"lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
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DaKitty wrote...

"lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
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DaKitty wrote...

Loves me - Loves me not - Loves me - Loves me not

Loves me not
[sigh]

I need to give up things that I'm no good with.

ouch.
sorry to hear it.

-lisa

yeah, me too :(
I guess I just need to get used to being alone.
I don't know what's wrong with me.
I keep going to see a shrink, he keeps telling me
nothing's wrong, and yet I'm not doing well.
I don't understand. I don't know how other people do it.
I'm tired, it's all too much.
It's just too much. I don't know how much longer I can
go. I'm running on empty.

sounds like you need a rest.

there can be a good one ahead for you. takes a long time
sometimes to find him, but then he's there. joe followed
the worst, most abusive relationship of my life.

besides, some of the in-betweeners offer decent company
for awhile. it's just sad (hopefully not heart-wrenching)
at the end.

-lisa

All I hoped was to find one, just one, someone to want to
be with me. I guess that's too much to want or hope for.
By now, it doesn't matter any more. I feel so desperately
needy that I'll drive everyone away in three seconds, and I
just get needier and needier. I don't know how to get out
of it. I keep trying and trying, and it just keeps slipping
away from me. I'm trying as hard as I know how, and it
keeps slipping away farther and farther away.
I need someone I can lean on sometimes. I can't do it all
alone all the time,
I keep hearing, you're so nice to me, but... I'm not in
love with you. the last one said, I never had a girlfriend
that treated me so well... he too didn't fall in love with
me. After 10 years he still didn't know of he wanted to be
with me. by now, I get way too attached way too quickly...
like % said, someone says hi to me, and I think I'm in
love. Well, not that bad yet, but getting there.
And the panic attacks that go along with it all... I'm
broken.

"dennis" <later@notnow.net> wrote in message
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On Sun, 26 Sep 2004 23:09:42 -0700, "DaKitty"
<Imgonna@dotcomsomething.net> wrote:

I keep going to see a shrink, he keeps telling me nothing's wrong, and

yet

??? i looked at this and suddenly realised? mayby there is nothing
wrong with us. it is the shrinks that are crazy.

heh, could be... there's usually a reason why they got into that profession.

"lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
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DaKitty wrote...

"neoholistic" <ekqbwpo@terra.es> wrote in message
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DaKitty wrote:

Loves me - Loves me not - Loves me - Loves me not

Loves me not
[sigh]

I need to give up things that I'm no good with.

I did that long ago.

I think I'd just rather die. I'm no good alone, and looks
like that's where I'll end up.

do you know why the relationships die? are there similar
causes (like your mood swings)? or are they just the wrong
people all along?

-lisa

I don't know. I think I just move too fast, faster then the other person,
and when I get to a certain point, they go, sorry, I'm not there, I don't
know if I'll ever be there. Too needy I guess. And the more this goes on
the
worse, needier I get, the quicker I get dumped or pushed away.
I didn't think this one was wrong at all.
Or maybe it was, he's going through a divorce, so perhaps I was just a
rebound...
I fell in love, he didn't. That keeps happening over and over again.
So, he says, well, I don't know how I feel about you, I like you, but
there
is a part of me that keeps apart. I guess when things feel right then that
part lets go... maybe it will happen, maybe it won't.
I've heard the same thing so many times. I think it's just me, the way I
am,
but I don't know what exactly it is.
I was rambling about how I thought it would be neat to be together all the
time, blah blah... he says he hadn't thought that far ahead, that it
hasn't
crossed his mind, but, he likes me, we have fun together, he likes the way
I
make him feel, but he doesn't feel the same way about me as I feel about
him.
I think I'm too needy and drain people or something. Well, I'm not getting
any less needy. The shrink doesn't think anything is wrong, aside that I
have trouble thinking that men find me likeable or acceptable... I keep
thinking, well duh, I keep getting dumped, what else I'm supposed to
think.
And the shrink tells me, well I don't see anything wrong with you, you
just
haven't found the right one. Well, most guys don't see anything wrong
with
me at first... it's when I start really liking them that they get cold
feet.
you're soo nice but..... I don't get it!

"lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
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DaKitty wrote...

"neoholistic" <ekqbwpo@terra.es> wrote in message
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DaKitty wrote:

Loves me - Loves me not - Loves me - Loves me not

Loves me not
[sigh]

I need to give up things that I'm no good with.

I did that long ago.

I think I'd just rather die. I'm no good alone, and looks
like that's where I'll end up.

do you know why the relationships die? are there similar
causes (like your mood swings)? or are they just the wrong
people all along?

-lisa

I don't know. I think I just move too fast, faster then the other person,
and when I get to a certain point, they go, sorry, I'm not there, I don't
know if I'll ever be there. Too needy I guess. And the more this goes on the
worse, needier I get, the quicker I get dumped or pushed away.
I didn't think this one was wrong at all.
Or maybe it was, he's going through a divorce, so perhaps I was just a
rebound...
I fell in love, he didn't. That keeps happening over and over again.
So, he says, well, I don't know how I feel about you, I like you, but there
is a part of me that keeps apart. I guess when things feel right then that
part lets go... maybe it will happen, maybe it won't.
I've heard the same thing so many times. I think it's just me, the way I am,
but I don't know what exactly it is.
I was rambling about how I thought it would be neat to be together all the
time, blah blah... he says he hadn't thought that far ahead, that it hasn't
crossed his mind, but, he likes me, we have fun together, he likes the way I
make him feel, but he doesn't feel the same way about me as I feel about
him.
I think I'm too needy and drain people or something. Well, I'm not getting
any less needy. The shrink doesn't think anything is wrong, aside that I
have trouble thinking that men find me likeable or acceptable... I keep
thinking, well duh, I keep getting dumped, what else I'm supposed to think.
And the shrink tells me, well I don't see anything wrong with you, you just
haven't found the right one. Well, most guys don't see anything wrong with
me at first... it's when I start really liking them that they get cold feet.
you're soo nice but..... I don't get it!