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Sociology > Depression |
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"Used2be" |
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11 Aug 2005 12:24:56 PM |
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i need to get outta this house.... |
before i hurt somebody...
10 minutes ago i wanted to throttle my 6 yr old. i didn't do it, but oh how
i wanted to. i can feel myself losing control and i know i need to get away
from here before i do hurt someone.
now i'm soaking wet from a waterhose incident, and have a huge gash on the
back of my leg where the plastic "kiddie pool" bit me as i was trying to
move it (the rough edge of it scraped down the back of my leg when i lost my
grip on it). that's when i lost control. you should have seen the look on
my little girl's face when i ran after her with the water hose on full
blast. i soaked her with it out of pure anger, but what i wanted to do was
ring her neck. she won't stop bugging me, and while i can usually handle
it, today i just can't. she's a good kid, and she doesn't deserve this from
me. i totally feel like i'm losing my sanity bit by bit again. like i'm on
a rollercoaster that's about to jump the tracks.
god, i need outta here before i hurt someone! myself included. only i
can't! the 14 yr old needs a ride to v'ball practice at 2, and the 17 yr
old needs a ride to work at 4.
this is exactly what sends me over the edge. the little annoying things in
life when i'm depressed as dog sh*t already.
I'M LOSING MY MIND!!!
:(((
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| User: "Mad Season" |
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| Title: Re: i need to get outta this house.... |
11 Aug 2005 06:36:03 PM |
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"Used2be" <used2be@nowhere.com> wrote in message
news:IRLKe.132527$0f.131999@tornado.texas.rr.com...
before i hurt somebody...
10 minutes ago i wanted to throttle my 6 yr old. i didn't do it, but oh
how i wanted to. i can feel myself losing control and i know i need to
get away from here before i do hurt someone.
now i'm soaking wet from a waterhose incident, and have a huge gash on the
back of my leg where the plastic "kiddie pool" bit me as i was trying to
move it (the rough edge of it scraped down the back of my leg when i lost
my grip on it). that's when i lost control. you should have seen the
look on my little girl's face when i ran after her with the water hose on
full blast. i soaked her with it out of pure anger, but what i wanted to
do was ring her neck. she won't stop bugging me, and while i can usually
handle it, today i just can't. she's a good kid, and she doesn't deserve
this from me. i totally feel like i'm losing my sanity bit by bit again.
like i'm on a rollercoaster that's about to jump the tracks.
god, i need outta here before i hurt someone! myself included. only i
can't! the 14 yr old needs a ride to v'ball practice at 2, and the 17 yr
old needs a ride to work at 4.
this is exactly what sends me over the edge. the little annoying things
in life when i'm depressed as dog sh*t already.
I'M LOSING MY MIND!!!
:(((
My wife was always a stay at home mom. We had four kids and sometimes I
would come home from work and she would be in tears with frustration. I
don't think there's anything wrong with you. Your feelings are genuine. If a
mom got paid for her duties she should receive $200,000. dollars a year in
compensation. You just need a break. Is there someone you can exchange
childcare duties with for the day? Good luck and be well.
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| User: "HanginIn" |
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| Title: Re: i need to get outta this house.... |
11 Aug 2005 03:05:23 PM |
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Hi ~u2b -
I would respectfully suggest that you need a trip to the ER much more than
either of your kids need a ride.
Strong suicidal and homicidal urges should be taken seriously and and
addressed immediately. It's way different from suicidal ideation, which I
have a lot.
You can't take care of others right now. Do as you suggest, get out of
there. Get to an ER where they can get you calmed down.
This is "no fooling around" time.
scott
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As far as we can discern, the sole purpose of human existence is to kindle a
light of meaning in the darkness of mere being.
- Carl Jung [ 1875 - 1961]
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"Used2be" <used2be@nowhere.com> wrote in message
news:IRLKe.132527$0f.131999@tornado.texas.rr.com...
before i hurt somebody...
10 minutes ago i wanted to throttle my 6 yr old. i didn't do it, but oh
how i wanted to. i can feel myself losing control and i know i need to
get away from here before i do hurt someone.
now i'm soaking wet from a waterhose incident, and have a huge gash on the
back of my leg where the plastic "kiddie pool" bit me as i was trying to
move it (the rough edge of it scraped down the back of my leg when i lost
my grip on it). that's when i lost control. you should have seen the
look on my little girl's face when i ran after her with the water hose on
full blast. i soaked her with it out of pure anger, but what i wanted to
do was ring her neck. she won't stop bugging me, and while i can usually
handle it, today i just can't. she's a good kid, and she doesn't deserve
this from me. i totally feel like i'm losing my sanity bit by bit again.
like i'm on a rollercoaster that's about to jump the tracks.
god, i need outta here before i hurt someone! myself included. only i
can't! the 14 yr old needs a ride to v'ball practice at 2, and the 17 yr
old needs a ride to work at 4.
this is exactly what sends me over the edge. the little annoying things
in life when i'm depressed as dog sh*t already.
I'M LOSING MY MIND!!!
:(((
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| User: "wombn" |
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| Title: Re: i need to get outta this house.... |
11 Aug 2005 01:14:51 PM |
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On Thu, 11 Aug 2005 17:24:56 GMT, "Used2be" <used2be@nowhere.com>
wrote:
before i hurt somebody...
10 minutes ago i wanted to throttle my 6 yr old. i didn't do it, but oh how
i wanted to. i can feel myself losing control and i know i need to get away
from here before i do hurt someone.
now i'm soaking wet from a waterhose incident, and have a huge gash on the
back of my leg where the plastic "kiddie pool" bit me as i was trying to
move it (the rough edge of it scraped down the back of my leg when i lost my
grip on it). that's when i lost control. you should have seen the look on
my little girl's face when i ran after her with the water hose on full
blast. i soaked her with it out of pure anger, but what i wanted to do was
ring her neck. she won't stop bugging me, and while i can usually handle
it, today i just can't. she's a good kid, and she doesn't deserve this from
me. i totally feel like i'm losing my sanity bit by bit again. like i'm on
a rollercoaster that's about to jump the tracks.
god, i need outta here before i hurt someone! myself included. only i
can't! the 14 yr old needs a ride to v'ball practice at 2, and the 17 yr
old needs a ride to work at 4.
could the 17 y/o take the 14 y/o to practice and then herself to work?
this is exactly what sends me over the edge. the little annoying things in
life when i'm depressed as dog sh*t already.
I'M LOSING MY MIND!!!
:(((
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| User: "Gayle" |
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| Title: Re: i need to get outta this house.... |
11 Aug 2005 12:56:34 PM |
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Used2be wrote:
before i hurt somebody...
10 minutes ago i wanted to throttle my 6 yr old. i didn't do it, but oh how
i wanted to. i can feel myself losing control and i know i need to get away
from here before i do hurt someone.
Can you call one of her friend's parents
and swap some childcare time with her?
Or someone from your Church?
Gayle
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