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Sociology > Depression |
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"whiskeytown" |
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12 Nov 2003 12:02:51 AM |
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just had to vent again... |
so yeah, I come in once in a while when I have to - after a full day
of crying or a nasty drinking binge - ugh...had a bit of both....that
pledge to stay on the wagon hasn't been so easy to keep lately -
it's weird....these days when I get really depressed I can't even find
a reason anymore - I just get overwhelmed - too much sorrow in the
body to contain it -
might have a chance to get into a new relationship, but at this point,
I have to seriously question whether I think it's a good idea -
depressive suicidal alcoholics do not make the best boyfriends....I
certainly don't think it'll make me any less depressed - and I just
have to wonder if I'm even doing the right thing...
I just hurt....this blows - and I know that without pain (physical or
emotional) that we never hit some of the great highs - but WTF are the
highs....all I've ever seen are lows -
hope I don't start going to the alt.suicide newsgroup again....hope I
can keep my head abouve water a bit...
RB
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| User: "% surfs@uniserve" |
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| Title: Re: just had to vent again... |
12 Nov 2003 12:06:17 AM |
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"whiskeytown" <colorache@hotmail.com> wrote in message
news:d082b759.0311112202.3e0da846@posting.google.com...
so yeah, I come in once in a while when I have to - after a full day
of crying or a nasty drinking binge - ugh...had a bit of both....that
pledge to stay on the wagon hasn't been so easy to keep lately -
it's weird....these days when I get really depressed I can't even find
a reason anymore - I just get overwhelmed - too much sorrow in the
body to contain it -
might have a chance to get into a new relationship, but at this point,
I have to seriously question whether I think it's a good idea -
depressive suicidal alcoholics do not make the best boyfriends....I
certainly don't think it'll make me any less depressed - and I just
have to wonder if I'm even doing the right thing...
I just hurt....this blows - and I know that without pain (physical or
emotional) that we never hit some of the great highs - but WTF are the
highs....all I've ever seen are lows -
hope I don't start going to the alt.suicide newsgroup again....hope I
can keep my head abouve water a bit...
RB
i feel so blessed
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| User: "old coyote" |
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| Title: Re: just had to vent again... |
12 Nov 2003 09:14:38 PM |
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(whiskeytown) wrote in
news:d082b759.0311112202.3e0da846@posting.google.com:
so yeah, I come in once in a while when I have to - after a full day
of crying or a nasty drinking binge - ugh...had a bit of both....that
pledge to stay on the wagon hasn't been so easy to keep lately -
s'okay.
it's weird....these days when I get really depressed I can't even find
a reason anymore - I just get overwhelmed - too much sorrow in the
body to contain it -
That's clinical depression, imo. I go there myself from time to time.
might have a chance to get into a new relationship, but at this point,
I have to seriously question whether I think it's a good idea -
depressive suicidal alcoholics do not make the best boyfriends....I
certainly don't think it'll make me any less depressed - and I just
have to wonder if I'm even doing the right thing...
Don't know... Just remember that whatever you do, life is messy. Don't be
afraid to live.
I just hurt....this blows - and I know that without pain (physical or
emotional) that we never hit some of the great highs - but WTF are the
highs....all I've ever seen are lows -
Yeah, that's how it seems, I'm sure. Been there. Lots. Now, I try and
try and try to live in only this moment, right now. No tomorrow, or
yesterday. Only today.
hope I don't start going to the alt.suicide newsgroup again....hope I
can keep my head abouve water a bit...
RB
Keep treading.
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-=oc=-
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| User: "Night" |
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| Title: Re: just had to vent again... |
12 Nov 2003 11:30:27 AM |
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Believe that I have been down where you are (and may not be out yet). There
is no right thing to say, but maybe this will help...
'In a time of desolation, never forsake the good resolutions you made in
better times. Strive to remain patient--a virtue contrary to the troubles
that harass you--and remember that you will be consoled'.
.... oh, and don't try to make any important decisions during this time.
Stick to your good resolutions and wait it out.
"whiskeytown" <colorache@hotmail.com> wrote in message
news:d082b759.0311112202.3e0da846@posting.google.com...
so yeah, I come in once in a while when I have to - after a full day
of crying or a nasty drinking binge - ugh...had a bit of both....that
pledge to stay on the wagon hasn't been so easy to keep lately -
it's weird....these days when I get really depressed I can't even find
a reason anymore - I just get overwhelmed - too much sorrow in the
body to contain it -
might have a chance to get into a new relationship, but at this point,
I have to seriously question whether I think it's a good idea -
depressive suicidal alcoholics do not make the best boyfriends....I
certainly don't think it'll make me any less depressed - and I just
have to wonder if I'm even doing the right thing...
I just hurt....this blows - and I know that without pain (physical or
emotional) that we never hit some of the great highs - but WTF are the
highs....all I've ever seen are lows -
hope I don't start going to the alt.suicide newsgroup again....hope I
can keep my head abouve water a bit...
RB
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| User: "wombn" |
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| Title: Re: just had to vent again... |
12 Nov 2003 07:00:06 AM |
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On 11 Nov 2003 22:02:51 -0800, (whiskeytown)
wrote:
so yeah, I come in once in a while when I have to - after a full day
of crying or a nasty drinking binge - ugh...had a bit of both....that
pledge to stay on the wagon hasn't been so easy to keep lately -
it's weird....these days when I get really depressed I can't even find
a reason anymore - I just get overwhelmed - too much sorrow in the
body to contain it -
nod.
might have a chance to get into a new relationship, but at this point,
I have to seriously question whether I think it's a good idea -
depressive suicidal alcoholics do not make the best boyfriends....I
certainly don't think it'll make me any less depressed - and I just
have to wonder if I'm even doing the right thing...
yeah, I'm wondering that, too. Is it possible to take it slowly?
I just hurt....this blows - and I know that without pain (physical or
emotional) that we never hit some of the great highs - but WTF are the
highs....all I've ever seen are lows -
I used to be high-low. Finally decided that I'd much rather sacrifice
those highs and aim for "medium" on a mostly constant basis. I never
knew that peace <> exhilarating.
So forget about aiming for highs. Aim for medium.
hope I don't start going to the alt.suicide newsgroup again....hope I
I hope that, too.
can keep my head abouve water a bit...
<crossing fingers tightly>
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then kittens should be covered by our health insurance. :-)
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