"Franz Bestuchev" <fbestuchev@hotmail.com> wrote in message
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Charles R. Jordan wrote:
I have been suffering from Chronic Major Depression and Generalized
Anxiety Disorder daily with no relief for the past 5 years and it even
forced me to leave work and go on SSI/SSDI and I am only 37.The above
conditions are far more than enough but I also am treated for Chronic
Pain
from a neck injury,I think I am the poster child for Murphys Law.
I have been in Partial Day Hospital for the last 3 years and that is a
M-F
8-1 program and it has gotten to the point that I am not getting any
benefit
as I am now repeating what we have already hashed over,I must see the
PDOC
every Wednesday at the hospital and we have tried every possible
combination
of drugs excluding ECTs and Clozaril,he does the best he can to at least
patch the problem but as you will see the list below the "patch" will
comes
with its own set of problems.
1.Lexapro 10mg- 1 and 1/2 tablets daily
2.Adderall 20mg-2 tabs at 6am and 2 tabs at noon
3.Dextrostat 10mg-1 tab twice daily
4.Xanax 1mg-1 qid
5.Testosterone IM-injected monthly
6.Synthroid-1 daily for mood elevation
7.Promethazine 25mg-1 every 6 hours for nausea.
Chronic Pain
1.Tylox 5/500-1 capsule 5 times daily
Like I mentioned I take the above medications daily and the irony is the
Lexapro helps with the Anxiety but not the Depression?I am to take the
Amphetamines just for the stimulant effect but I have lost alot of
weight
and while I do get alot of work done I do not enjoy it and I do get a
bit
snippy with others.I have taken the Tylox for the last 6 years and yes
my
Liver Enzymes are fine,I did ask my GP for a change and was placed on
Oxycontin but it gave me a rather nasty headache so he wanted me to give
Fentynal patches a try and I stood my ground and said no.I am utterly
tired
of taking any medication as it has made me quite numb to outside events
although I am hyper aware of my feelings,the constant dry mouth and
constipation are a continuing problem but in reality there is little I
can
do to change things as I have forgot what "normal"feels like and I am
sure
if I woke up in the morning totally "normal"I fear I might miss it
thinking
it was yet another aspect of this mental illness and this is a very real
fear.
Therapy has been of some value as I do handle things in a different
way,very
little makes me mad or irritated and I really chose which debates and
arguments I want to be a part of as about 99% seem petty,I think its
just
the Depression and Lexapro leaving me with the "I could care
less"syndrome.I
feel like I have a terminal illness that never ends and that is the
sheer
torture and I fight the thoughts of suicide on a daily basis as being a
Black and White thinker makes the usual arguments against mute,all I
know is
that will end the suffering and it is the control over living or dying
that
makes me stick it out as I will know when I have had enough and thus no
debate remains.
Sorry about the rant but I needed an outlet as I am feeling very
defeated
and I have been away from therapy for 2 weeks due to a chronic medical
problem.
I look forward to any and all replies pro or con as there are thousands
of
you who can identify.
Happy Holidays
Charles
charlesrjordan@cox.net
or just hit reply.
I realize the chronic pain is a *****, but the narcs are depressants and
might be interfering with the action of the ADs. Same with the Xanax.
Why are you opposed to the Fentanyl? You can go with either the patch or
lollipops. It's a pretty effective pain killer and without the tylenol
you won't have to worry about your liver.
As for your "I could care less attitude", you're on some heavy duty
drugs...they'd have most people zombified. Are you sure it's the
Lexapro? Depression can certainly do that though.
For the poop issue get some Senokot. (Funny that it's made by
Purdue...opiate dealer to the world)
Thank You Doctor Newbie
.
