In message <q9dog2lcuuj24c6ntcu6g034emtm74vu8t@4ax.com>, elegy
<elegy@shatteringDOGPOOP.org> writes

long ago and far away, Alan Harding <Alan@harding.demon.co.uk> did
say:

In message <amsmg2tu7fd9fuebuplgf7t5i93jcgg96g@4ax.com>, elegy
<elegy@shatteringDOGPOOP.org> writes

long ago and far away, "justabeing" <just.a.being@gmail.com> did say:

"elegy" <elegy@shatteringDOGPOOP.org> wrote in message
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from the entire world.

i just don't think the way everybody around me does. i don't feel the
way everybody around me does. i vehemently disagree with things that
everybody around me agrees with.

i just don't have the backbone that i really need.

i wish i were a different person.

don't feel like that
you are who you are because you're you
and the world needs you because you're you
thank God you ARE you!!!

i just feel so... defective.

If we weren't defective, we'd all be perfect. Imagine how boring that
would be.

sometimes i think i could deal quite well with being boring.

Well, I'm glad to say you aren't.

justabeing wrote:

"Brianversion" <brianguitar@gmail.com> wrote in message
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elegy wrote:

long ago and far away, "used2be" <used2be@nowhere.com> did say:

"elegy" <elegy@shatteringDOGPOOP.org> wrote in message
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day when we were talking to Nick.

elegy wrote:

long ago and far away, "Brianversion" <brianguitar@gmail.com> did say:

"i wish i were a different person."

No, don't wish that. Everybody has a purpose. For instance, everybody
here is unique, and when they line up to support you/me, there is a
strength in each individual response that only that person can
bring...if that makes any sense. We could have used your animal
expertise around here this past month. My sister bought a Golder
Retriever that turned out to be vicious. They tried many ways to
incorporate the dog into the family. but she nearly bit my sisters
upper female anatomy off this week. So the vet (that makes
housecalls!) finally took the 'puppy' ( 6 month old)and gave it to her
assistant, who feels she can deal with the dog. In my own case, I have
a 16 year old cat who was diagnosed with a cancer this week. She has a
bad open lesion on her underside. I've begun taking her up to my bed,
keeping her warm, hugging her gently (She was always a biter and
scratcher....now she gives me a little nip, but I just whisper 'don't
bite' and she allows me to continue to pet her.) Poor Dolly. But I
don't want to have her put asleep (she doesn't seem to be in pain.)
Anyway, I said all that in this response to you, because you are a
known animal lover. If you became a different person, I wouldn't be
sure that sharing those stories would matter as much.( which is not to
say there aren't other animal lovers here, but you are the top on that
list as far as I can tell.) You have been consistent since 1999 when I
first began to know a bit about who you are and what you do. You're
very special. Being special comes with a lot of pain. Feel better
soon, elegy.
Brian

i'm so sorry about your cat, brian. cancer is a huge fear of mine. the
one vet i work for has a special interest in oncology, so a number of
local vets refer their clients to us for chemo. it's hard, because we
see these animals so often, and we can usually buy them time- even a
year or more- but it's never a happy ending.

sigh.

Thanks elegy. She's sleeping at my feet, follows me room to room at
night now, like she's scared to be alone. And that's OK. She licks at
the lesion (it's mammary, possibly effecting lungs too) and I hope it
doesn't hurt. I've been offered the chemo, but I just don't want her
to go through that, not that I've ever seen an animal have chemo, but
just the idea of her getting worse so she can have an extra year, I
can't do it. I don't want them to put one of those hoods on so she
can't lick herself...The vet said she could make her more comfortable,
and I am gonna call her back and find out what that means. I was not
in a good decision making mode when she called with the news this
week.// She looks comfortable, she meows me, she's always trying to
tell me something...like "I want a slice of American cheese, and I want
you to hover over me as I eat it so the other cats won't bug me". I
have a lot of time for Dolly now.

--
"i wore my doormat face" - rem
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elegy wrote:

long ago and far away, "Brianversion" <brianguitar@gmail.com> did say:

"i wish i were a different person."

No, don't wish that. Everybody has a purpose. For instance, everybody
here is unique, and when they line up to support you/me, there is a
strength in each individual response that only that person can
bring...if that makes any sense. We could have used your animal
expertise around here this past month. My sister bought a Golder
Retriever that turned out to be vicious. They tried many ways to
incorporate the dog into the family. but she nearly bit my sisters
upper female anatomy off this week. So the vet (that makes
housecalls!) finally took the 'puppy' ( 6 month old)and gave it to her
assistant, who feels she can deal with the dog. In my own case, I have
a 16 year old cat who was diagnosed with a cancer this week. She has a
bad open lesion on her underside. I've begun taking her up to my bed,
keeping her warm, hugging her gently (She was always a biter and
scratcher....now she gives me a little nip, but I just whisper 'don't
bite' and she allows me to continue to pet her.) Poor Dolly. But I
don't want to have her put asleep (she doesn't seem to be in pain.)
Anyway, I said all that in this response to you, because you are a
known animal lover. If you became a different person, I wouldn't be
sure that sharing those stories would matter as much.( which is not to
say there aren't other animal lovers here, but you are the top on that
list as far as I can tell.) You have been consistent since 1999 when I
first began to know a bit about who you are and what you do. You're
very special. Being special comes with a lot of pain. Feel better
soon, elegy.
Brian

i'm so sorry about your cat, brian. cancer is a huge fear of mine. the
one vet i work for has a special interest in oncology, so a number of
local vets refer their clients to us for chemo. it's hard, because we
see these animals so often, and we can usually buy them time- even a
year or more- but it's never a happy ending.

sigh.

Thanks elegy. She's sleeping at my feet, follows me room to room at
night now, like she's scared to be alone. And that's OK. She licks at
the lesion (it's mammary, possibly effecting lungs too) and I hope it
doesn't hurt. I've been offered the chemo, but I just don't want her
to go through that, not that I've ever seen an animal have chemo, but
just the idea of her getting worse so she can have an extra year, I
can't do it. I don't want them to put one of those hoods on so she
can't lick herself...The vet said she could make her more comfortable,
and I am gonna call her back and find out what that means. I was not
in a good decision making mode when she called with the news this
week.// She looks comfortable, she meows me, she's always trying to
tell me something...like "I want a slice of American cheese, and I want
you to hover over me as I eat it so the other cats won't bug me". I
have a lot of time for Dolly now.