I'm happy to be volunteering for 'Jewish Family Services'...In general
I don't feel very attached to my religion.I don't know if I ever
really have,though I went to a very religious orthodox school for 4
years,and sunday school,and was Bar Mitzvahed,and celebrated a few of
the holidays,and went to services once or twice a year.I don't go much
anymore...We always went to a reformed synagauge...We were never
religious,though it was a bit confusing for me at first,back in 5th
grade,when I started going to that religious school...Sometimes I feel
a bit guilty,as if I'm doing something wrong by not being more
religious.I remember saying about a year ago that came out as kind of
anti-religious in fromt of an orthodox Jew.Afterwards,I felt bad
because I didn't want to offend him.I think I just have a lot of mixed
feelings(I think a part of me even felt uncomfortable about being
Jewish for a while,maybe because I already felt very different,and a
part of me really wanted to fit in,maybe also because in my 7th grade
bar mitvah class they were really mean to me.Which is dumb of course
because there were many other places I didn't fit in.From 1st grade
through 3rd they were pretty nice to me,as well as 5th through
12th.They were the worst in 4th grade,the summer before 2nd grade,7th
grade Bar mitzvah class and my 8th grade swimming lessons.),my
religious views are not at all traditional,I don't think,or connected
to any type of orthodoxy...Which I think is good,but I do feel a bit
uncomfortable about not being in closer touch with my religion.That's
why I'm happy to do volunteer work for a Jewish agency.(Though from
1993-1995,I did volunteer work at a Jewish old age home.)
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