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"aaron from suburbia" |
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10 May 2006 06:31:40 AM |
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gotta try out for this job...don't want to go :( |
I made a commitement to try out for this new job today. in less than 2
hours. it's so early in the morning, not my time of day.
ive been dreading this all week. as you all know, when you're depressed,
every effort is *much* more difficult. I feel like crap.
I don;t want to go, but I am. you know it's like one of those things where
you feel like you dont have much choice (even though you do).
it's not so much today that's gonna be bad. i can handle it for a few
hours. but IF THEY ASK ME TO START and work 3-4 days
a week, sometimes in the morning, I think.....I'm not going to be able to
hold it down. oh well. who cares right? it's just a job. just money
and what does this life matter all *that* much anyway? who cares. i hate
feelings like this. You don't know how bad i wanna completely
give up on *everything*. I've been relying on my "support systems" or
whatever you call it, as much as possible. helps somewhat.
I actually don't feel THAT bad this morning. just tired and wanting to go
back to sleep. this will pass. this will pass. get through the next
4 hours or so. have some klonny. go back to sleep, later. have some coffee
now, and again later after i;ve had more sleep.
<sigh> i gotta go now :/
I don't even want the job that much. so don't say: "hope you do well and
get that job!" -I just want to feel better- k?
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| User: "Contrarian" |
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| Title: Re: gotta try out for this job...don't want to go :( |
10 May 2006 06:46:12 AM |
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aaron from suburbia <suburbanlife@mail.com> wrote:
I made a committment to try out for this new job today. ...
it's not so much today that's gonna be bad. i can handle it for a few
hours. but IF THEY ASK ME TO START and work 3-4 days
a week, sometimes in the morning, I think.....I'm not going to be able to
hold it down.
I know all about that. Thinking about it, and suffering
the dread ... not even the fear of being canned, the dread
of being there and not being able to take it, be it the
noise or the isolation or the lack of isolation...
I don't even want the job that much. so don't say: "hope you do well and
get that job!" -I just want to feel better- k?
that I can wish sincerely, that you feel better.
--
but the edge is still Out there. Or maybe it's In... HST (1967)
when i got to the edge , i built a deck % (2005)
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| User: "aaron from suburbia" |
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| Title: Re: gotta try out for this job...don't want to go :( |
10 May 2006 12:01:51 PM |
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"Contrarian" <adrba65@gmail.com> wrote in message
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aaron from suburbia <suburbanlife@mail.com> wrote:
I made a committment to try out for this new job today. ...
it's not so much today that's gonna be bad. i can handle it for a few
hours. but IF THEY ASK ME TO START and work 3-4 days
a week, sometimes in the morning, I think.....I'm not going to be able
to
hold it down.
I know all about that. Thinking about it, and suffering
the dread ... not even the fear of being canned, the dread
of being there and not being able to take it, be it the
noise or the isolation or the lack of isolation...
thnaks for writing - glad someone understands, and knows how i feel.
although i am sorry you have suffered through this.
"the dread of being there and not being able to take it" that's exactly it.
I don't even want the job that much. so don't say: "hope you do well
and
get that job!" -I just want to feel better- k?
that I can wish sincerely, that you feel better.
Thanks so much! and sincerely I wish that you feel better also,
in anything you are going through right now. even though I dont know
exactly what you're going through, and that you don't know exactly what
Im going through, we can all wish that all of us feels better, stronger,
happier
and all of that. (that was a crappily put together sentance and I cant
spell but who cares ! )
--
but the edge is still Out there. Or maybe it's In... HST (1967)
when i got to the edge , i built a deck % (2005)
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| User: "" |
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| Title: Re: gotta try out for this job...don't want to go :( |
10 May 2006 04:04:34 PM |
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aaron from suburbia wrote:
I made a commitement to try out for this new job today. in less than 2
hours. it's so early in the morning, not my time of day.
ive been dreading this all week. as you all know, when you're depressed,
every effort is *much* more difficult. I feel like crap.
I don;t want to go, but I am. you know it's like one of those things where
you feel like you dont have much choice (even though you do).
it's not so much today that's gonna be bad. i can handle it for a few
hours. but IF THEY ASK ME TO START and work 3-4 days
a week, sometimes in the morning, I think.....I'm not going to be able to
hold it down. oh well. who cares right? it's just a job. just money
and what does this life matter all *that* much anyway? who cares. i hate
feelings like this. You don't know how bad i wanna completely
give up on *everything*. I've been relying on my "support systems" or
whatever you call it, as much as possible. helps somewhat.
I actually don't feel THAT bad this morning. just tired and wanting to go
back to sleep. this will pass. this will pass. get through the next
4 hours or so. have some klonny. go back to sleep, later. have some coffee
now, and again later after i;ve had more sleep.
<sigh> i gotta go now :/
I don't even want the job that much. so don't say: "hope you do well and
get that job!" -I just want to feel better- k?
It sounds like it's a part time job... that's one bit of good
news... I'm very thankful to be working part time(including volunteer
work)... working full time would be much tougher it seems...
-"jordie"
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| User: "aaron from suburbia" |
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| Title: Re: gotta try out for this job...don't want to go :( |
10 May 2006 06:13:12 PM |
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<Icnh@hotmail.com> wrote in message
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aaron from suburbia wrote:
It sounds like it's a part time job... that's one bit of good
news... I'm very thankful to be working part time(including volunteer
work)... working full time would be much tougher it seems...
-"jordie"
yep, exactly, its part time. (they asked if i wanted part or full time on a
previous interview)
working full time would "break" me so bad, its not even funny. you're
exactly right Jordie.
I'm thankful to be working part time at another job right now.
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| User: "purpleveggie" |
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| Title: Re: gotta try out for this job...don't want to go :( |
11 May 2006 02:31:21 AM |
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aaron from suburbia wrote:
<Icnh@hotmail.com> wrote in message
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aaron from suburbia wrote:
It sounds like it's a part time job... that's one bit of good
news... I'm very thankful to be working part time(including volunteer
work)... working full time would be much tougher it seems...
-"jordie"
yep, exactly, its part time. (they asked if i wanted part or full time on a
previous interview)
working full time would "break" me so bad, its not even funny. you're
exactly right Jordie.
I'm thankful to be working part time at another job right now.
i will cross my fingers you get offered it seeing as you want it.
pv works part time as well
i have done for 6 years now
mrs pv does the same so we just about manage to keep our heads above
water
we also milk the benefits system to breaking point which is a help
when i was working full time and paying tax at 40% i used to think i
would be too proud to clain benefit but now i think "why not"....after
all i am only getting back my own money!!!!
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| User: "punk" |
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| Title: Re: gotta try out for this job...don't want to go :( |
10 May 2006 01:03:40 PM |
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hey aaron...how'd it go? did you have a good outing?
aaron from suburbia wrote:
I made a commitement to try out for this new job today. in less than 2
hours. it's so early in the morning, not my time of day.
ive been dreading this all week. as you all know, when you're depressed,
every effort is *much* more difficult. I feel like crap.
I don;t want to go, but I am. you know it's like one of those things where
you feel like you dont have much choice (even though you do).
it's not so much today that's gonna be bad. i can handle it for a few
hours. but IF THEY ASK ME TO START and work 3-4 days
a week, sometimes in the morning, I think.....I'm not going to be able to
hold it down. oh well. who cares right? it's just a job. just money
and what does this life matter all *that* much anyway? who cares. i hate
feelings like this. You don't know how bad i wanna completely
give up on *everything*. I've been relying on my "support systems" or
whatever you call it, as much as possible. helps somewhat.
I actually don't feel THAT bad this morning. just tired and wanting to go
back to sleep. this will pass. this will pass. get through the next
4 hours or so. have some klonny. go back to sleep, later. have some coffee
now, and again later after i;ve had more sleep.
<sigh> i gotta go now :/
I don't even want the job that much. so don't say: "hope you do well and
get that job!" -I just want to feel better- k?
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| User: "aaron from suburbia" |
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| Title: Re: gotta try out for this job...don't want to go :( |
10 May 2006 06:10:00 PM |
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"punk" <punkn05@hotmail.com> wrote in message
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hey aaron...how'd it go? did you have a good outing?
hiya Punk,
no was not offered the job yet, they're still taking in applicants. it
was just a relief to get the day over with. and get some sleep. i'm not
even
hoping for the job, just wanted to get the whole thing over with. I don't
know if id even take it if offered. i *might* 2-3 days a week.
the outing wasnt too bad, cause i got to talk to some people that made me
feel better about other (non-job) things going on.
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| User: "punk" |
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11 May 2006 04:03:42 AM |
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yeah, i could tell you weren't sure if you wanted the job, but,
congrats on doing the interview. i hope they offer you a schedule you
can do.
i'm glad you got to chat with some people. it can make me feel better
sometimes too.
aaron from suburbia wrote:
"punk" <punkn05@hotmail.com> wrote in message
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hey aaron...how'd it go? did you have a good outing?
hiya Punk,
no was not offered the job yet, they're still taking in applicants. it
was just a relief to get the day over with. and get some sleep. i'm not
even
hoping for the job, just wanted to get the whole thing over with. I don't
know if id even take it if offered. i *might* 2-3 days a week.
the outing wasnt too bad, cause i got to talk to some people that made me
feel better about other (non-job) things going on.
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| User: "%" |
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| Title: Re: gotta try out for this job...don't want to go :( |
10 May 2006 01:13:15 PM |
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hi
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| User: "purpleveggie" |
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| Title: Re: gotta try out for this job...don't want to go :( |
10 May 2006 01:15:21 PM |
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% wrote:
hi
greetings %
avin a gud day?
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| User: "%" |
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10 May 2006 01:20:00 PM |
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"purpleveggie" <purpleveggie@hotmail.com> wrote in message
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% wrote:
hi
greetings %
avin a gud day?
not really , but i'm ok , i guess
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| User: "purpleveggie" |
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10 May 2006 01:25:42 PM |
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% wrote:
"purpleveggie" <purpleveggie@hotmail.com> wrote in message
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% wrote:
hi
greetings %
avin a gud day?
not really , but i'm ok , i guess
how do you know about punks standing in the well stacked department?
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| User: "%" |
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10 May 2006 01:57:39 PM |
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"purpleveggie" <purpleveggie@hotmail.com> wrote in message
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% wrote:
"purpleveggie" <purpleveggie@hotmail.com> wrote in message
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% wrote:
hi
greetings %
avin a gud day?
not really , but i'm ok , i guess
how do you know about punks standing in the well stacked department?
i've seen her
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| User: "purpleveggie" |
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10 May 2006 01:08:52 PM |
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punk wrote:
hey aaron...how'd it go? did you have a good outing?
aaron from suburbia wrote:
I made a commitement to try out for this new job today. in less than 2
hours. it's so early in the morning, not my time of day.
ive been dreading this all week. as you all know, when you're depressed,
every effort is *much* more difficult. I feel like crap.
I don;t want to go, but I am. you know it's like one of those things where
you feel like you dont have much choice (even though you do).
it's not so much today that's gonna be bad. i can handle it for a few
hours. but IF THEY ASK ME TO START and work 3-4 days
a week, sometimes in the morning, I think.....I'm not going to be able to
hold it down. oh well. who cares right? it's just a job. just money
and what does this life matter all *that* much anyway? who cares. i hate
feelings like this. You don't know how bad i wanna completely
give up on *everything*. I've been relying on my "support systems" or
whatever you call it, as much as possible. helps somewhat.
I actually don't feel THAT bad this morning. just tired and wanting to go
back to sleep. this will pass. this will pass. get through the next
4 hours or so. have some klonny. go back to sleep, later. have some coffee
now, and again later after i;ve had more sleep.
<sigh> i gotta go now :/
I don't even want the job that much. so don't say: "hope you do well and
get that job!" -I just want to feel better- k?
yeh come on Aaron ffs dont keep us in suspenders.....did you get
offered the job and if so did you tell him/her to stick it where the
sun dont shine?
well hellooooooooooooooooo Punk
is you well?????????
i is.
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| User: "aaron from suburbia" |
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10 May 2006 06:11:28 PM |
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"purpleveggie" <purpleveggie@hotmail.com> wrote in message
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yeh come on Aaron ffs dont keep us in suspenders.....did you get
offered the job and if so did you tell him/her to stick it where the
sun dont shine?
well hellooooooooooooooooo Punk
is you well?????????
i is.
not offered to me yet. it was an ok walkthrough of what the job would be
like. they're ok people there.
it wouldn't tell these guys to stick it, they do good work for a good cause.
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| User: "%" |
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10 May 2006 01:14:00 PM |
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"purpleveggie" <purpleveggie@hotmail.com> wrote in message
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punk wrote:
hey aaron...how'd it go? did you have a good outing?
aaron from suburbia wrote:
I made a commitement to try out for this new job today. in less than 2
hours. it's so early in the morning, not my time of day.
ive been dreading this all week. as you all know, when you're
depressed,
every effort is *much* more difficult. I feel like crap.
I don;t want to go, but I am. you know it's like one of those things
where
you feel like you dont have much choice (even though you do).
it's not so much today that's gonna be bad. i can handle it for a few
hours. but IF THEY ASK ME TO START and work 3-4 days
a week, sometimes in the morning, I think.....I'm not going to be able
to
hold it down. oh well. who cares right? it's just a job. just money
and what does this life matter all *that* much anyway? who cares. i
hate
feelings like this. You don't know how bad i wanna completely
give up on *everything*. I've been relying on my "support systems"
or
whatever you call it, as much as possible. helps somewhat.
I actually don't feel THAT bad this morning. just tired and wanting to
go
back to sleep. this will pass. this will pass. get through the next
4 hours or so. have some klonny. go back to sleep, later. have some
coffee
now, and again later after i;ve had more sleep.
<sigh> i gotta go now :/
I don't even want the job that much. so don't say: "hope you do well
and
get that job!" -I just want to feel better- k?
yeh come on Aaron ffs dont keep us in suspenders.....did you get
offered the job and if so did you tell him/her to stick it where the
sun dont shine?
well hellooooooooooooooooo Punk
is you well?????????
i is.
is she well what , stacked , no
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| User: "punk" |
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10 May 2006 01:30:42 PM |
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i be fine, hombre.
purpleveggie wrote:
punk wrote:
hey aaron...how'd it go? did you have a good outing?
aaron from suburbia wrote:
I made a commitement to try out for this new job today. in less than 2
hours. it's so early in the morning, not my time of day.
ive been dreading this all week. as you all know, when you're depressed,
every effort is *much* more difficult. I feel like crap.
I don;t want to go, but I am. you know it's like one of those things where
you feel like you dont have much choice (even though you do).
it's not so much today that's gonna be bad. i can handle it for a few
hours. but IF THEY ASK ME TO START and work 3-4 days
a week, sometimes in the morning, I think.....I'm not going to be able to
hold it down. oh well. who cares right? it's just a job. just money
and what does this life matter all *that* much anyway? who cares. i hate
feelings like this. You don't know how bad i wanna completely
give up on *everything*. I've been relying on my "support systems" or
whatever you call it, as much as possible. helps somewhat.
I actually don't feel THAT bad this morning. just tired and wanting to go
back to sleep. this will pass. this will pass. get through the next
4 hours or so. have some klonny. go back to sleep, later. have some coffee
now, and again later after i;ve had more sleep.
<sigh> i gotta go now :/
I don't even want the job that much. so don't say: "hope you do well and
get that job!" -I just want to feel better- k?
yeh come on Aaron ffs dont keep us in suspenders.....did you get
offered the job and if so did you tell him/her to stick it where the
sun dont shine?
well hellooooooooooooooooo Punk
is you well?????????
i is.
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| User: "purpleveggie" |
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| Title: Re: gotta try out for this job...don't want to go :( |
10 May 2006 01:33:49 PM |
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excellent.
them thieving lawer bastards still ripping you off?
punk wrote:
i be fine, hombre.
purpleveggie wrote:
punk wrote:
hey aaron...how'd it go? did you have a good outing?
aaron from suburbia wrote:
I made a commitement to try out for this new job today. in less than 2
hours. it's so early in the morning, not my time of day.
ive been dreading this all week. as you all know, when you're depressed,
every effort is *much* more difficult. I feel like crap.
I don;t want to go, but I am. you know it's like one of those things where
you feel like you dont have much choice (even though you do).
it's not so much today that's gonna be bad. i can handle it for a few
hours. but IF THEY ASK ME TO START and work 3-4 days
a week, sometimes in the morning, I think.....I'm not going to be able to
hold it down. oh well. who cares right? it's just a job. just money
and what does this life matter all *that* much anyway? who cares. i hate
feelings like this. You don't know how bad i wanna completely
give up on *everything*. I've been relying on my "support systems" or
whatever you call it, as much as possible. helps somewhat.
I actually don't feel THAT bad this morning. just tired and wanting to go
back to sleep. this will pass. this will pass. get through the next
4 hours or so. have some klonny. go back to sleep, later. have some coffee
now, and again later after i;ve had more sleep.
<sigh> i gotta go now :/
I don't even want the job that much. so don't say: "hope you do well and
get that job!" -I just want to feel better- k?
yeh come on Aaron ffs dont keep us in suspenders.....did you get
offered the job and if so did you tell him/her to stick it where the
sun dont shine?
well hellooooooooooooooooo Punk
is you well?????????
i is.
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| User: "punk" |
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| Title: Re: gotta try out for this job...don't want to go :( |
10 May 2006 01:38:30 PM |
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duznt mattr cuz i b fine.
purpleveggie wrote:
excellent.
them thieving lawer bastards still ripping you off?
punk wrote:
i be fine, hombre.
purpleveggie wrote:
punk wrote:
hey aaron...how'd it go? did you have a good outing?
aaron from suburbia wrote:
I made a commitement to try out for this new job today. in less than 2
hours. it's so early in the morning, not my time of day.
ive been dreading this all week. as you all know, when you're depressed,
every effort is *much* more difficult. I feel like crap.
I don;t want to go, but I am. you know it's like one of those things where
you feel like you dont have much choice (even though you do).
it's not so much today that's gonna be bad. i can handle it for a few
hours. but IF THEY ASK ME TO START and work 3-4 days
a week, sometimes in the morning, I think.....I'm not going to be able to
hold it down. oh well. who cares right? it's just a job. just money
and what does this life matter all *that* much anyway? who cares. i hate
feelings like this. You don't know how bad i wanna completely
give up on *everything*. I've been relying on my "support systems" or
whatever you call it, as much as possible. helps somewhat.
I actually don't feel THAT bad this morning. just tired and wanting to go
back to sleep. this will pass. this will pass. get through the next
4 hours or so. have some klonny. go back to sleep, later. have some coffee
now, and again later after i;ve had more sleep.
<sigh> i gotta go now :/
I don't even want the job that much. so don't say: "hope you do well and
get that job!" -I just want to feel better- k?
yeh come on Aaron ffs dont keep us in suspenders.....did you get
offered the job and if so did you tell him/her to stick it where the
sun dont shine?
well hellooooooooooooooooo Punk
is you well?????????
i is.
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