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"Loser" |
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20 Oct 2003 10:20:39 AM |
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how many more mornings must i wake up |
i wake up every morning and wish i didnt. today i call someone about a thing
i was charged twice for. they told me *i* was rude and hung up on me. this
is the way i always get treated. all i wanted was for them to give me a credit.
is that such a big deal. but no, nobody wants to help me. got no mother,
no father, no no one. i look at the death notices every day. when will i
be one of the lucky ones.
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| User: "Jamal Chapultapec" |
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| Title: Re: how many more mornings must i wake up |
20 Oct 2003 06:39:10 PM |
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"Loser" <nobody@nowhere.com> wrote in
news:vp7va7o646qr04@corp.supernews.com:
i wake up every morning and wish i didnt.
I wish you hand't either.
today i call someone about a
thing i was charged twice for. they told me *i* was rude and hung up
on me.
Well stop being rude to people, jackass.
this is the way i always get treated.
So it must be your fault.
all i wanted was for them
to give me a credit. is that such a big deal. but no, nobody wants to
help me. got no mother, no father, no no one.
Take my mother and father. You'll then wish you didn't have parents after
all.
i look at the death
notices every day. when will i be one of the lucky ones.
Soon.
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| User: "Noon Cat Nick" |
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| Title: Re: how many more mornings must i wake up |
20 Oct 2003 09:00:34 PM |
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Jamal Chapultapec wrote:
Well stop being rude to people, jackass.
Ah, the irony...
Take my mother and father. You'll then wish you didn't have parents after
all.
Tell *them* to stop being rude to people, starting with you.
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| User: "Jamal Chapultapec" |
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| Title: Re: how many more mornings must i wake up |
21 Oct 2003 08:41:23 PM |
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Noon Cat Nick <chatdemidiSPAMBEGONE@catlover.com> wrote in
news:3F949342.DF374CE7@catlover.com:
Jamal Chapultapec wrote:
Well stop being rude to people, jackass.
Ah, the irony...
Take my mother and father. You'll then wish you didn't have parents
after all.
Tell *them* to stop being rude to people, starting with you.
I'm not rude to people. I'm just treating them how they treated me.
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| User: "Noon Cat Nick" |
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22 Oct 2003 12:16:24 AM |
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Jamal Chapultapec wrote:
I'm not rude to people. I'm just treating them how they treated me.
I take it, then, that you didn't and don't consider them rude in the slightest.
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| User: "Jamal Chapultapec" |
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| Title: Re: how many more mornings must i wake up |
22 Oct 2003 04:41:39 PM |
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Noon Cat Nick <chatdemidiSPAMBEGONE@catlover.com> wrote in
news:3F9612A9.F74CA9BB@catlover.com:
Jamal Chapultapec wrote:
I'm not rude to people. I'm just treating them how they treated me.
I take it, then, that you didn't and don't consider them rude in the
slightest.
What I consider is not important.
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| User: "Noon Cat Nick" |
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22 Oct 2003 09:47:19 PM |
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Jamal Chapultapec wrote:
Noon Cat Nick <chatdemidiSPAMBEGONE@catlover.com> wrote in
news:3F9612A9.F74CA9BB@catlover.com:
Jamal Chapultapec wrote:
I'm not rude to people. I'm just treating them how they treated me.
I take it, then, that you didn't and don't consider them rude in the
slightest.
What I consider is not important.
Okay.
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| User: "Jamal Chapultapec" |
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| Title: Re: how many more mornings must i wake up |
23 Oct 2003 07:08:44 AM |
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Noon Cat Nick <chatdemidiSPAMBEGONE@catlover.com> wrote in
news:3F974138.A07A615A@catlover.com:
Jamal Chapultapec wrote:
Noon Cat Nick <chatdemidiSPAMBEGONE@catlover.com> wrote in
news:3F9612A9.F74CA9BB@catlover.com:
Jamal Chapultapec wrote:
I'm not rude to people. I'm just treating them how they treated me.
I take it, then, that you didn't and don't consider them rude in the
slightest.
What I consider is not important.
Okay.
?!
I'm so used to everyone telling me everything I say is wrong.
Uhm ... very well then. Carry on.
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| User: "Noon Cat Nick" |
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23 Oct 2003 05:16:54 PM |
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Jamal Chapultapec wrote:
Noon Cat Nick <chatdemidiSPAMBEGONE@catlover.com> wrote in
news:3F974138.A07A615A@catlover.com:
Jamal Chapultapec wrote:
Noon Cat Nick <chatdemidiSPAMBEGONE@catlover.com> wrote in
news:3F9612A9.F74CA9BB@catlover.com:
Jamal Chapultapec wrote:
I'm not rude to people. I'm just treating them how they treated me.
I take it, then, that you didn't and don't consider them rude in the
slightest.
What I consider is not important.
Okay.
?!
I'm so used to everyone telling me everything I say is wrong.
That needs to stop. No one is wrong all the time (with the exception of
those dratted JWs who keep ringing my doorbell).
Uhm ... very well then. Carry on.
Will do, J. Have a good weekend.
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| User: "Stevhan Hartwell" |
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| Title: Re: how many more mornings must i wake up |
20 Oct 2003 11:04:59 AM |
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"Loser" <nobody@nowhere.com> wrote in
news:vp7va7o646qr04@corp.supernews.com:
i wake up every morning and wish i didnt. today i call someone about a
thing i was charged twice for. they told me *i* was rude and hung up
on me. this is the way i always get treated. all i wanted was for them
to give me a credit. is that such a big deal. but no, nobody wants to
help me. got no mother, no father, no no one. i look at the death
notices every day. when will i be one of the lucky ones.
you're not alone in that thought. i'm not in a black area right now, but
i have lived in that realm for months and months on end - where you're
just begging for the end to come. get a rest from it for a day or two,
every now and again, then its back into the darkness.
the only thing that i've found is just making sure you take that next
breath. if in fact it means just sitting there and focusing on your
breath. when fears, paranoia, depression overwhelm you, the only thing
you can do is breath. then focus on it. one in, one out.
i did find a way to reach into the darkness and begin to pull crap out of
it. start releasing some of that darkness from within. there are ways -
anything artistic will help open the mind to healing. writing is a good
one. journaling / writing fiction (a tale of what you find in that
darkness) / writing letters (not necessairily to anyone or not that
you're gonna mail - but ones that you can release crap with - then
promptly burn) / writing true accounts of things that have happened to
you, then to change the endings to something that you would like to have
had happen.
another way to reach into that darkness is to actually go into darkness.
a native american sweat lodge can do wonders. it took me 3 months of
going regularly to start breaking down some of my barriers, but it
happened. i started releasing some of that darkness from within. i went
to sweats where for no apparent reason i just started crying. i cried
like a baby for a while, then doused myself with ice water (to bring me
back to this world). i had other sweats where i got angry at things,
laughed my fool head off, or wept for things that i didn't have (non-
existant family & friends / people that passed away / adoption remnants -
abandonment issues / abuses that happened as i was a child).
even amongst 15 others in the lodge, you're sitting alone in that
darkness whilst in the sweat lodge. it can really help.
there's more, but i won't go into it right now. contact me if you want,
my email is direct.
stevhan
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| User: "Loser" |
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| Title: Re: how many more mornings must i wake up |
20 Oct 2003 12:12:04 PM |
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thank you and i will try it - somehow just knowing there is someone in the
world who cares, did a lot for me, so thank you, you may have saved my life
today even though my life isnt worth a lot because i am such a worthless
person, but thank you so so much.
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| User: "Stevhan Hartwell" |
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| Title: Re: how many more mornings must i wake up |
20 Oct 2003 12:36:20 PM |
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"Loser" <nobody@nowhere.com> wrote in
news:vp85r44oj15i6a@corp.supernews.com:
thank you and i will try it - somehow just knowing there is someone in
the world who cares, did a lot for me, so thank you, you may have
saved my life today even though my life isnt worth a lot because i am
such a worthless person, but thank you so so much.
i've lived with depression since i was 5. i recognized it at that age,
though i didn't know the word depression. i've lived with suicide since i
was 9... that was the first time i put a gun in my mouth. but i knew it
wouldn't work. i was 9 and the only gun i had available for me was a pellet
gun. i knew it wouldn't do the job, i shot it off into the wall (a target
dart - sharp and dammaging but not deadly) and started crying.
stevhan
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| User: "Loser" |
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20 Oct 2003 02:24:10 PM |
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i was 14 when i lived on the 5th floor and wnated to jump out the window,
too bad i didnt, i would have saved the world a lot of greif. nobody wanted
me then and nobody wants me now and whenever i do die the world will probably
make a party and dance on my grave. no more horrible person that actualy
needs service sometimes when people overcharge her, ha, just take advnatage
of her, come to think of it then who would the world have to kick around
so maybe they will be sorry when i die.
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| User: "Stevhan Hartwell" |
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20 Oct 2003 03:11:44 PM |
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"Loser" <nobody@nowhere.com> wrote in
news:vp8diqg4au6k76@corp.supernews.com:
i was 14 when i lived on the 5th floor and wnated to jump out the
window, too bad i didnt, i would have saved the world a lot of greif.
nobody wanted me then and nobody wants me now and whenever i do die
the world will probably make a party and dance on my grave. no more
horrible person that actualy needs service sometimes when people
overcharge her, ha, just take advnatage of her, come to think of it
then who would the world have to kick around so maybe they will be
sorry when i die.
you'd be surprized by just how much a single life can effect another.
even when at some of my lowest ebbs i've pulled an ounce of strength from
somewhere to help another.
i was working at the sally ann a few years ago. i was extremely suicidal
at the time. a guy/patron/friend called and asked for me directly. i had
known him for 4 mos as a client and we had developed a friendship.
he called and was suicidal... i talked him down through a 45 min call. i
admit that i crashed myself immediately thereafter and also wound up in
the hospital, but not before getting him the help he needed too.
so even in those darkest of moments some good can come of it.
{{{gentle hug}}}
stevhan
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| User: "Whiskers" |
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| Title: Re: how many more mornings must i wake up |
20 Oct 2003 03:25:26 PM |
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In alt.support.depression on Monday 20 Oct 2003 4:20 pm, Loser
<nobody@nowhere.com> wrote:
i wake up every morning and wish i didnt.
snip
Welcome to ASD. You aren't alone.
--
-- ^^^^^^^^^^ Interested in Citroens?
-- Whiskers <http://www.aacit.net>
-- ~~~~~~~~~~ <news:alt.autos.citroen>
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| User: "Tracy Barber" |
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20 Oct 2003 04:26:39 PM |
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On Mon, 20 Oct 2003 15:20:39 -0000, "Loser" <nobody@nowhere.com>
wrote:
i wake up every morning and wish i didnt. today i call someone about a thing
i was charged twice for. they told me *i* was rude and hung up on me. this
is the way i always get treated. all i wanted was for them to give me a credit.
is that such a big deal. but no, nobody wants to help me. got no mother,
no father, no no one. i look at the death notices every day. when will i
be one of the lucky ones.
You found the luck of the draw to come here. Good choice. Stick
around for a while. You might like it. :^)
Tracy Barber
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| User: "Jamal Chapultapec" |
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20 Oct 2003 06:39:39 PM |
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(Tracy Barber) wrote in
news:3f94527e.29660857@news-server.nycap.rr.com:
On Mon, 20 Oct 2003 15:20:39 -0000, "Loser" <nobody@nowhere.com>
wrote:
i wake up every morning and wish i didnt. today i call someone about a
thing i was charged twice for. they told me *i* was rude and hung up
on me. this is the way i always get treated. all i wanted was for them
to give me a credit. is that such a big deal. but no, nobody wants to
help me. got no mother, no father, no no one. i look at the death
notices every day. when will i be one of the lucky ones.
You found the luck of the draw to come here. Good choice. Stick
around for a while. You might like it. :^)
I didn't.
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| User: "Tracy Barber" |
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20 Oct 2003 07:59:52 PM |
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On Mon, 20 Oct 2003 23:39:39 GMT, Jamal Chapultapec <your@email.com>
wrote:
Mohawky@adirondack-pc.com (Tracy Barber) wrote in
news:3f94527e.29660857@news-server.nycap.rr.com:
On Mon, 20 Oct 2003 15:20:39 -0000, "Loser" <nobody@nowhere.com>
wrote:
i wake up every morning and wish i didnt. today i call someone about a
thing i was charged twice for. they told me *i* was rude and hung up
on me. this is the way i always get treated. all i wanted was for them
to give me a credit. is that such a big deal. but no, nobody wants to
help me. got no mother, no father, no no one. i look at the death
notices every day. when will i be one of the lucky ones.
You found the luck of the draw to come here. Good choice. Stick
around for a while. You might like it. :^)
I didn't.
YMMV.
Tracy Barber
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| User: "Jamal Chapultapec" |
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21 Oct 2003 08:40:53 PM |
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(Tracy Barber) wrote in news:3f948493.42484444
@news-server.nycap.rr.com:
On Mon, 20 Oct 2003 23:39:39 GMT, Jamal Chapultapec <your@email.com>
wrote:
(Tracy Barber) wrote in
news:3f94527e.29660857@news-server.nycap.rr.com:
On Mon, 20 Oct 2003 15:20:39 -0000, "Loser" <nobody@nowhere.com>
wrote:
i wake up every morning and wish i didnt. today i call someone about a
thing i was charged twice for. they told me *i* was rude and hung up
on me. this is the way i always get treated. all i wanted was for them
to give me a credit. is that such a big deal. but no, nobody wants to
help me. got no mother, no father, no no one. i look at the death
notices every day. when will i be one of the lucky ones.
You found the luck of the draw to come here. Good choice. Stick
around for a while. You might like it. :^)
I didn't.
YMMV.
I want a guarantee.
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| User: "Tracy Barber" |
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21 Oct 2003 11:28:22 PM |
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On Wed, 22 Oct 2003 01:40:53 GMT, Jamal Chapultapec <your@email.com>
wrote:
Mohawky@adirondack-pc.com (Tracy Barber) wrote in news:3f948493.42484444
@news-server.nycap.rr.com:
On Mon, 20 Oct 2003 23:39:39 GMT, Jamal Chapultapec <your@email.com>
wrote:
Mohawky@adirondack-pc.com (Tracy Barber) wrote in
news:3f94527e.29660857@news-server.nycap.rr.com:
On Mon, 20 Oct 2003 15:20:39 -0000, "Loser" <nobody@nowhere.com>
wrote:
i wake up every morning and wish i didnt. today i call someone about a
thing i was charged twice for. they told me *i* was rude and hung up
on me. this is the way i always get treated. all i wanted was for them
to give me a credit. is that such a big deal. but no, nobody wants to
help me. got no mother, no father, no no one. i look at the death
notices every day. when will i be one of the lucky ones.
You found the luck of the draw to come here. Good choice. Stick
around for a while. You might like it. :^)
I didn't.
YMMV.
I want a guarantee.
YMMV. Deal with it.
Tracy Barber
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| User: "Jamal Chapultapec" |
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23 Oct 2003 07:08:17 AM |
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(Tracy Barber) wrote in
news:3f9606f0.141407673@news-server.nycap.rr.com:
On Wed, 22 Oct 2003 01:40:53 GMT, Jamal Chapultapec <your@email.com>
wrote:
(Tracy Barber) wrote in
news:3f948493.42484444 @news-server.nycap.rr.com:
On Mon, 20 Oct 2003 23:39:39 GMT, Jamal Chapultapec <your@email.com>
wrote:
(Tracy Barber) wrote in
news:3f94527e.29660857@news-server.nycap.rr.com:
On Mon, 20 Oct 2003 15:20:39 -0000, "Loser" <nobody@nowhere.com>
wrote:
i wake up every morning and wish i didnt. today i call someone
about a thing i was charged twice for. they told me *i* was rude
and hung up on me. this is the way i always get treated. all i
wanted was for them to give me a credit. is that such a big deal.
but no, nobody wants to help me. got no mother, no father, no no
one. i look at the death notices every day. when will i be one of
the lucky ones.
You found the luck of the draw to come here. Good choice. Stick
around for a while. You might like it. :^)
I didn't.
YMMV.
I want a guarantee.
YMMV. Deal with it.
Well that's a shitty policy. I wanna' talk to the manager.
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| User: "Tracy Barber" |
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23 Oct 2003 03:05:44 PM |
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On Thu, 23 Oct 2003 12:08:17 GMT, Jamal Chapultapec <your@email.com>
wrote:
Mohawky@adirondack-pc.com (Tracy Barber) wrote in
news:3f9606f0.141407673@news-server.nycap.rr.com:
On Wed, 22 Oct 2003 01:40:53 GMT, Jamal Chapultapec <your@email.com>
wrote:
Mohawky@adirondack-pc.com (Tracy Barber) wrote in
news:3f948493.42484444 @news-server.nycap.rr.com:
On Mon, 20 Oct 2003 23:39:39 GMT, Jamal Chapultapec <your@email.com>
wrote:
Mohawky@adirondack-pc.com (Tracy Barber) wrote in
news:3f94527e.29660857@news-server.nycap.rr.com:
On Mon, 20 Oct 2003 15:20:39 -0000, "Loser" <nobody@nowhere.com>
wrote:
i wake up every morning and wish i didnt. today i call someone
about a thing i was charged twice for. they told me *i* was rude
and hung up on me. this is the way i always get treated. all i
wanted was for them to give me a credit. is that such a big deal.
but no, nobody wants to help me. got no mother, no father, no no
one. i look at the death notices every day. when will i be one of
the lucky ones.
You found the luck of the draw to come here. Good choice. Stick
around for a while. You might like it. :^)
I didn't.
YMMV.
I want a guarantee.
YMMV. Deal with it.
Well that's a shitty policy. I wanna' talk to the manager.
You've already been given a refund, sir.
Tracy Barber
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| User: "Jamal Chapultapec" |
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23 Oct 2003 09:17:19 PM |
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(Tracy Barber) wrote in
news:3f98341e.102401664@news-server.nycap.rr.com:
On Thu, 23 Oct 2003 12:08:17 GMT, Jamal Chapultapec <your@email.com>
wrote:
(Tracy Barber) wrote in
news:3f9606f0.141407673@news-server.nycap.rr.com:
On Wed, 22 Oct 2003 01:40:53 GMT, Jamal Chapultapec <your@email.com>
wrote:
(Tracy Barber) wrote in
news:3f948493.42484444 @news-server.nycap.rr.com:
On Mon, 20 Oct 2003 23:39:39 GMT, Jamal Chapultapec
<your@email.com>
wrote:
(Tracy Barber) wrote in
news:3f94527e.29660857@news-server.nycap.rr.com:
On Mon, 20 Oct 2003 15:20:39 -0000, "Loser" <nobody@nowhere.com>
wrote:
i wake up every morning and wish i didnt. today i call someone
about a thing i was charged twice for. they told me *i* was rude
and hung up on me. this is the way i always get treated. all i
wanted was for them to give me a credit. is that such a big
deal.
but no, nobody wants to help me. got no mother, no father, no no
one. i look at the death notices every day. when will i be one
of
the lucky ones.
You found the luck of the draw to come here. Good choice.
Stick
around for a while. You might like it. :^)
I didn't.
YMMV.
I want a guarantee.
YMMV. Deal with it.
Well that's a shitty policy. I wanna' talk to the manager.
You've already been given a refund, sir.
Well I wanna' get back more than I paid. Don't you guys have one of them
110% price match guarantee things?
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| User: "Tracy Barber" |
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23 Oct 2003 11:55:10 PM |
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On Fri, 24 Oct 2003 02:17:19 GMT, Jamal Chapultapec <your@email.com>
wrote:
Mohawky@adirondack-pc.com (Tracy Barber) wrote in
news:3f98341e.102401664@news-server.nycap.rr.com:
On Thu, 23 Oct 2003 12:08:17 GMT, Jamal Chapultapec <your@email.com>
wrote:
Mohawky@adirondack-pc.com (Tracy Barber) wrote in
news:3f9606f0.141407673@news-server.nycap.rr.com:
On Wed, 22 Oct 2003 01:40:53 GMT, Jamal Chapultapec <your@email.com>
wrote:
Mohawky@adirondack-pc.com (Tracy Barber) wrote in
news:3f948493.42484444 @news-server.nycap.rr.com:
On Mon, 20 Oct 2003 23:39:39 GMT, Jamal Chapultapec
<your@email.com>
wrote:
Mohawky@adirondack-pc.com (Tracy Barber) wrote in
news:3f94527e.29660857@news-server.nycap.rr.com:
On Mon, 20 Oct 2003 15:20:39 -0000, "Loser" <nobody@nowhere.com>
wrote:
i wake up every morning and wish i didnt. today i call someone
about a thing i was charged twice for. they told me *i* was rude
and hung up on me. this is the way i always get treated. all i
wanted was for them to give me a credit. is that such a big
deal.
but no, nobody wants to help me. got no mother, no father, no no
one. i look at the death notices every day. when will i be one
of
the lucky ones.
You found the luck of the draw to come here. Good choice.
Stick
around for a while. You might like it. :^)
I didn't.
YMMV.
I want a guarantee.
YMMV. Deal with it.
Well that's a shitty policy. I wanna' talk to the manager.
You've already been given a refund, sir.
Well I wanna' get back more than I paid. Don't you guys have one of them
110% price match guarantee things?
Nahhhh... you'll then want 120%.
Tracy Barber
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