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Sociology > Depression |
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"Who Cares" |
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29 Apr 2004 10:45:12 AM |
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haunting memories |
exams start tuesday .... no studying done ... ***** ***** ... im panicking!!
i have a report due tomorrow morning and its already 8:40pm ..... no work
done .. aargh ....
why can't i get a move on it ...... ! its this stupid depression thing ..
can't get over it
yesterday, my friends got me to tell them all about my ex .. and i talked
to them for about an hour .. lots of oohs .. and "oh how romantic" .. "what
an amazing story" .. until the part when i told them about her suicide ..
and how I found out about it ... the girl i was with almost teared up .. so
can u imagine how I felt?
all the feelings, the emotions .. the realization that she isn't there
anymore .. the last time I saw her ..I asked her for a coffee and then
backed away ... (what an idiot) ..
When I finished telling the story .. I literally hallucinated .. I felt as
though I was back in Canada ... and that she was still right there beside
me .. watching me as I moved away ...
aargh .. why can't I move on .. it's been 5 years since we broke up .. and
1.5 since she died ....
The memories are so clear ... so prominant .. mostly, I can keep them at
the back of my mind .. but when they come up .. they stay for a week .. and
make me feel everything with the exact same intensity all over again ...
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| User: "Trishamolson" |
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| Title: Re: haunting memories |
29 Apr 2004 11:02:59 AM |
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I am so sorry the pain is striking at you like this. It will take a long time,
I imagine, to learn to live with the pain of your loss.
BUT: you must either do your paper tonight or immediately contact your profs to
postpone exams and get extensions!!! They usually do this. Don't just let the
pain keep you from protecting yourself.
Good luck --
Rosena
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| User: "Who Cares" |
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| Title: Re: haunting memories |
29 Apr 2004 11:33:39 AM |
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(Trishamolson) wrote in
news:20040429120259.09153.00000344@mb-m19.aol.com:
I am so sorry the pain is striking at you like this. It will take a
long time, I imagine, to learn to live with the pain of your loss.
BUT: you must either do your paper tonight or immediately contact your
profs to postpone exams and get extensions!!! They usually do this.
Don't just let the pain keep you from protecting yourself.
Good luck --
Rosena
*sigh*
I wish that could happen ... ive already gotten the extension and have
pushed even that to the limit ... as for exams .. out of the question. A
girl was walking around with appendix pain .. why? because our college is
run by tyrants! There's an official rule here that students that skip the
last day of classes get expelled. So she tortured herself rather than give
up admission.
Unfortunately .. education here is a previlege not a right .. and so the
people in command have enough authority to get us to sign waivers that "we
can expel you without rhyme or reason" .. so we study in fear. Kinda like
.... we're victims of famine, and are being fed cockroaches .. we have to
eat them .. because if we don't, someone else will come and gladly have
them ... and we'd have to starve to death.
i know it sounds sick .. and most of you won't be able to even comprehend
it ... even here people can't comprehend it .. but its the best business
school in the country ... kinda like boot camp for the mentally gifted. Its
this country's Harvard. Guaranteed 6 figure salary after graduation ... so
we have to take whatever the admin dishes out ...
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| User: "Trishamolson" |
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| Title: Re: haunting memories |
29 Apr 2004 12:27:31 PM |
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Oh dear -- sounds as if you are stuck. All you can do is a bit at a time now
and try to not think too large, or you will get overwhelmed. Start the paper .
.. . just a start, and don't think right now about its finish, bit by bit hour
by hour.
rooting for you.
Rosena
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| User: "Tim Kettring" |
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| Title: Re: haunting memories |
29 Apr 2004 08:57:10 PM |
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I had to get on antidepressants to get rid of haunting memories .
"Who Cares" <WC@asda.cac> wrote in message
news:Xns94DAD3BE1DA66sadasdasfasfc@195.131.52.135...
exams start tuesday .... no studying done ... ***** ***** ... im panicking!!
i have a report due tomorrow morning and its already 8:40pm ..... no work
done .. aargh ....
why can't i get a move on it ...... ! its this stupid depression thing ..
can't get over it
yesterday, my friends got me to tell them all about my ex .. and i talked
to them for about an hour .. lots of oohs .. and "oh how romantic" ..
"what
an amazing story" .. until the part when i told them about her suicide ..
and how I found out about it ... the girl i was with almost teared up ..
so
can u imagine how I felt?
all the feelings, the emotions .. the realization that she isn't there
anymore .. the last time I saw her ..I asked her for a coffee and then
backed away ... (what an idiot) ..
When I finished telling the story .. I literally hallucinated .. I felt as
though I was back in Canada ... and that she was still right there beside
me .. watching me as I moved away ...
aargh .. why can't I move on .. it's been 5 years since we broke up .. and
1.5 since she died ....
The memories are so clear ... so prominant .. mostly, I can keep them at
the back of my mind .. but when they come up .. they stay for a week ..
and
make me feel everything with the exact same intensity all over again ...
.
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| User: "Who Cares" |
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| Title: Re: haunting memories |
30 Apr 2004 04:20:57 AM |
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im trying my best to keep away from having to need those. But who knows how
much strength I have left ...
things are just going downhill daily ...
"Tim Kettring" <tim6kettring@e-garfield.com> wrote in
news:c6sbpm$fscg3$1@ID-212626.news.uni-berlin.de:
I had to get on antidepressants to get rid of haunting memories .
"Who Cares" <WC@asda.cac> wrote in message
news:Xns94DAD3BE1DA66sadasdasfasfc@195.131.52.135...
exams start tuesday .... no studying done ... ***** ***** ... im
panicking!! i have a report due tomorrow morning and its already
8:40pm ..... no work done .. aargh ....
why can't i get a move on it ...... ! its this stupid depression
thing .. can't get over it
yesterday, my friends got me to tell them all about my ex .. and i
talked to them for about an hour .. lots of oohs .. and "oh how
romantic" ..
"what
an amazing story" .. until the part when i told them about her
suicide .. and how I found out about it ... the girl i was with
almost teared up ..
so
can u imagine how I felt?
all the feelings, the emotions .. the realization that she isn't
there anymore .. the last time I saw her ..I asked her for a coffee
and then backed away ... (what an idiot) ..
When I finished telling the story .. I literally hallucinated .. I
felt as though I was back in Canada ... and that she was still right
there beside me .. watching me as I moved away ...
aargh .. why can't I move on .. it's been 5 years since we broke up
.. and 1.5 since she died ....
The memories are so clear ... so prominant .. mostly, I can keep them
at the back of my mind .. but when they come up .. they stay for a
week ..
and
make me feel everything with the exact same intensity all over again
...
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| User: "Dan Mors Dan" |
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| Title: Re: haunting memories |
29 Apr 2004 06:59:04 PM |
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My deepest sympaty. Hope those memories get replaced by pleasant
ones. We must get busy living...
On Thu, 29 Apr 2004 15:45:12 +0000 (UTC), Who Cares <WC@asda.cac>
wrote:
exams start tuesday .... no studying done ... ***** ***** ... im panicking!!
i have a report due tomorrow morning and its already 8:40pm ..... no work
done .. aargh ....
why can't i get a move on it ...... ! its this stupid depression thing ..
can't get over it
yesterday, my friends got me to tell them all about my ex .. and i talked
to them for about an hour .. lots of oohs .. and "oh how romantic" .. "what
an amazing story" .. until the part when i told them about her suicide ..
and how I found out about it ... the girl i was with almost teared up .. so
can u imagine how I felt?
all the feelings, the emotions .. the realization that she isn't there
anymore .. the last time I saw her ..I asked her for a coffee and then
backed away ... (what an idiot) ..
When I finished telling the story .. I literally hallucinated .. I felt as
though I was back in Canada ... and that she was still right there beside
me .. watching me as I moved away ...
aargh .. why can't I move on .. it's been 5 years since we broke up .. and
1.5 since she died ....
The memories are so clear ... so prominant .. mostly, I can keep them at
the back of my mind .. but when they come up .. they stay for a week .. and
make me feel everything with the exact same intensity all over again ...
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