I tend to think of life in a very linear,conventional,"soap opera"
way...in other words,I think of life in terms of melodramatic EVENTS
that happened in the past...(I have read that soap operas are extreme
intensifications of people's emotional lives.I think that's pretty
much the way I think as well...)I noticed especially in high
school,that the more nervous and anxious I was,the more I would think
of questions like "who is fighting with who?","whos is sleeping with
who?","who loves/Hates who?" ect...,in other words,the more anxious I
was,the more I had a very gossipy way of thinking...my theory now is
that I can go to the opposite extreme.If in the past,the more nervous
and anxious I was,the more I would have melodramatic thinking,then
maybe now the more calm and relaxed I am,the more low key and detached
my thinking will be...I guess it makes sense.it all goes
together...the more calm and relaxed your thoughts and feelings you
have,the more relaxed your speach will be ect...but where do you start
the cycle?with your speach?your thoughts?your feelings?that's what's
tricky.I tend to get into-and stay in-vicious negative cycles,but I
have a much harder time entering into positive cycles...