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Sociology > Depression |
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20 Dec 2005 03:39:53 PM |
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I think being in a house with no hope can be bad for depression |
I live in a nice house, a modest house but a nice one. It's a new
house. - I live in a fairly nice neighborhood in the suburbs - well,
seemingly nice, at least on the surface - I don't live in a slum - I
don't live in the projects - there are no gangs roaming the streets -
at least none than i can see - I don't live in fear of being robbed -
if i wanted to, i could leave all the doors unlocked at night - it's
not like i live in the country where people can leave their doors
unlocked, i live in the suburbs and there is some level of crime - but
i dont fear it - nothing much happens around here - i sit in this
house slowly dying - i have no will - i have no motivation - thankfully
i have lexapro and i have xanax and for really bad times, i have
vicodin - i have internet - i have clothing - i have food - I have heat
- I have lights. i am better off than 90% of the rest of the world,
maybe 99% i dont know.... but anyway.... SO WHY is it that i wish i
was not alive? what is wrong with me? it is NOT the holidays -
because i have felt this exact same way in the spring and summer - its
nothing to do with the holidays at all. im not even thinking of them.
i just i am just massively depressed. i will confess something to
you all - i feel like i am craving going to a hospital and telling them
how i feel and to please help me. i probably wont do that because
it'll introduce all sorts of other problems. i dont even feel THAT
bad today. just not so great. i know other ASDers are going through
FAR worse than i am. but i know its ok to post. well, its about that
time again, time to press the send/post butten. no need to reply to
this - just that you read it is more than enough to me - to all of you
out there suffering in your homes in the suburbs, in the city, in the
countryside, and everywhere inbetween, i am with ya. (hi Claudia,
Lisa, Alvin, Owl, Bruce and everyone else.... if i you didnt see your
name here, dont feel bad, my memory is a mess, i'm thinking of you too)
do you know how I am going to try to feel a little better? I'm going
to read some of my favorite ASD posts. it can be a comfort. you
guys, please do whatever it takes to feel comforted and feel better.
eat something good. read your favorite books, or ASD. whatever it
takes. even if you can fight the depression (and i know how hard it is
to fight)....just do something to FEEL better. it's important IMO.
excuse this mess of a post.
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| User: "Chisa" |
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| Title: Re: I think being in a house with no hope can be bad for depression |
21 Dec 2005 01:11:46 AM |
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i have no will - i have no motivation - thankfully
i have lexapro and i have xanax and for really bad times, i have
vicodin - i have internet - i have clothing - i have food - I have heat
- I have lights. i am better off than 90% of the rest of the world,
I have exercise, music (while weight lifting) and cable TV to watch
while cycling in my basement home gym. I actually look forward to this
time of the day - it starts with coffee - the major mood enhancer in my
life - short lasting effect but I never quit.
I had a crisis when cable stopped working, it just made me realize how
stuck I am in this ***** suburb. And now it's winter. When I lived
downtown I would go on long walks window shopping. I wouldn't actually
shop. Nice to live in a suburban area to have a big yard for your dog
and for the summer outdoor activities - there's a bike path passing in
front of my house.
Planning a trip to Brazil now to possibly purchase a condo there. Don't
know if I'll have the courage to return while it's still winter here in
QC.
Babbling newcomer chisa.
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| User: "aaron from suburbia" |
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| Title: Re: I think being in a house with no hope can be bad for depression |
21 Dec 2005 04:54:36 PM |
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Chisa wrote:
i have no will - i have no motivation - thankfully
i have lexapro and i have xanax and for really bad times, i have
vicodin - i have internet - i have clothing - i have food - I have heat
- I have lights. i am better off than 90% of the rest of the world,
I have exercise, music (while weight lifting) and cable TV to watch
while cycling in my basement home gym. I actually look forward to this
time of the day - it starts with coffee - the major mood enhancer in my
life - short lasting effect but I never quit.
I had a crisis when cable stopped working, it just made me realize how
stuck I am in this ***** suburb. And now it's winter. When I lived
downtown I would go on long walks window shopping. I wouldn't actually
shop. Nice to live in a suburban area to have a big yard for your dog
and for the summer outdoor activities - there's a bike path passing in
front of my house.
Planning a trip to Brazil now to possibly purchase a condo there. Don't
know if I'll have the courage to return while it's still winter here in
QC.
Babbling newcomer chisa.
Hi Chisa - welcome to ASD
I often think that I will never experience anything outside of suburbia
- and that's kind of a depressing thought in itself. I mean, sure
there's alot to like about living in surroundings that are seemingly
peaceful and happy-shiney on the surface - but it's what lies under the
surface that bothers me........i mean, things are not what they
seem...ahhh that's for another post......anyway............ I like
having a big yard for josh... my 2 year old lab..........I like having
neighbors............i like having internet...........i like all the
summer activities...... but i want something more.....something real
and not suburbia.
aaron - who is the one who is doing most of the babbling.
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