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"Filpriros" |
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17 Oct 2004 11:01:12 PM |
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Have to do Better Tomorrow |
Today very depressed and experienced pain as a result for first time in a long
time. You know, steel shaft rupturing your insides from belly to throat.
Still worked on paper a bit and ordered two books -- one from 1877 so anxious
to see what condition it is in. it is sermons from 14th century by Jean
Gerson. Also a small book by Dante on eleoquence rarely available (it is
coming from rare book shop in England)
Working on Conflicts lesson plan now . . . perhaps just an off 24 hours. I
will work harder tomorrow on finding a permanent teaching position, always feel
better when I am doing something -- anything -- to make it better rather than
sitting and drowning.
Maria hugged and kissed me today. Wow I needed that from my daughter.
Rosena
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| User: "Contrarian" |
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| Title: Re: Have to do Better Tomorrow |
18 Oct 2004 11:32:37 PM |
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Filpriros <filpriros@aol.com> wrote:
Today very depressed and experienced pain as a result for first time in a long
time. You know, steel shaft rupturing your insides from belly to throat.
:-)
hoping that goes away for good
wish some EMDR or something would show up and alleviate this
Still worked on paper a bit and ordered two books -- one from 1877 so anxious
to see what condition it is in. it is sermons from 14th century by Jean
Gerson. Also a small book by Dante on eleoquence rarely available (it is
coming from rare book shop in England)
:-/
such erudition, (no irony, just admiration)
Working on Conflicts lesson plan now . . . perhaps just an off 24 hours. I
will work harder tomorrow on finding a permanent teaching position, always feel
better when I am doing something -- anything -- to make it better rather than
sitting and drowning.
I used to feel that way. Now halleeeluhah I'm a bum.
Maria hugged and kissed me today. Wow I needed that from my daughter.
Well, tomorrow is another day. Very trite, but it is.
--
reverse TLD for mail
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| User: "dennis" |
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| Title: Re: Have to do Better Tomorrow |
18 Oct 2004 02:50:14 PM |
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On 18 Oct 2004 04:01:12 GMT, (Filpriros) wrote:
Today very depressed and experienced pain as a result for first time in a long
time. You know, steel shaft rupturing your insides from belly to throat.
Still worked on paper a bit and ordered two books -- one from 1877 so anxious
to see what condition it is in. it is sermons from 14th century by Jean
Gerson. Also a small book by Dante on eleoquence rarely available (it is
coming from rare book shop in England)
Working on Conflicts lesson plan now . . . perhaps just an off 24 hours. I
will work harder tomorrow on finding a permanent teaching position, always feel
better when I am doing something -- anything -- to make it better rather than
sitting and drowning.
Maria hugged and kissed me today. Wow I needed that from my daughter.
Rosena
hi rosena.
why such pain?
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| User: "David" |
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| Title: Re: Have to do Better Tomorrow |
18 Oct 2004 07:07:59 PM |
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"dennis" <later@notnow.net> wrote in message
news:vi78n0hrhb2nnhg0gfr0i4uj0pgnit94mj@4ax.com...
On 18 Oct 2004 04:01:12 GMT, (Filpriros) wrote:
Today very depressed and experienced pain as a result for first time in a
long
time. You know, steel shaft rupturing your insides from belly to throat.
Still worked on paper a bit and ordered two books -- one from 1877 so
anxious
to see what condition it is in. it is sermons from 14th century by Jean
Gerson. Also a small book by Dante on eleoquence rarely available (it is
coming from rare book shop in England)
Working on Conflicts lesson plan now . . . perhaps just an off 24 hours.
I
will work harder tomorrow on finding a permanent teaching position, always
feel
better when I am doing something -- anything -- to make it better rather
than
sitting and drowning.
Maria hugged and kissed me today. Wow I needed that from my daughter.
Rosena
hi rosena.
why such pain?
There's a silver lining to every cloud :).
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| User: "% surfs@uniserve" |
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| Title: Re: Have to do Better Tomorrow |
18 Oct 2004 07:12:57 PM |
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"David" <noemail@here.com> wrote in message
news:fSYcd.40687$%x.5778@okepread04...
"dennis" <later@notnow.net> wrote in message
news:vi78n0hrhb2nnhg0gfr0i4uj0pgnit94mj@4ax.com...
On 18 Oct 2004 04:01:12 GMT, (Filpriros) wrote:
Today very depressed and experienced pain as a result for first time in
a
long
time. You know, steel shaft rupturing your insides from belly to
throat.
Still worked on paper a bit and ordered two books -- one from 1877 so
anxious
to see what condition it is in. it is sermons from 14th century by Jean
Gerson. Also a small book by Dante on eleoquence rarely available (it
is
coming from rare book shop in England)
Working on Conflicts lesson plan now . . . perhaps just an off 24 hours.
I
will work harder tomorrow on finding a permanent teaching position,
always
feel
better when I am doing something -- anything -- to make it better rather
than
sitting and drowning.
Maria hugged and kissed me today. Wow I needed that from my daughter.
Rosena
hi rosena.
why such pain?
There's a silver lining to every cloud :).
no ... there isn't
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| User: "Filpriros" |
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| Title: Re: Have to do Better Tomorrow |
19 Oct 2004 04:42:28 PM |
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There's a silver lining to every cloud :).
I try to really believe this -- I am not an idiot and there is ***** that simply
has no value, but still I try to believe there is a reason a meaning to life as
it unfolds. So, not so silly to say really :)
Rosena
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| User: "Filpriros" |
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| Title: Re: Have to do Better Tomorrow |
19 Oct 2004 04:41:11 PM |
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why such pain?
Hi -- I don't understand it. When I get in a bad place in my mind it shows up
physically and I have enormous chest and stomach pain, as if a steel rod is
pushing through. It goes away when I 1) get a grip and 2) focus on work or
Maria or even a good film (or teach).
Rosena
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| User: "dennis" |
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| Title: Re: Have to do Better Tomorrow |
19 Oct 2004 04:57:21 PM |
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On 19 Oct 2004 21:41:11 GMT, (Filpriros) wrote:
why such pain?
Hi -- I don't understand it. When I get in a bad place in my mind it shows up
physically and I have enormous chest and stomach pain, as if a steel rod is
pushing through. It goes away when I 1) get a grip and 2) focus on work or
Maria or even a good film (or teach).
Rosena
what have you tried for it?
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| User: "Filpriros" |
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| Title: Re: Have to do Better Tomorrow |
19 Oct 2004 09:56:34 PM |
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what have you tried for it?
To become sane. No truly that is what I work at, being sane. Not making wacky
decisions, not flying off or overparsing something, not plunging into people
relations (like I am prone to do) etc. etc.
The pain with my meds becomes a dull ache and that I have learned to live with
well. It is only when it is like a cat clawing in my stomach and my breath is
short and so forth that I try --if I can -- to lay down for an hour. Often
that helps.
I have been known only really bad days to give up and lay down, get mad at
mysefl and try to work and research, gets impossible, go lay down, get angry
and go back to it all day long. It is like an internal war inside "come down
to hell little pretty" v. "Rosena, get a grip woman and work for your daughter
and yourself! Buck it up."
Usually I keep going.
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| User: "Alan Harding" |
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| Title: Re: Have to do Better Tomorrow |
20 Oct 2004 01:06:30 AM |
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In message <20041019225634.16808.00001985@mb-m11.aol.com>, Filpriros
<filpriros@aol.com> writes
what have you tried for it?
To become sane. No truly that is what I work at, being sane. Not making wacky
decisions, not flying off or overparsing something, not plunging into people
relations (like I am prone to do) etc. etc.
Sometimes sane isn't the best survival tool.
--
The opinions given above may be mine. They might also
just be what I feel like saying right now, okay?
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