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Sociology > Depression |
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"Grim" |
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29 Aug 2004 12:32:05 PM |
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I'm scared...... |
Hey guys.. I don't write here much, because I visit at times and post
things when the mood strikes me. I hope you don't mind spilling my
probs here, it's just I really felt the need to post today.
I don't know why, the past few weeks depression has been hitting me
more and more of late. It's weird, for the most part my meds
(effexor) keeps it relatively under control. But lately it's been
creeping up on me.
I'm not sure why, I mean, I suppose rationally I should be happy at my
turn of good forture. I mean, for starters last month I managed to
land the first full time job I've had since February (it's tough to
find jobs where I live, and my last job was only part time), and the
job pays me more than any other job I've had so far. It's letting me
pay back my parents the money they loaned me to get a different car
and save a bit on the side. Granted the job's only temporary (I'm
this particular assignment for about three months or so.) But still,
it's a foot in the door and will look good on my resume. Plus my Pell
grant came through for my college classes this semester. Started
going back to college a year ago and have been doing pretty good, even
made the Dean's List both semesters.
And yet... here it is the weekend (finally). The weekend I've been
waiting for all during the week. I've got time off to enjoy but... I
don't know. I just felt so damn empty. It's not a "I'd rather be at
work feleing" but more a, I don't know, "I'd rather not be, period".
If that makes since...
It keeps creeping up on me, along with this whole feeling of being
tired and feeling hopeless. I'm kinda scared it'll be like five years
ago where I was so depressed I didn't care about anything and screwed
up (among other things) my job and bombed out my classes.
I just.. I'm not what's triggering it. I mean, I don't know..
Memories, maybe? Things I still can't get over dispite my best
attempts? Or I don't know... I'm kind of lonely I guess, but hell,
I've always been lonely, don't know why that would suddenly be
bothering me more than usual.
Maybe I see try to start seeing a counselor again. Not sure if they
could work it out with my schedule but I guess I could check into it.
Anyway, thnaks for listening guys. Writing it down helps me feel a
bit better.
-Grim
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| User: "Contrarian" |
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| Title: Re: I'm scared...... |
29 Aug 2004 07:20:38 PM |
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Grim <grimsnipe54@yahoo.com> wrote:
Hey guys.. I don't write here much, because I visit at times and post
things when the mood strikes me. I hope you don't mind spilling my
probs here, it's just I really felt the need to post today.
Welcome.
I don't know why, the past few weeks depression has been hitting me
more and more of late. It's weird, for the most part my meds
(effexor) keeps it relatively under control. But lately it's been
creeping up on me.
I'd hate that.
I'm not sure why, I mean, I suppose rationally I should be happy at my
turn of good fortune<snip details>
It keeps creeping up on me, along with this whole feeling of being
tired and feeling hopeless. I'm kinda scared it'll be like five years
ago where I was so depressed I didn't care about anything and screwed
up (among other things) my job and bombed out my classes.
I would be too.
I just.. I'm not what's triggering it. I mean, I don't know..
Memories, maybe? Things I still can't get over dispite my best
attempts? Or I don't know... I'm kind of lonely I guess, but hell,
I've always been lonely, don't know why that would suddenly be
bothering me more than usual.
Maybe I see try to start seeing a counselor again. Not sure if they
could work it out with my schedule but I guess I could check into it.
Good idea if you have someone you like and trust.
Anyway, thnaks for listening guys. Writing it down helps me feel a
bit better.
Glad it does. Maybe its the dread poop-out syndrome? Or maybe
its something else. I haven't gotten "back into things" myself.
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| User: "Gayle" |
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| Title: Re: I'm scared...... |
29 Aug 2004 05:20:34 PM |
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Grim wrote:
Maybe I see try to start seeing a counselor again. Not sure if they
could work it out with my schedule but I guess I could check into it.
It sounds as if you're seeing some patterns in your life and ready to
talk about some stuff, so this is probably a good idea.
Anyway, thnaks for listening guys. Writing it down helps me feel a
bit better.
Well, keep on writing, eh?
Gayle
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