@hotmail.com
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| User: "yuluwirri" |
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18 Dec 2005 06:07:54 PM |
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On Sun, 18 Dec 2005 21:04:39 GMT, "bunny"
<bunnynospam@nospam.blarg.net> wrote:
"yuluwirri" <yuluwirri@hotmail.com> wrote
I agree with you Nina. It does get harder.
Hang on and grit your teeth, ladies. Make that "duckies" for Grace. :-))
Ha! :)
It's the only thing I know to do. We're survivors. And later there will be
chocolate.
Mmmmm chocolate. Okay, well maybe there is a glimmer of hope on the
horizon.
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yuluwirri
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Fish know.
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yuluwirri@hotmail.com
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| User: "Wanda" |
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18 Dec 2005 07:45:11 PM |
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"yuluwirri" <yuluwirri@hotmail.com> wrote in message
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I think that's the worst thing about all of this. You think you can
fix something and be done with it, and it just comes back again and
again and again. And it doesn't get any easier to deal with, either.
Harder, if anything.
I agree with you Nina. It does get harder.
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yuluwirri
Ya know, it does get harder, and each time it pisses you off (makes ya mad,
for the non Americans) more each time. Plus, it scares you more each
time...you wonder just how much more your loved ones can stand.
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| User: "Alan Harding" |
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19 Dec 2005 01:39:56 AM |
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In message <Hgopf.31108$BZ5.21368@newssvr13.news.prodigy.com>, Wanda
<mmmilady@NOSPAMsbcglobal.net> writes
"yuluwirri" <yuluwirri@hotmail.com> wrote in message
news:5khbq1taaph01sbav3tn1q8dn7mtkhj8k7@4ax.com...
I think that's the worst thing about all of this. You think you can
fix something and be done with it, and it just comes back again and
again and again. And it doesn't get any easier to deal with, either.
Harder, if anything.
I agree with you Nina. It does get harder.
Ya know, it does get harder, and each time it pisses you off (makes ya mad,
for the non Americans) more each time. Plus, it scares you more each
time...you wonder just how much more your loved ones can stand.
I think 'pisses you off' is more common British English than ' makes you
mad'. Mad here means insane, not angry. Except for those who've watched
too much US TV, and now can't speak the language.
--
The opinions given above may be mine. They might also
just be what I feel like saying right now, okay?
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| User: "yuluwirri" |
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19 Dec 2005 01:39:19 PM |
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On Mon, 19 Dec 2005 01:45:11 GMT, "Wanda"
<mmmilady@NOSPAMsbcglobal.net> wrote:
"yuluwirri" <yuluwirri@hotmail.com> wrote in message
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I think that's the worst thing about all of this. You think you can
fix something and be done with it, and it just comes back again and
again and again. And it doesn't get any easier to deal with, either.
Harder, if anything.
I agree with you Nina. It does get harder.
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yuluwirri
Ya know, it does get harder, and each time it pisses you off (makes ya mad,
for the non Americans) more each time. Plus, it scares you more each
time...you wonder just how much more your loved ones can stand.
Indeed I have to agree with you. I see my husband and the weariness
and tiredness in his voice. He's had it. I don't blame him. He's had
over 20 years with this *****. And he's got more to come with a
medication change early next year. I really feel for him. It's a
wretched illness.
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yuluwirri
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Fish know.
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yuluwirri@hotmail.com
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| User: "yuluwirri" |
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18 Dec 2005 01:28:10 PM |
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Hey Humble Life, sorry you are feeling poorly too. Hope your head cold
clears up soon!
On Sun, 18 Dec 2005 04:32:32 GMT, yuluwirri <yuluwirri@hotmail.com>
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Hell if I know why, but I'm about as depressed as I can remember at
the moment. And my shrink is away for 2 weeks. Just came home from a
weekend away with the in laws. I only just made it through without
insulting somebody or doing damage to myself.
You just simply forget how horrid it is until it visits again don't
you?
Oh yeah, I've also started with these weird mood swings. Up and down
and up and down within a matter of minutes. It's all new to me. I look
like somebody has run over me with a truck. Anywho, pffft, I dunno, I
just wanted someone to know how ***** I am feeling at the moment.
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yuluwirri
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Fish know.
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yuluwirri@hotmail.com
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| User: "punk" |
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18 Dec 2005 02:40:08 PM |
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glad to hear you made it outta there unscathed...
i hope you're feeling better today.
yuluwirri wrote:
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Hell if I know why, but I'm about as depressed as I can remember at
the moment. And my shrink is away for 2 weeks. Just came home from a
weekend away with the in laws. I only just made it through without
insulting somebody or doing damage to myself.
You just simply forget how horrid it is until it visits again don't
you?
Oh yeah, I've also started with these weird mood swings. Up and down
and up and down within a matter of minutes. It's all new to me. I look
like somebody has run over me with a truck. Anywho, pffft, I dunno, I
just wanted someone to know how ***** I am feeling at the moment.
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yuluwirri
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Fish know.
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yuluwirri@hotmail.com
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