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arethusa wrote:
On Thu, 09 Sep 2004 03:05:57 -0300, lyssa wrote:
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it's hopelessness, dependance, disability i suppose
(how much more disabled....?)
i wonder if those who learned to trust early on feel the same (serious
question)
has anyone ever felt "secure"?
sometimes death is just simply too damned far away
a good friend is a wonderful blessing when one feels this way.
i worry so much about dumping or dragging down or worrying the friend.
lately the darkness (re: your words below) comes too often...not
entirely constant and without a doubt worse at 3 a.m.--lately every 3
a.m. :/
i feel secure in my role right now. battle-scarred and still
standing. lots of lessons learned, lots of past behind me.
now i'm curious about the future. what will it be like? what will my
grandchildren turn out to be?
neat thought :)
i am blessed with good health and
survival skills. i count my blessings a lot.
i really need to do this more
i've many (blessings)
i tend to feel guilty for most of them--even those i've fought to earn i
never quite feel deserving of
cognitive behavioral therapy, anyone? <g>
but sometimes? the darkness rages. distraction keeps be level and
balanced. not avoidance, but distraction. when i'm overwhelmed, i
distract myself until i can work through whatever it is. a survival
skill.
one i'm not very good at yet
but i'm glad you reminded me
oh, and the year-and-a-half of psych nursing did wonders for my own
mental health. i wasn't as crazy as i thought i was. coping is a
marvelous thing when one channels the anxiety and pain into healthy
outlets....
you should write a book. that would be a wonderful distraction,
lyssa.
(will think on this one)
you're not as crazy as you thought you were, either. i've been
watching you for over 6 years now...
denise
you are very kind to me, denise
thank you.
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