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Sociology > Depression |
| User: |
"aaron from suburbia" |
| Date: |
06 May 2006 09:41:37 PM |
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I went to Catholic Church Service today |
You know, Catholic daily ____ I blanked out the word, not because it's a
swear word, but because it is a bad name on ASD other places.
you know what I mean ?
anyway, i sat there listened to the sermon. sat on the bench while everyone
stood. sometimes cryied. i wanted to TALK to a freaking preist or paster
or whatever they're called. I about how I feel. I didnt want to talk too
much religion, just wanted some words of encouragement. i didn't really
recieve much. the preist or father or paster or whatever, had other
"commitments" obviously didnt have much time for me. gave me a few words of
advise, and the things i said were bothering me, he said, it happens, and
you gotta move on. (***** i was thinking)...... ok he wasnt bad, he
didn't totally ingore me and walk away, but it wasnt much help. now,
about 4 days ago. i decided to goto "confession" (LOL right?) and talk
to one of the fathers that was there. his words were alot more encouraging.
it helped. i asked questions that i already knew the answer to, but NEEDED
to hear AGAIN from someone else. see?
why did i do this? why? because i am trying to survive any damn way i
can. emotionally. keep my spirits from sinking into total death.
I know, here I go again, BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH.
sorry. (i know i shouldnt need to appologize, this is what ASD is for, as
ive said to others, AND i should listen to my own advise, lol)
whats the point of this? who the ***** knows. to feel better? less
"depressed" yeah....
well. i dont feel as bad as i did while ago. so i guess it was worth it. -
but in reality, that's probably the KLONNY making me feel "less"
shitty. <hugs the bottle of klonny>
whatever. i guess i am supposed to go on "as a good soldier" and not
give up. but this solider is pretty weak. not fit to be called a soldier in
anything.
just a sad-***** ASDer.
well, i will try to keep "my chin up" and try to work out the physical and
emotional "issues" with my doctor.
most people tell me
"you'll be just fine, you just have to try more:"
"don't worry so much"
"be strong"
"get yourself together"
blah.
man, i wish i could talk to Owl / Owly aka Great Horned Owl (IIRC)
right now. he is cool, and kinda understands, but he's not here, and my IRC
is all messed up.
wow, do i ever ramble and go on and on, and on. i don't i.
i should call myself
"pathetic rambling blah dude from suburbia"
i know % would agree with me, and probably others too. but, i still like
ASD, and i know people care, and i care about ASDers too.
i guess i have no choice but to go on.
I WILL BE JUST FINE. CUZ REMEMBER,
ALL THIS *****, TOO, SHALL PASS.
< half hearted smile>
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| User: "%" |
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| Title: Re: I went to Catholic Church Service today |
06 May 2006 09:43:44 PM |
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ho
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| User: "aaron from suburbia" |
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| Title: Re: I went to Catholic Church Service today |
06 May 2006 10:28:56 PM |
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"%" <persent@gmail.com> wrote in message
news:Z7qdneel1LJ9w8DZRVn-sQ@giganews.com...
ho
say whatever you want. about catholic church ( i dont care ) preists.
preist-jokes. etc. doesnt bother me, for me.
the only thing that bothers me is someone called r.m. which is unrelated,
except his name is shared by the catholic RITUAL
as long as you dont say the name of that creepy "boogie man" I will be
fine.
LOL this is rediculas but im feeling spacey. which is a good thing, for me.
and Hi, % how is life up there in Alaska or Canada or whatever ? :P
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