.... make a reasonable success of myself as an author, I sincerely
doubt if I can accept more of the impoverished, empty black hole that
is my life. My definition of success isn't what people seem to think,
what they say when I mention "I'm writing two novels". I don't want,
or expect, to create a best-seller. I don't want to get rich. I don't
want to be famous. I just want a decent lifestyle, some security,
peace and quiet, an environment where I won't be followed around by
desperate, needy people. I want RESPECT. I want to be part of the
mainstream again without ending up as somebody's servant or somebody's
*****. I want to entertain and do what I'm meant to do. I cannot hold
a conventional job. Don't believe it? I'll Email you a list of all the
jobs I've held since high school. Eh... no. I don't want to read that
list.
I'm not depressed, I'm frightened. My first book is almost done. Then
I have to sell it. Did I know how hard it would be? Did I always know
what the odds are (terrible)? Yes. But what else do I have to do? Sit
here and rot?
I'll keep writing, regardless of what happens, because writing has
been my central passion since childhood. Even if it's just stuff only
I read. I like my own work. Nothing and no one can take love of
language away. That's not the problem.
Being stuck here will kill me.
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| User: "%" |
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10 Sep 2006 07:53:27 PM |
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"notchimera" <dont@bother.com> wrote in message
news:uc99g2dl48erh0d21ecrmspo8rij06mlpr@4ax.com...
... make a reasonable success of myself as an author, I sincerely
doubt if I can accept more of the impoverished, empty black hole that
is my life. My definition of success isn't what people seem to think,
what they say when I mention "I'm writing two novels". I don't want,
or expect, to create a best-seller. I don't want to get rich. I don't
want to be famous. I just want a decent lifestyle, some security,
peace and quiet, an environment where I won't be followed around by
desperate, needy people. I want RESPECT. I want to be part of the
mainstream again without ending up as somebody's servant or somebody's
*****. I want to entertain and do what I'm meant to do. I cannot hold
a conventional job. Don't believe it? I'll Email you a list of all the
jobs I've held since high school. Eh... no. I don't want to read that
list.
I'm not depressed, I'm frightened. My first book is almost done. Then
I have to sell it. Did I know how hard it would be? Did I always know
what the odds are (terrible)? Yes. But what else do I have to do? Sit
here and rot?
I'll keep writing, regardless of what happens, because writing has
been my central passion since childhood. Even if it's just stuff only
I read. I like my own work. Nothing and no one can take love of
language away. That's not the problem.
Being stuck here will kill me.
but you are so desired by so many
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| User: "Alan Harding" |
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11 Sep 2006 04:48:37 PM |
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In message <d9idnclucMc-LpnYnZ2dnUVZ_qydnZ2d@giganews.com>, %
<persent@gmail.com> writes
"notchimera" <dont@bother.com> wrote in message
news:uc99g2dl48erh0d21ecrmspo8rij06mlpr@4ax.com...
... make a reasonable success of myself as an author, I sincerely
doubt if I can accept more of the impoverished, empty black hole that
is my life. My definition of success isn't what people seem to think,
what they say when I mention "I'm writing two novels". I don't want,
or expect, to create a best-seller. I don't want to get rich. I don't
want to be famous. I just want a decent lifestyle, some security,
peace and quiet, an environment where I won't be followed around by
desperate, needy people. I want RESPECT. I want to be part of the
mainstream again without ending up as somebody's servant or somebody's
*****. I want to entertain and do what I'm meant to do. I cannot hold
a conventional job. Don't believe it? I'll Email you a list of all the
jobs I've held since high school. Eh... no. I don't want to read that
list.
I'm not depressed, I'm frightened. My first book is almost done. Then
I have to sell it. Did I know how hard it would be? Did I always know
what the odds are (terrible)? Yes. But what else do I have to do? Sit
here and rot?
I'll keep writing, regardless of what happens, because writing has
been my central passion since childhood. Even if it's just stuff only
I read. I like my own work. Nothing and no one can take love of
language away. That's not the problem.
Being stuck here will kill me.
but you are so desired by so many
I'd much rather have you, sweety. Don't clench.
--
The opinions given above may be mine. They might also
just be what I feel like saying right now, okay?
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| User: "%" |
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| Title: Re: If I don't... |
11 Sep 2006 05:05:40 PM |
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"Alan Harding" <Alan@harding.demon.co.uk> wrote in message
news:XEo+TiM1mdBFFw1J@harding.demon.co.uk...
In message <d9idnclucMc-LpnYnZ2dnUVZ_qydnZ2d@giganews.com>, %
<persent@gmail.com> writes
"notchimera" <dont@bother.com> wrote in message
news:uc99g2dl48erh0d21ecrmspo8rij06mlpr@4ax.com...
... make a reasonable success of myself as an author, I sincerely
doubt if I can accept more of the impoverished, empty black hole that
is my life. My definition of success isn't what people seem to think,
what they say when I mention "I'm writing two novels". I don't want,
or expect, to create a best-seller. I don't want to get rich. I don't
want to be famous. I just want a decent lifestyle, some security,
peace and quiet, an environment where I won't be followed around by
desperate, needy people. I want RESPECT. I want to be part of the
mainstream again without ending up as somebody's servant or somebody's
*****. I want to entertain and do what I'm meant to do. I cannot hold
a conventional job. Don't believe it? I'll Email you a list of all the
jobs I've held since high school. Eh... no. I don't want to read that
list.
I'm not depressed, I'm frightened. My first book is almost done. Then
I have to sell it. Did I know how hard it would be? Did I always know
what the odds are (terrible)? Yes. But what else do I have to do? Sit
here and rot?
I'll keep writing, regardless of what happens, because writing has
been my central passion since childhood. Even if it's just stuff only
I read. I like my own work. Nothing and no one can take love of
language away. That's not the problem.
Being stuck here will kill me.
but you are so desired by so many
I'd much rather have you, sweety. Don't clench.
--
The opinions given above may be mine. They might also
just be what I feel like saying right now, okay?
you sure do yap it up pretty good ,
for someone who left asd forever
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| User: "Rhiannon" |
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11 Sep 2006 10:53:54 PM |
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"notchimera" <dont@bother.com> wrote in message
news:uc99g2dl48erh0d21ecrmspo8rij06mlpr@4ax.com...
... make a reasonable success of myself as an author, I sincerely
doubt if I can accept more of the impoverished, empty black hole that
is my life. My definition of success isn't what people seem to think,
what they say when I mention "I'm writing two novels". I don't want,
or expect, to create a best-seller. I don't want to get rich. I don't
want to be famous. I just want a decent lifestyle, some security,
peace and quiet, an environment where I won't be followed around by
desperate, needy people. I want RESPECT. I want to be part of the
mainstream again without ending up as somebody's servant or somebody's
*****. I want to entertain and do what I'm meant to do. I cannot hold
a conventional job. Don't believe it? I'll Email you a list of all the
jobs I've held since high school. Eh... no. I don't want to read that
list.
I'm not depressed, I'm frightened. My first book is almost done. Then
I have to sell it. Did I know how hard it would be? Did I always know
what the odds are (terrible)? Yes. But what else do I have to do? Sit
here and rot?
I'll keep writing, regardless of what happens, because writing has
been my central passion since childhood. Even if it's just stuff only
I read. I like my own work. Nothing and no one can take love of
language away. That's not the problem.
Being stuck here will kill me.
That was my next question. If you don't, as you said... make a reasonable
success of myself as an author, I sincerely doubt if I can accept more of
the impoverished, empty black hole that is my life...what does that mean to
you Chimera? What do you imagine the outcome of that being? Seriously.
From your heart.
--
Rhi
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| User: "RGB" |
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12 Sep 2006 12:04:21 AM |
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In article <ee5au3$um9$1@news.datemas.de>,
"Rhiannon" <rhianon@sympatico.com> wrote:
That was my next question. If you don't, as you said... make a reasonable
success of myself as an author, I sincerely doubt if I can accept more of
the impoverished, empty black hole that is my life...what does that mean to
you Chimera? What do you imagine the outcome of that being? Seriously.
From your heart.
I was trying to think of a way to say/ask that, too. The only sense I
can make of that part of Chim's post is, "If I don't succeed as an
author my life isn't worth living so I'll kill myself" -- which is bad.
Not to put too fine a point on it. And yet she says, "I'll keep
writing, regardless of what happens", which is good. So, well, huh?
I think Chim needs to regard her venture into professional writing in
other than all-or-nothing terms (or at least to express her feelings
about that venture on ASD in other than all-or-nothing terms, for the
sake of all concerned). Throwing down ultimatums at Life is not the way
to live it -- especially if one has something which, as Chim claims, is
as intrinsically valuable as one's own ability to write.
This isn't terribly touchy-feely, maybe somebody else can fill in that
part. But this whole "If I don't..." <HINT AT THE HORRIBLE ALTERNATIVE>
approach is Not Good, and, frankly, given the way the professional
publishing world works, Not Safe.
Mark
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| User: "Tim Kett" |
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10 Sep 2006 07:21:51 PM |
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All I can say, is I wish you best of luck improving your life. What about
copyright rules?..now that you are almost done with one novel.
notchimera <dont@bother.com> wrote in article
<uc99g2dl48erh0d21ecrmspo8rij06mlpr@4ax.com>...
... make a reasonable success of myself as an author, I sincerely
doubt if I can accept more of the impoverished, empty black hole that
is my life. My definition of success isn't what people seem to think,
what they say when I mention "I'm writing two novels". I don't want,
or expect, to create a best-seller. I don't want to get rich. I don't
want to be famous. I just want a decent lifestyle, some security,
peace and quiet, an environment where I won't be followed around by
desperate, needy people. I want RESPECT. I want to be part of the
mainstream again without ending up as somebody's servant or somebody's
*****. I want to entertain and do what I'm meant to do. I cannot hold
a conventional job. Don't believe it? I'll Email you a list of all the
jobs I've held since high school. Eh... no. I don't want to read that
list.
I'm not depressed, I'm frightened. My first book is almost done. Then
I have to sell it. Did I know how hard it would be? Did I always know
what the odds are (terrible)? Yes. But what else do I have to do? Sit
here and rot?
I'll keep writing, regardless of what happens, because writing has
been my central passion since childhood. Even if it's just stuff only
I read. I like my own work. Nothing and no one can take love of
language away. That's not the problem.
Being stuck here will kill me.
.
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| User: "Contrarian" |
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| Title: Re: If I don't... |
12 Sep 2006 05:28:22 AM |
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notchimera <dont@bother.com> wrote:
... make a reasonable success of myself as an author, I sincerely
doubt if I can accept more of the impoverished, empty black hole that
is my life.
I'm not depressed, I'm frightened. My first book is almost done. Then
I have to sell it. Did I know how hard it would be? Did I always know
what the odds are (terrible)? Yes. But what else do I have to do? Sit
here and rot?
I'll keep writing, regardless of what happens, because writing has
been my central passion since childhood. Even if it's just stuff only
I read. I like my own work. Nothing and no one can take love of
language away. That's not the problem.
I read this, notchimera. Look you have been writing.
Not me, even though I have a "market" (unpaid, low
circulation, etc.)
Things are changing in the publishing world. There's
possibilties now even in the chaos. So if you are
beset by thoughts about publishers, try to ignore them.
Mail me any time, adrba at nyct dot net reaches
me best.
--
Breaking news: http://lazerbrody.typepad.com July 24/25 especially
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