"BoredToTears" <beejayce...@yahoo.co.uk> wrote in message

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and I don't know why. There are people here I should reply to but
can't think what to say and some of the things that people have said I
don't feel worthy of. I don't cry, cos I can't; tears are very hard to
come by but sometimes I wish I could be a big greetin face and one of
those times is now.

Sometimes people sneak up on you. Sometimes they love you when you're not
quite prepared for it. When you're already living with a broken heart,
sometimes a little of that gets under the defenses and it all starts to get
a little overwhelming.

The good part is, you don't have to say anything. People understand it gets
like that. Feelings are good for a lot of things, but they are unreliable
barometers of how worthy you are -- you can't trust them; they are just
*notoriously* unreliable for that.

Sometimes the heart breaks and it leaves you without words or tears. But
not without friends.

Time to go to bed.

Thank god for sleep, when it comes.

"BoredToTears" <beejayce...@yahoo.co.uk> wrote in message

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and I don't know why. There are people here I should reply to but
can't think what to say and some of the things that people have said I
don't feel worthy of. I don't cry, cos I can't; tears are very hard to
come by but sometimes I wish I could be a big greetin face and one of
those times is now.

Time to go to bed.

Oh hell you reply when you can. I would think everyone understands that. I
don't know if this is how it works for you, but for me I usually always have
a very sudden low period after a slight high period. I find that on days
when I set goals, get excited about something, talk myself into something
with "you can do this" and "you're strong enough", see opportunities, set
foot on a new path so to speak, it is often followed by a big dip. The
emotional equivalent of the "other shoe dropping". I wake up feeling
insecure, scared, disoriented, sad, and the old tapes start playing, "what
were you thinking? "you can't do this" and "you're kidding yourself if you
think you can change" and so on. The "go out there and take the world by
the horns" is *ME* talking. The next day voice is my *illness* talking and
those are the days when I have to turn the volume up full blast on the me
voice. I have to shout down the insecurities because the truth is I KNOW I
can do these things if I just believe in myself and don't listen to my
illness. It takes a lot of self talk and grounding and endurance, but I
almost always win and the more I do it the easier it gets. You remember the
part of you that "I'll be buggered backwards if I let him win" that you
mentioned yesterday? This might be that opportunity to start kicking his
*****. :-)

--
Rhi

BoredToTears wrote...

and I don't know why. There are people here I should reply
to but can't think what to say and some of the things that
people have said I don't feel worthy of. I don't cry, cos I
can't; tears are very hard to come by but sometimes I wish
I could be a big greetin face and one of those times is
now.

Time to go to bed.

Good night. Maybe tomorrow will be better. I hope so.

-lisa

BoredToTears wrote...

and I don't know why. There are people here I should reply
to but can't think what to say and some of the things that
people have said I don't feel worthy of. I don't cry, cos I
can't; tears are very hard to come by but sometimes I wish
I could be a big greetin face and one of those times is
now.

Time to go to bed.

Good night. Maybe tomorrow will be better. I hope so.

-lisa

On Nov 14, 10:05 pm, BoredToTears <beejayce...@yahoo.co.uk> wrote:

and I don't know why. There are people here I should reply to but
can't think what to say and some of the things that people have said I
don't feel worthy of. I don't cry, cos I can't; tears are very hard to
come by but sometimes I wish I could be a big greetin face and one of
those times is now.

Time to go to bed.

There are times I feel like this too and can't cry but I find ways
to. I know that sounds weird but I'll play the most depressing music
I can find, and think abou things that make me cry, sometimes I'll
accomplish the great big sobs I'm needed, once I'm all cried out, I do
feel better.

Hope you feel better soon hun

Jane

On Nov 14, 7:05 pm, BoredToTears <beejayce...@yahoo.co.uk> wrote:

and I don't know why. There are people here I should reply to but
can't think what to say and some of the things that people have said

don't feel worthy of. I don't cry, cos I can't; tears are very hard

come by but sometimes I wish I could be a big greetin face and one

those times is now.

Time to go to bed.

:-( Hang in there BTT. You are worthy of good things...as for
replying, as I've been told so many times, don't worry. Post what you
can when you can. Take care.....

((((((Bored)))))))

~Rose

and I don't know why. There are people here I should reply to but
can't think what to say

Post what you can when you can. Take care.....

On Nov 14, 7:05 pm, BoredToTears <beejayce...@yahoo.co.uk> wrote:

and I don't know why. There are people here I should reply to but
can't think what to say and some of the things that people have said I
don't feel worthy of. I don't cry, cos I can't; tears are very hard to
come by but sometimes I wish I could be a big greetin face and one of
those times is now.

Time to go to bed.

:-( Hang in there BTT. You are worthy of good things...as for
replying, as I've been told so many times, don't worry. Post what you
can when you can. Take care.....

((((((Bored)))))))

~Rose

On Wed, 14 Nov 2007 19:05:10 -0800 (PST), BoredToTears

<beejayce...@yahoo.co.uk> wrote:

and I don't know why. There are people here I should reply to but
can't think what to say and some of the things that people have said I
don't feel worthy of. I don't cry, cos I can't; tears are very hard to
come by but sometimes I wish I could be a big greetin face and one of
those times is now.

Time to go to bed.

I can relate to this, just feeling very sad with no specific reason.
And for me sometimes it comes on so quickly it's overwhelming. I hope
you feel better soon. Jeanne

On Wed, 14 Nov 2007 19:05:10 -0800 (PST), BoredToTears

<beejayce...@yahoo.co.uk> wrote:

and I don't know why. There are people here I should reply to but
can't think what to say and some of the things that people have said I
don't feel worthy of. I don't cry, cos I can't; tears are very hard to
come by but sometimes I wish I could be a big greetin face and one of
those times is now.

Time to go to bed.

this place can get to you, those of us losing daylight in north
america doesn't help.

i know bruno's story has me down in addition to my own problems, and
your story of your dopey therp... it all adds up.

the old mantra works... do what you can, take what you want/need,
for/from the group.

you have a good heart.
TT
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Moving Beyond the Binary Gender Option