Let's see - no job (was in hi-tech and rif'd last year), no
desire/energy to look for one. Not sure what I can do any more. Not
sure what I want to be when I grow up. Last time I looked for a job
was almost 25 years ago.
I'm tired of depression, tired of being a slave to meds, tired of
_being_. No more friends left. Some thoughts of suicide, but I don't
think I'm going to do anything soon.
On the other hand, if I was Islamic the solution would be simple.
Become a suicide bomber and blow up some non-Islamic people and my
self and get a direct trip to heaven. What a deal! Especially if the
bomber does believe in heaven. Me, I'm an agnostic. I don't believe
that God exists, but I don't _know_ if he does or does not. And most
of the world seems to believe in God in some way, so it's likely that
I'm wrong. I do however, believe in hell, having visited it numerous
times over the last 30 years or so that I've been depressed.
If 'ya don't want to read this crap, then ignore it!
-Dave from VA
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