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"lisa in mass." |
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19 May 2004 06:24:32 PM |
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i have to post this |
my therp reiterated today that he wants me to post everyday to
'stay connected'. i don't want to be connected right now. i want
nothing right now.
stay in bed dissociated as much as i can, have to get up for
appts and such. i should be doing dishes and laundry, but i'm
only doing the minimum, leave the rest for joe and the kids.
joe's taking complete care of the kids. they visit me while they
eat their dessert before bed. i did buy some cool legos last
weekend, so there's something neat to do in mom's room when they
want.
i don't don't know how to break out of this. my therp said to
know that's it's nothing i'm doing, that it's brain chemistry,
that it will end when it ends. just seems to be forever.
not going to make anything happen, just waiting for something to
fall out of the sky and squash me. or some other bizarre
occurrence completely out of my control. i just want this all to
end.
-lisa
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19 May 2004 07:15:55 PM |
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"lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
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my therp reiterated today that he wants me to post everyday to
'stay connected'. i don't want to be connected right now. i want
nothing right now.
stay in bed dissociated as much as i can, have to get up for
appts and such. i should be doing dishes and laundry, but i'm
only doing the minimum, leave the rest for joe and the kids.
joe's taking complete care of the kids. they visit me while they
eat their dessert before bed. i did buy some cool legos last
weekend, so there's something neat to do in mom's room when they
want.
i don't don't know how to break out of this. my therp said to
know that's it's nothing i'm doing, that it's brain chemistry,
that it will end when it ends. just seems to be forever.
not going to make anything happen, just waiting for something to
fall out of the sky and squash me. or some other bizarre
occurrence completely out of my control. i just want this all to
end.
-lisa
no shrink in the world would tell a client to post ,
if they did they would have to pay the isp bill ,
and now with the threat of internet addiction ,
shrinks are counselling people on how to avoid the internet
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19 May 2004 07:28:00 PM |
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% wrote...
"lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
news:Xns94EEC530F604Fmccatsjavanetcom@199.184.165.239...
my therp reiterated today that he wants me to post
everyday to 'stay connected'. i don't want to be connected
right now. i want nothing right now.
stay in bed dissociated as much as i can, have to get up
for appts and such. i should be doing dishes and laundry,
but i'm only doing the minimum, leave the rest for joe and
the kids. joe's taking complete care of the kids. they
visit me while they eat their dessert before bed. i did
buy some cool legos last weekend, so there's something
neat to do in mom's room when they want.
i don't don't know how to break out of this. my therp said
to know that's it's nothing i'm doing, that it's brain
chemistry, that it will end when it ends. just seems to be
forever.
not going to make anything happen, just waiting for
something to fall out of the sky and squash me. or some
other bizarre occurrence completely out of my control. i
just want this all to end.
-lisa
no shrink in the world would tell a client to post ,
if they did they would have to pay the isp bill ,
and now with the threat of internet addiction ,
shrinks are counselling people on how to avoid the internet
i told him you wouldn't believe me. he said you should email
him but, of course, didn't give me the address.
right now, this is most of my human contact during a time when
i just want to hole up. he thinks this is much better than no
contact, and it's good to have someplace to come 24/7.
-lisa
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| User: "wombn" |
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19 May 2004 09:08:02 PM |
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On 20 May 2004 00:28:00 GMT, "lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
i told him you wouldn't believe me. he said you should email
him but, of course, didn't give me the address.
right now, this is most of my human contact during a time when
i just want to hole up. he thinks this is much better than no
contact, and it's good to have someplace to come 24/7.
my therp (the beloved Shirley) was supportive of my posting to asd
also. She understood. And yours apparently does, too.
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If laughter is the best medicine,
then kittens should be covered by our health insurance. :-)
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| User: "used2be" |
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20 May 2004 09:18:42 PM |
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"lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
news:Xns94EEC530F604Fmccatsjavanetcom@199.184.165.239...
my therp reiterated today that he wants me to post everyday to
'stay connected'. i don't want to be connected right now. i want
nothing right now.
i know, but sometimes you have to force yourself to keep on going because
you just simply have to. basically, you simply have no other choice.
stay in bed dissociated as much as i can, have to get up for
appts and such. i should be doing dishes and laundry, but i'm
only doing the minimum, leave the rest for joe and the kids.
joe's taking complete care of the kids. they visit me while they
eat their dessert before bed. i did buy some cool legos last
weekend, so there's something neat to do in mom's room when they
want.
this is where my extreme maternal guilt kicks in. i can't let my husband
and kids down. i have to be doing for them or else the guilt sends me over
the edge. i can't allow myself to rest until my "responsibilities" are
done. of course, there have been times when i've been unable to tend to the
house or kids, so i do understand what you are saying here and i feel for
you. if only there was a happy medium where we could rest some when
depressed, and also work some as well.
i don't don't know how to break out of this. my therp said to
know that's it's nothing i'm doing, that it's brain chemistry,
that it will end when it ends. just seems to be forever.
it's a lifetime battle, that's for sure. just keep hanging on for the
"good" days. they will come again. we have to hold on to that belief. i
had one today, and oh god, did i appreciate it.
not going to make anything happen, just waiting for something to
fall out of the sky and squash me. or some other bizarre
occurrence completely out of my control. i just want this all to
end.
i do so totally understand that one. just wishing the pain would end.
i hope that it does end soon, lisa.
hugs,
u2b
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| User: "lisa in mass." |
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21 May 2004 01:13:03 PM |
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used2be wrote...
"lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
news:Xns94EEC530F604Fmccatsjavanetcom@199.184.165.239...
my therp reiterated today that he wants me to post
everyday to 'stay connected'. i don't want to be connected
right now. i want nothing right now.
i know, but sometimes you have to force yourself to keep on
going because you just simply have to. basically, you
simply have no other choice.
i know. i've been working harder and better for the past
couple of days.
stay in bed dissociated as much as i can, have to get up
for appts and such. i should be doing dishes and laundry,
but i'm only doing the minimum, leave the rest for joe and
the kids. joe's taking complete care of the kids. they
visit me while they eat their dessert before bed. i did
buy some cool legos last weekend, so there's something
neat to do in mom's room when they want.
this is where my extreme maternal guilt kicks in. i can't
let my husband and kids down. i have to be doing for them
or else the guilt sends me over the edge. i can't allow
myself to rest until my "responsibilities" are done. of
course, there have been times when i've been unable to tend
to the house or kids, so i do understand what you are
saying here and i feel for you. if only there was a happy
medium where we could rest some when depressed, and also
work some as well.
i am getting better at it. yesterday i did all the kid stuff,
made more difficult because daniel had a dress rehearsal to go
to. joe spent the whole afternoon and evening working on his
car. i even did 2 loads of laundry in between because we were
getting to be short on clean clothes.
i don't don't know how to break out of this. my therp said
to know that's it's nothing i'm doing, that it's brain
chemistry, that it will end when it ends. just seems to be
forever.
it's a lifetime battle, that's for sure. just keep hanging
on for the "good" days. they will come again. we have to
hold on to that belief. i had one today, and oh god, did i
appreciate it.
i am so glad to hear that. i'd been very worried about you and
how you've been doing.
not going to make anything happen, just waiting for
something to fall out of the sky and squash me. or some
other bizarre occurrence completely out of my control. i
just want this all to end.
i do so totally understand that one. just wishing the pain
would end.
i hope that it does end soon, lisa.
thanks. i see all my docs next week. i hope they work
something out between them.
-lisa
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| User: "Buster Crowley" |
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21 May 2004 03:21:14 AM |
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used2be wrote:
"lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
news:Xns94EEC530F604Fmccatsjavanetcom@199.184.165.239...
my therp reiterated today that he wants me to post everyday to
'stay connected'. i don't want to be connected right now. i want
nothing right now.
i know, but sometimes you have to force yourself to keep on going
because
you just simply have to. basically, you simply have no other choice.
stay in bed dissociated as much as i can, have to get up for
appts and such. i should be doing dishes and laundry, but i'm
only doing the minimum, leave the rest for joe and the kids.
joe's taking complete care of the kids. they visit me while they
eat their dessert before bed. i did buy some cool legos last
weekend, so there's something neat to do in mom's room when they
want.
this is where my extreme maternal guilt kicks in. i can't let my
husband
and kids down. i have to be doing for them or else the guilt sends
me over
the edge. i can't allow myself to rest until my "responsibilities"
are
done. of course, there have been times when i've been unable to
tend to the
house or kids, so i do understand what you are saying here and i
feel for
you. if only there was a happy medium where we could rest some when
depressed, and also work some as well.
i don't don't know how to break out of this. my therp said to
know that's it's nothing i'm doing, that it's brain chemistry,
that it will end when it ends. just seems to be forever.
it's a lifetime battle, that's for sure. just keep hanging on for
the
"good" days. they will come again. we have to hold on to that
belief. i
had one today, and oh god, did i appreciate it.
not going to make anything happen, just waiting for something to
fall out of the sky and squash me. or some other bizarre
occurrence completely out of my control. i just want this all to
end.
i do so totally understand that one. just wishing the pain would
end.
i hope that it does end soon, lisa.
hugs,
u2b
It's good to see you have your fight back in you. :-D
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| User: "Lisa" |
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19 May 2004 08:14:23 PM |
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Damn, Lisa.
what kind of help is "it will end when it ends"?! That's a ***** answer.
Okay, rationally, it's probably valid, but it's no comfort. Is there any
sunshine at all in Mass this time of year? I know the "I want to sit in my
bed and see no one" feelings, but at least try to sit and feel like crap
outside if you can.
Listen to some music that's not depressing. I personally need to listen to
Phish when I'm like that. It's hard to feel bad when listening to them.
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| User: "lisa in mass." |
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19 May 2004 10:18:50 PM |
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Lisa wrote...
Damn, Lisa.
what kind of help is "it will end when it ends"?! That's a
***** answer. Okay, rationally, it's probably valid, but
it's no comfort.
i've been through the ups and downs before. this will last
between a few weeks and 9 months.
Is there any sunshine at all in Mass this
time of year? I know the "I want to sit in my bed and see
no one" feelings, but at least try to sit and feel like
crap outside if you can.
when the weather's good, i make myself sit on the front steps
or walk through the yard once a day. i've also got appts to
keep me busier than i want to be.
Listen to some music that's not depressing. I personally
need to listen to Phish when I'm like that. It's hard to
feel bad when listening to them.
i've at least been avoiding the really depressive music. no
nin now, just supports my mood. i've only been listening to
music in the car, though. i don't have the energy to set up
the stereo system that works with my current computer.
-lisa
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| User: "Robert Neville" |
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20 May 2004 06:05:04 AM |
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On Wed, 19 May 2004 21:14:23 -0400, "Lisa" <none@invalid.org> wrote:
Damn, Lisa.
what kind of help is "it will end when it ends"?! That's a ***** answer.
Okay, rationally, it's probably valid, but it's no comfort. Is there any
sunshine at all in Mass this time of year? I know the "I want to sit in my
bed and see no one" feelings, but at least try to sit and feel like crap
outside if you can.
Listen to some music that's not depressing. I personally need to listen to
Phish when I'm like that. It's hard to feel bad when listening to them.
are you talking to yourself again? ;-)
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| User: "Doodigoogi" |
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20 May 2004 09:19:23 AM |
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I feel for you.
You are not alone - many of us are going through this. Your therapist
is right, it will pass.
I'm new to the forum, so forgive me is I'm bringing up something you
have hashed over many times before, but are you taking any
anti-depressive meds?
They can be wonderfully effective as compliment to therapy.
"lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message news:<Xns94EEC530F604Fmccatsjavanetcom@199.184.165.239>...
my therp reiterated today that he wants me to post everyday to
'stay connected'. i don't want to be connected right now. i want
nothing right now.
stay in bed dissociated as much as i can, have to get up for
appts and such. i should be doing dishes and laundry, but i'm
only doing the minimum, leave the rest for joe and the kids.
joe's taking complete care of the kids. they visit me while they
eat their dessert before bed. i did buy some cool legos last
weekend, so there's something neat to do in mom's room when they
want.
i don't don't know how to break out of this. my therp said to
know that's it's nothing i'm doing, that it's brain chemistry,
that it will end when it ends. just seems to be forever.
not going to make anything happen, just waiting for something to
fall out of the sky and squash me. or some other bizarre
occurrence completely out of my control. i just want this all to
end.
-lisa
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| User: "lisa in mass." |
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20 May 2004 01:26:22 PM |
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Doodigoogi wrote...
I feel for you.
You are not alone - many of us are going through this.
Your therapist is right, it will pass.
I'm new to the forum, so forgive me is I'm bringing up
something you have hashed over many times before, but are
you taking any anti-depressive meds?
They can be wonderfully effective as compliment to therapy.
antidepressant, mood stabiliser, antipsychotic. i've been
through evey antidepressant now, including currently on an maoi.
even had maintenance ect a few years back. right now, nothing's
keeping me afloat, though i shudder to think how bad this might
be without the meds.
thanks for the support.
-lisa
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| User: "styxx374" |
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19 May 2004 06:24:29 PM |
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I know how you feel. All you can do is wait it out and know that it will get
better.
Please hang in there...
Jen in PA
"lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
news:Xns94EEC530F604Fmccatsjavanetcom@199.184.165.239...
my therp reiterated today that he wants me to post everyday to
'stay connected'. i don't want to be connected right now. i want
nothing right now.
stay in bed dissociated as much as i can, have to get up for
appts and such. i should be doing dishes and laundry, but i'm
only doing the minimum, leave the rest for joe and the kids.
joe's taking complete care of the kids. they visit me while they
eat their dessert before bed. i did buy some cool legos last
weekend, so there's something neat to do in mom's room when they
want.
i don't don't know how to break out of this. my therp said to
know that's it's nothing i'm doing, that it's brain chemistry,
that it will end when it ends. just seems to be forever.
not going to make anything happen, just waiting for something to
fall out of the sky and squash me. or some other bizarre
occurrence completely out of my control. i just want this all to
end.
-lisa
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| User: "lisa in mass." |
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19 May 2004 06:43:44 PM |
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styxx374 wrote...
I know how you feel. All you can do is wait it out and know
that it will get better.
Please hang in there...
Jen in PA
thanks.
-lisa
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| User: "Robert Neville" |
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20 May 2004 06:10:38 AM |
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On 19 May 2004 23:24:32 GMT, "lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
my therp reiterated today that he wants me to post everyday to
'stay connected'. i don't want to be connected right now. i want
nothing right now.
stay in bed dissociated as much as i can, have to get up for
appts and such. i should be doing dishes and laundry, but i'm
only doing the minimum, leave the rest for joe and the kids.
joe's taking complete care of the kids. they visit me while they
eat their dessert before bed. i did buy some cool legos last
weekend, so there's something neat to do in mom's room when they
want.
i don't don't know how to break out of this. my therp said to
know that's it's nothing i'm doing, that it's brain chemistry,
that it will end when it ends. just seems to be forever.
not going to make anything happen, just waiting for something to
fall out of the sky and squash me. or some other bizarre
occurrence completely out of my control. i just want this all to
end.
-lisa
"it's nothing you're doing and that it's brain chemistry"? you know
sometimes you have to fight and push yourself to fight depression, the
meds and your therapist can't do all the work for you.
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20 May 2004 01:22:27 PM |
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Robert Neville wrote...
On 19 May 2004 23:24:32 GMT, "lisa in mass."
<mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
my therp reiterated today that he wants me to post everyday
to 'stay connected'. i don't want to be connected right
now. i want nothing right now.
stay in bed dissociated as much as i can, have to get up
for appts and such. i should be doing dishes and laundry,
but i'm only doing the minimum, leave the rest for joe and
the kids. joe's taking complete care of the kids. they
visit me while they eat their dessert before bed. i did buy
some cool legos last weekend, so there's something neat to
do in mom's room when they want.
i don't don't know how to break out of this. my therp said
to know that's it's nothing i'm doing, that it's brain
chemistry, that it will end when it ends. just seems to be
forever.
not going to make anything happen, just waiting for
something to fall out of the sky and squash me. or some
other bizarre occurrence completely out of my control. i
just want this all to end.
-lisa
"it's nothing you're doing and that it's brain chemistry"?
you know sometimes you have to fight and push yourself to
fight depression, the meds and your therapist can't do all
the work for you.
i do what i can. get the necessaries done, make myself at
least go outside once a day. try to keep from slipping any
deeper. sometimes i just can't do anything about it, though,
and the bottom completely falls out.
i haven't been in the hospital for almost a year, and that was
for a med change. considering how i was even a few years ago,
that's a vast improvement. therp says i'm working as hard as
he's seen anyone work, it just isn't always enough.
-lisa
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20 May 2004 05:58:25 PM |
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On 20 May 2004 18:22:27 GMT, "lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
Robert Neville wrote...
On 19 May 2004 23:24:32 GMT, "lisa in mass."
<mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
my therp reiterated today that he wants me to post everyday
to 'stay connected'. i don't want to be connected right
now. i want nothing right now.
stay in bed dissociated as much as i can, have to get up
for appts and such. i should be doing dishes and laundry,
but i'm only doing the minimum, leave the rest for joe and
the kids. joe's taking complete care of the kids. they
visit me while they eat their dessert before bed. i did buy
some cool legos last weekend, so there's something neat to
do in mom's room when they want.
i don't don't know how to break out of this. my therp said
to know that's it's nothing i'm doing, that it's brain
chemistry, that it will end when it ends. just seems to be
forever.
not going to make anything happen, just waiting for
something to fall out of the sky and squash me. or some
other bizarre occurrence completely out of my control. i
just want this all to end.
-lisa
"it's nothing you're doing and that it's brain chemistry"?
you know sometimes you have to fight and push yourself to
fight depression, the meds and your therapist can't do all
the work for you.
i do what i can. get the necessaries done, make myself at
least go outside once a day. try to keep from slipping any
deeper. sometimes i just can't do anything about it, though,
and the bottom completely falls out.
i haven't been in the hospital for almost a year, and that was
for a med change. considering how i was even a few years ago,
that's a vast improvement. therp says i'm working as hard as
he's seen anyone work, it just isn't always enough.
-lisa
what anti depressants are you on and do you suffer from situational
depression, ptsd, bi-polar and are you in therapy?
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21 May 2004 01:05:29 PM |
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Robert Neville wrote...
On 20 May 2004 18:22:27 GMT, "lisa in mass."
<mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
Robert Neville wrote...
On 19 May 2004 23:24:32 GMT, "lisa in mass."
<mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
my therp reiterated today that he wants me to post
everyday to 'stay connected'. i don't want to be
connected right now. i want nothing right now.
stay in bed dissociated as much as i can, have to get up
for appts and such. i should be doing dishes and laundry,
but i'm only doing the minimum, leave the rest for joe
and the kids. joe's taking complete care of the kids.
they visit me while they eat their dessert before bed. i
did buy some cool legos last weekend, so there's
something neat to do in mom's room when they want.
i don't don't know how to break out of this. my therp
said to know that's it's nothing i'm doing, that it's
brain chemistry, that it will end when it ends. just
seems to be forever.
not going to make anything happen, just waiting for
something to fall out of the sky and squash me. or some
other bizarre occurrence completely out of my control. i
just want this all to end.
-lisa
"it's nothing you're doing and that it's brain
chemistry"? you know sometimes you have to fight and push
yourself to fight depression, the meds and your therapist
can't do all the work for you.
i do what i can. get the necessaries done, make myself at
least go outside once a day. try to keep from slipping any
deeper. sometimes i just can't do anything about it,
though, and the bottom completely falls out.
i haven't been in the hospital for almost a year, and that
was for a med change. considering how i was even a few
years ago, that's a vast improvement. therp says i'm
working as hard as he's seen anyone work, it just isn't
always enough.
-lisa
what anti depressants are you on and do you suffer from
situational depression, ptsd, bi-polar and are you in
therapy?
i'm taking parnate (an maoi), lamictal as a mood stabiliser,
and abilify, an antipsychotic. my depression was chemically
caused. during high dose, long-term prednisone treatment i
became very severely depressed with psychotic features. that
was 6 years ago and it never went away. i've been told that
sometimes it's permanent.
i've been in therapy (cognitive behavioral) ever since.
without the skills i learned when i was in dbt (dialectal
behavior therapy), i would undoubtedly be dead. i've been
fighting suicidal urges daily for the past six years. it's
just been a particularly hard crash for the few weeks.
-lisa
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21 May 2004 02:19:22 PM |
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On 21 May 2004 18:05:29 GMT, "lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
Robert Neville wrote...
On 20 May 2004 18:22:27 GMT, "lisa in mass."
<mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
Robert Neville wrote...
On 19 May 2004 23:24:32 GMT, "lisa in mass."
<mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
my therp reiterated today that he wants me to post
everyday to 'stay connected'. i don't want to be
connected right now. i want nothing right now.
stay in bed dissociated as much as i can, have to get up
for appts and such. i should be doing dishes and laundry,
but i'm only doing the minimum, leave the rest for joe
and the kids. joe's taking complete care of the kids.
they visit me while they eat their dessert before bed. i
did buy some cool legos last weekend, so there's
something neat to do in mom's room when they want.
i don't don't know how to break out of this. my therp
said to know that's it's nothing i'm doing, that it's
brain chemistry, that it will end when it ends. just
seems to be forever.
not going to make anything happen, just waiting for
something to fall out of the sky and squash me. or some
other bizarre occurrence completely out of my control. i
just want this all to end.
-lisa
"it's nothing you're doing and that it's brain
chemistry"? you know sometimes you have to fight and push
yourself to fight depression, the meds and your therapist
can't do all the work for you.
i do what i can. get the necessaries done, make myself at
least go outside once a day. try to keep from slipping any
deeper. sometimes i just can't do anything about it,
though, and the bottom completely falls out.
i haven't been in the hospital for almost a year, and that
was for a med change. considering how i was even a few
years ago, that's a vast improvement. therp says i'm
working as hard as he's seen anyone work, it just isn't
always enough.
-lisa
what anti depressants are you on and do you suffer from
situational depression, ptsd, bi-polar and are you in
therapy?
i'm taking parnate (an maoi), lamictal as a mood stabiliser,
and abilify, an antipsychotic. my depression was chemically
caused. during high dose, long-term prednisone treatment i
became very severely depressed with psychotic features. that
was 6 years ago and it never went away. i've been told that
sometimes it's permanent.
i've been in therapy (cognitive behavioral) ever since.
without the skills i learned when i was in dbt (dialectal
behavior therapy), i would undoubtedly be dead. i've been
fighting suicidal urges daily for the past six years. it's
just been a particularly hard crash for the few weeks.
-lisa
so is your depression symptoms like being non functional or is it a
situational depression or just like you can't get the strength to do
anything?
or all the above?
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| User: "lisa in mass." |
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22 May 2004 02:34:41 PM |
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Robert Neville wrote...
i'm taking parnate (an maoi), lamictal as a mood
stabiliser, and abilify, an antipsychotic. my depression
was chemically caused. during high dose, long-term
prednisone treatment i became very severely depressed with
psychotic features. that was 6 years ago and it never went
away. i've been told that sometimes it's permanent.
i've been in therapy (cognitive behavioral) ever since.
without the skills i learned when i was in dbt (dialectal
behavior therapy), i would undoubtedly be dead. i've been
fighting suicidal urges daily for the past six years. it's
just been a particularly hard crash for the few weeks.
-lisa
so is your depression symptoms like being non functional or
is it a situational depression or just like you can't get
the strength to do anything?
or all the above?
i usually stay functional, just this crash has been bad enough
that it takes monumental effort to do anything. i'll be
thirsty for hours because the water's in the next room, which
would require getting up to get it and i just can't summon the
energy to go. i seem to be pulling out of it some since we
raised the antipsychotic a week ago. it increases the efficacy
of the antidepressant. been doing a bit more around the house
and more involved with the kids.
-lisa
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| User: "wombn" |
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22 May 2004 05:19:14 PM |
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On 22 May 2004 19:34:41 GMT, "lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
i usually stay functional, just this crash has been bad enough
that it takes monumental effort to do anything. i'll be
thirsty for hours because the water's in the next room, which
would require getting up to get it and i just can't summon the
energy to go. i seem to be pulling out of it some since we
raised the antipsychotic a week ago. it increases the efficacy
of the antidepressant. been doing a bit more around the house
and more involved with the kids.
are you still having the hallucinations?
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If laughter is the best medicine,
then kittens should be covered by our health insurance. :-)
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| User: "lisa in mass." |
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23 May 2004 01:26:32 PM |
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wombn wrote...
On 22 May 2004 19:34:41 GMT, "lisa in mass."
<mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
i usually stay functional, just this crash has been bad
enough that it takes monumental effort to do anything. i'll
be thirsty for hours because the water's in the next room,
which would require getting up to get it and i just can't
summon the energy to go. i seem to be pulling out of it
some since we raised the antipsychotic a week ago. it
increases the efficacy of the antidepressant. been doing a
bit more around the house and more involved with the kids.
are you still having the hallucinations?
they finally stopped, now that the antipsychotic increase has
taken effect, to my great relief! thanks for asking.
-lisa
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| User: "wombn" |
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23 May 2004 04:44:18 PM |
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On 23 May 2004 18:26:32 GMT, "lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
wombn wrote...
On 22 May 2004 19:34:41 GMT, "lisa in mass."
<mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
i usually stay functional, just this crash has been bad
enough that it takes monumental effort to do anything. i'll
be thirsty for hours because the water's in the next room,
which would require getting up to get it and i just can't
summon the energy to go. i seem to be pulling out of it
some since we raised the antipsychotic a week ago. it
increases the efficacy of the antidepressant. been doing a
bit more around the house and more involved with the kids.
are you still having the hallucinations?
they finally stopped, now that the antipsychotic increase has
taken effect, to my great relief! thanks for asking.
whew! thank goodness!
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If laughter is the best medicine,
then kittens should be covered by our health insurance. :-)
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| User: "Robert Neville" |
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22 May 2004 04:25:00 PM |
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On 22 May 2004 19:34:41 GMT, "lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
Robert Neville wrote...
i'm taking parnate (an maoi), lamictal as a mood
stabiliser, and abilify, an antipsychotic. my depression
was chemically caused. during high dose, long-term
prednisone treatment i became very severely depressed with
psychotic features. that was 6 years ago and it never went
away. i've been told that sometimes it's permanent.
i've been in therapy (cognitive behavioral) ever since.
without the skills i learned when i was in dbt (dialectal
behavior therapy), i would undoubtedly be dead. i've been
fighting suicidal urges daily for the past six years. it's
just been a particularly hard crash for the few weeks.
-lisa
so is your depression symptoms like being non functional or
is it a situational depression or just like you can't get
the strength to do anything?
or all the above?
i usually stay functional, just this crash has been bad enough
that it takes monumental effort to do anything. i'll be
thirsty for hours because the water's in the next room, which
would require getting up to get it and i just can't summon the
energy to go. i seem to be pulling out of it some since we
raised the antipsychotic a week ago. it increases the efficacy
of the antidepressant. been doing a bit more around the house
and more involved with the kids.
-lisa
with my body system i can't take ssri's because of the bad side
effects so my shrink was reading about research that was going on in
boston about alternatives to ssri's and the use of ritalin for some
forms of depression so he put me on ritalin.
i still get my situational depression and the constant ptsd flash back
down falls but the stimulant enables me to have the energy to fight it
so you may want to run this across your shrink, it beats keeping the
covers over your head. i hope this info helps you.
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| User: "used2be" |
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22 May 2004 07:49:01 PM |
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"Robert Neville" <omega-man@no.family.allowed.com> wrote in message
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On 22 May 2004 19:34:41 GMT, "lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
Robert Neville wrote...
i'm taking parnate (an maoi), lamictal as a mood
stabiliser, and abilify, an antipsychotic. my depression
was chemically caused. during high dose, long-term
prednisone treatment i became very severely depressed with
psychotic features. that was 6 years ago and it never went
away. i've been told that sometimes it's permanent.
i've been in therapy (cognitive behavioral) ever since.
without the skills i learned when i was in dbt (dialectal
behavior therapy), i would undoubtedly be dead. i've been
fighting suicidal urges daily for the past six years. it's
just been a particularly hard crash for the few weeks.
-lisa
so is your depression symptoms like being non functional or
is it a situational depression or just like you can't get
the strength to do anything?
or all the above?
i usually stay functional, just this crash has been bad enough
that it takes monumental effort to do anything. i'll be
thirsty for hours because the water's in the next room, which
would require getting up to get it and i just can't summon the
energy to go. i seem to be pulling out of it some since we
raised the antipsychotic a week ago. it increases the efficacy
of the antidepressant. been doing a bit more around the house
and more involved with the kids.
-lisa
with my body system i can't take ssri's because of the bad side
effects so my shrink was reading about research that was going on in
boston about alternatives to ssri's and the use of ritalin for some
forms of depression so he put me on ritalin.
i still get my situational depression and the constant ptsd flash back
down falls but the stimulant enables me to have the energy to fight it
so you may want to run this across your shrink, it beats keeping the
covers over your head. i hope this info helps you.
wow, rob't. that was very nice of you! :-) it's good to see you "coming
around" so to speak. i think you just might be an okay guy!
;-)
u2b
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| User: "used2be" |
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| Title: Re: i have to post this |
22 May 2004 08:02:47 PM |
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"used2be" <cindyb@ERASETHISaustin.rr.com> wrote in message
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"Robert Neville" <omega-man@no.family.allowed.com> wrote in message
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On 22 May 2004 19:34:41 GMT, "lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
Robert Neville wrote...
i'm taking parnate (an maoi), lamictal as a mood
stabiliser, and abilify, an antipsychotic. my depression
was chemically caused. during high dose, long-term
prednisone treatment i became very severely depressed with
psychotic features. that was 6 years ago and it never went
away. i've been told that sometimes it's permanent.
i've been in therapy (cognitive behavioral) ever since.
without the skills i learned when i was in dbt (dialectal
behavior therapy), i would undoubtedly be dead. i've been
fighting suicidal urges daily for the past six years. it's
just been a particularly hard crash for the few weeks.
-lisa
so is your depression symptoms like being non functional or
is it a situational depression or just like you can't get
the strength to do anything?
or all the above?
i usually stay functional, just this crash has been bad enough
that it takes monumental effort to do anything. i'll be
thirsty for hours because the water's in the next room, which
would require getting up to get it and i just can't summon the
energy to go. i seem to be pulling out of it some since we
raised the antipsychotic a week ago. it increases the efficacy
of the antidepressant. been doing a bit more around the house
and more involved with the kids.
-lisa
with my body system i can't take ssri's because of the bad side
effects so my shrink was reading about research that was going on in
boston about alternatives to ssri's and the use of ritalin for some
forms of depression so he put me on ritalin.
i still get my situational depression and the constant ptsd flash back
down falls but the stimulant enables me to have the energy to fight it
so you may want to run this across your shrink, it beats keeping the
covers over your head. i hope this info helps you.
wow, rob't. that was very nice of you! :-) it's good to see you "coming
around" so to speak. i think you just might be an okay guy!
;-)
u2b
as if you need my approval, right?
:-)
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| User: "Robert Neville" |
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| Title: Re: i have to post this |
23 May 2004 10:31:11 AM |
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Ally wrote:
On Sun, 23 May 2004 00:49:01 GMT, "used2be"
<cindyb@ERASETHISaustin.rr.com> wrote:
"Robert Neville" <omega-man@no.family.allowed.com> wrote in message
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On 22 May 2004 19:34:41 GMT, "lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
Robert Neville wrote...
i'm taking parnate (an maoi), lamictal as a mood
stabiliser, and abilify, an antipsychotic. my depression
was chemically caused. during high dose, long-term
prednisone treatment i became very severely depressed with
psychotic features. that was 6 years ago and it never went
away. i've been told that sometimes it's permanent.
i've been in therapy (cognitive behavioral) ever since.
without the skills i learned when i was in dbt (dialectal
behavior therapy), i would undoubtedly be dead. i've been
fighting suicidal urges daily for the past six years. it's
just been a particularly hard crash for the few weeks.
-lisa
so is your depression symptoms like being non functional or
is it a situational depression or just like you can't get
the strength to do anything?
or all the above?
i usually stay functional, just this crash has been bad enough
that it takes monumental effort to do anything. i'll be
thirsty for hours because the water's in the next room, which
would require getting up to get it and i just can't summon the
energy to go. i seem to be pulling out of it some since we
raised the antipsychotic a week ago. it increases the efficacy
of the antidepressant. been doing a bit more around the house
and more involved with the kids.
-lisa
with my body system i can't take ssri's because of the bad side
effects so my shrink was reading about research that was going on in
boston about alternatives to ssri's and the use of ritalin for some
forms of depression so he put me on ritalin.
i still get my situational depression and the constant ptsd flash back
down falls but the stimulant enables me to have the energy to fight it
so you may want to run this across your shrink, it beats keeping the
covers over your head. i hope this info helps you.
wow, rob't. that was very nice of you! :-) it's good to see you "coming
around" so to speak. i think you just might be an okay guy!
;-)
u2b
Finally I'm not the only one who sees that.
The "coming around" part was a bit condescending however.
--
Ally
thanks ally!
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23 May 2004 10:24:55 AM |
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On Sun, 23 May 2004 01:02:47 GMT, "used2be"
<cindyb@ERASETHISaustin.rr.com> wrote:
"used2be" <cindyb@ERASETHISaustin.rr.com> wrote in message
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"Robert Neville" <omega-man@no.family.allowed.com> wrote in message
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On 22 May 2004 19:34:41 GMT, "lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
Robert Neville wrote...
i'm taking parnate (an maoi), lamictal as a mood
stabiliser, and abilify, an antipsychotic. my depression
was chemically caused. during high dose, long-term
prednisone treatment i became very severely depressed with
psychotic features. that was 6 years ago and it never went
away. i've been told that sometimes it's permanent.
i've been in therapy (cognitive behavioral) ever since.
without the skills i learned when i was in dbt (dialectal
behavior therapy), i would undoubtedly be dead. i've been
fighting suicidal urges daily for the past six years. it's
just been a particularly hard crash for the few weeks.
-lisa
so is your depression symptoms like being non functional or
is it a situational depression or just like you can't get
the strength to do anything?
or all the above?
i usually stay functional, just this crash has been bad enough
that it takes monumental effort to do anything. i'll be
thirsty for hours because the water's in the next room, which
would require getting up to get it and i just can't summon the
energy to go. i seem to be pulling out of it some since we
raised the antipsychotic a week ago. it increases the efficacy
of the antidepressant. been doing a bit more around the house
and more involved with the kids.
-lisa
with my body system i can't take ssri's because of the bad side
effects so my shrink was reading about research that was going on in
boston about alternatives to ssri's and the use of ritalin for some
forms of depression so he put me on ritalin.
i still get my situational depression and the constant ptsd flash back
down falls but the stimulant enables me to have the energy to fight it
so you may want to run this across your shrink, it beats keeping the
covers over your head. i hope this info helps you.
wow, rob't. that was very nice of you! :-) it's good to see you "coming
around" so to speak. i think you just might be an okay guy!
;-)
u2b
as if you need my approval, right?
:-)
that was kind of spooky but you clarified it and thank you. that would
be something gayle wouldn't have done. ;-)
i hope i worded everything okay, gayle's on the prowl. ;-)
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23 May 2004 10:25:52 PM |
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"Robert Neville" <omega-man@no.family.allowed.com> wrote in message
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On Sun, 23 May 2004 01:02:47 GMT, "used2be"
<cindyb@ERASETHISaustin.rr.com> wrote:
wow, rob't. that was very nice of you! :-) it's good to see you
"coming
around" so to speak. i think you just might be an okay guy!
;-)
u2b
as if you need my approval, right?
that was kind of spooky but you clarified it and thank you. that would
be something gayle wouldn't have done. ;-)
sorry it sounded condescending. it wasn't intended as such.
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24 May 2004 02:47:07 PM |
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On Mon, 24 May 2004 03:25:52 GMT, "used2be"
<cindyb@ERASETHISaustin.rr.com> wrote:
"Robert Neville" <omega-man@no.family.allowed.com> wrote in message
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On Sun, 23 May 2004 01:02:47 GMT, "used2be"
<cindyb@ERASETHISaustin.rr.com> wrote:
wow, rob't. that was very nice of you! :-) it's good to see you
"coming
around" so to speak. i think you just might be an okay guy!
;-)
u2b
as if you need my approval, right?
that was kind of spooky but you clarified it and thank you. that would
be something gayle wouldn't have done. ;-)
sorry it sounded condescending. it wasn't intended as such.
i know it wasn't it just sounded spooky. ;-)
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| User: "foolio" |
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23 May 2004 10:55:58 AM |
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Robert Neville wrote:
On Sun, 23 May 2004 01:02:47 GMT, "used2be"
<cindyb@ERASETHISaustin.rr.com> wrote:
"used2be" <cindyb@ERASETHISaustin.rr.com> wrote in message
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"Robert Neville" <omega-man@no.family.allowed.com> wrote in message
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On 22 May 2004 19:34:41 GMT, "lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
Robert Neville wrote...
i'm taking parnate (an maoi), lamictal as a mood
stabiliser, and abilify, an antipsychotic. my depression
was chemically caused. during high dose, long-term
prednisone treatment i became very severely depressed with
psychotic features. that was 6 years ago and it never went
away. i've been told that sometimes it's permanent.
i've been in therapy (cognitive behavioral) ever since.
without the skills i learned when i was in dbt (dialectal
behavior therapy), i would undoubtedly be dead. i've been
fighting suicidal urges daily for the past six years. it's
just been a particularly hard crash for the few weeks.
-lisa
so is your depression symptoms like being non functional or
is it a situational depression or just like you can't get
the strength to do anything?
or all the above?
i usually stay functional, just this crash has been bad enough
that it takes monumental effort to do anything. i'll be
thirsty for hours because the water's in the next room, which
would require getting up to get it and i just can't summon the
energy to go. i seem to be pulling out of it some since we
raised the antipsychotic a week ago. it increases the efficacy
of the antidepressant. been doing a bit more around the house
and more involved with the kids.
-lisa
with my body system i can't take ssri's because of the bad side
effects so my shrink was reading about research that was going on in
boston about alternatives to ssri's and the use of ritalin for some
forms of depression so he put me on ritalin.
i still get my situational depression and the constant ptsd flash back
down falls but the stimulant enables me to have the energy to fight it
so you may want to run this across your shrink, it beats keeping the
covers over your head. i hope this info helps you.
wow, rob't. that was very nice of you! :-) it's good to see you "coming
around" so to speak. i think you just might be an okay guy!
;-)
u2b
as if you need my approval, right?
:-)
that was kind of spooky but you clarified it and thank you. that would
be something gayle wouldn't have done. ;-)
i hope i worded everything okay, gayle's on the prowl. ;-)
LMFAO!!!!!!!!!!!
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