Or rather I want to feel melancholic. I already do and I am caving in,
giving
in to that feeling because for some weird reason it makes me feel "good".
I sat
alone in the dark this evening listening to sad blue songs, and I cried
like I
never cried before. Actually it's the first time I cried since I was a
little
child. The cause of why I am feeling like this is that I met my other
half, my
sister soul, the woman who complements and completes me, the rapport
between us
is incredibly good and she feels it too... but alas she's already taken,
and
for laudable moral reasons she cannot break her vows. That sad realization
coincides with the definitive departure of one of the few best friends I
have,
I never realized how much he's valuable to me until now that he's gone.
Here I
am lonely and loveless, listening to depressive old songs. I know it could
be
worse and some people have it much worse but still it hurts a lot...

Or rather I want to feel melancholic. I already do and I am caving in, giving
in to that feeling because for some weird reason it makes me feel "good". I sat
alone in the dark this evening listening to sad blue songs, and I cried like I
never cried before. Actually it's the first time I cried since I was a little
child. The cause of why I am feeling like this is that I met my other half, my
sister soul, the woman who complements and completes me, the rapport between us
is incredibly good and she feels it too... but alas she's already taken, and
for laudable moral reasons she cannot break her vows. That sad realization
coincides with the definitive departure of one of the few best friends I have,
I never realized how much he's valuable to me until now that he's gone. Here I
am lonely and loveless, listening to depressive old songs. I know it could be
worse and some people have it much worse but still it hurts a lot...