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Sociology > Depression |
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"lisa in mass." |
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14 May 2006 09:31:24 PM |
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mood swings |
i've never had swings like this. i can be perfectly fine one
hour, then a total wreck the next. two hours ago i was crying,
now i found myself wondering if i really need partial if i feel
like this. but maybe i feel ok because of numbness. i don't
really feel anything. if i bite my lip it feels like it's
happening a hundred miles away. maybe i feel awful anytime the
feelings break through. if so, i'll take numb.
-lisa
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| User: "cal" |
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| Title: Re: mood swings |
14 May 2006 10:06:30 PM |
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"lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
news:Xns97C3E518AB560mccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4...
i've never had swings like this. i can be perfectly fine one
hour, then a total wreck the next. two hours ago i was crying,
now i found myself wondering if i really need partial if i feel
like this.
i was like this on friday all day. i was supposed to go out for some reason
but i forgot what it was but i went out anyway and i ended up crying on a
park bench. do you get really forgetful when this stuff happens? one day
last week i couldn't even remember my doctor's name. i recognized it by
reading over my address book. "oh yeah, that's it." duh, let's try calling
him now.
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| User: "lisa in mass." |
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| Title: Re: mood swings |
14 May 2006 10:56:35 PM |
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cal wrote...
"lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
news:Xns97C3E518AB560mccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4...
i've never had swings like this. i can be perfectly fine
one hour, then a total wreck the next. two hours ago i was
crying, now i found myself wondering if i really need
partial if i feel like this.
i was like this on friday all day. i was supposed to go out
for some reason but i forgot what it was but i went out
anyway and i ended up crying on a park bench. do you get
really forgetful when this stuff happens? one day last week
i couldn't even remember my doctor's name. i recognized it
by reading over my address book. "oh yeah, that's it." duh,
let's try calling him now.
i've been terribly forgetful. at partial, i had to look up one
of my doc's names. and i've been in groups all day with people
for 6 days now, and only remember one out of a dozen names.
tomorrow i see my therp, who's transitioning between offices,
and was planning to go to the wrong town. i had my whole day
planned around my being in amherst. maybe i'm not as ok as i
feel atm.
-lisa
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| User: "Apophis" |
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| Title: Re: mood swings |
14 May 2006 09:52:46 PM |
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I'm sorry to hear that you're having it rough.I was bad like this last
year. Fine one moment and then sobbing the next. Sometimes just for
minutes at a time. Played hell on me because I don't normally cry. I
still get this way once in a while but not nearly as bad as when I
worked for my old job. I quit there and alot of the depression/anxiety
lifted but I still have it. I haven't worked since June 05 and I start
a new job on Monday, so hopefully all goes well and I can get back on
meds.
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| User: "lisa in mass." |
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| Title: Re: mood swings |
14 May 2006 10:44:30 PM |
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Apophis wrote...
I'm sorry to hear that you're having it rough.I was bad
like this last year. Fine one moment and then sobbing the
next. Sometimes just for minutes at a time. Played hell on
me because I don't normally cry. I still get this way once
in a while but not nearly as bad as when I worked for my
old job. I quit there and alot of the depression/anxiety
lifted but I still have it. I haven't worked since June 05
and I start a new job on Monday, so hopefully all goes well
and I can get back on meds.
thanks, and good luck with the job! i hope it's a good fit for
you.
-lisa
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| User: "Alan Harding" |
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| Title: Re: mood swings |
15 May 2006 06:08:38 PM |
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In message <Xns97C3E518AB560mccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4>, lisa in mass.
<mccats@rcn.com> writes
i've never had swings like this. i can be perfectly fine one
hour, then a total wreck the next. two hours ago i was crying,
now i found myself wondering if i really need partial if i feel
like this. but maybe i feel ok because of numbness. i don't
really feel anything. if i bite my lip it feels like it's
happening a hundred miles away. maybe i feel awful anytime the
feelings break through. if so, i'll take numb.
Welcome to the rapid cycling club. I can crash into the Pit in minutes,
without warning, but it takes hours to climb out. I try to sleep it off,
which usually works to some extent. I like sleep.
I tend to have periods of a week or so when it happens, then I get back
to some level of stability. No doubt you're still finding new
side-effects of the wash-out. Did you do this before you found Parnate,
or is it something completely new?
--
The opinions given above may be mine. They might also
just be what I feel like saying right now, okay?
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| User: "lisa in mass." |
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| Title: Re: mood swings |
15 May 2006 09:50:28 PM |
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Alan Harding wrote...
In message <Xns97C3E518AB560mccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4>,
lisa in mass. <mccats@rcn.com> writes
i've never had swings like this. i can be perfectly fine
one hour, then a total wreck the next. two hours ago i was
crying, now i found myself wondering if i really need
partial if i feel like this. but maybe i feel ok because of
numbness. i don't really feel anything. if i bite my lip it
feels like it's happening a hundred miles away. maybe i
feel awful anytime the feelings break through. if so, i'll
take numb.
Welcome to the rapid cycling club. I can crash into the Pit
in minutes, without warning, but it takes hours to climb
out. I try to sleep it off, which usually works to some
extent. I like sleep.
I tend to have periods of a week or so when it happens,
then I get back to some level of stability. No doubt you're
still finding new side-effects of the wash-out. Did you do
this before you found Parnate, or is it something
completely new?
i used to cycle, though not so rapidly. lamictal fixed it.
this seems to be a degree of dissociation that i'm passing in
and out of. when i'm halfway elsewhere, all the pain goes away
and i feel fine. i shouldn't. in the long run, it's better to
stay feeling. in the moment, i wish i didn't know that...
-lisa
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| User: "%" |
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| Title: Re: mood swings |
15 May 2006 09:56:22 PM |
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"lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
news:Xns97C4E857ABF4Dmccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4...
Alan Harding wrote...
In message <Xns97C3E518AB560mccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4>,
lisa in mass. <mccats@rcn.com> writes
i've never had swings like this. i can be perfectly fine
one hour, then a total wreck the next. two hours ago i was
crying, now i found myself wondering if i really need
partial if i feel like this. but maybe i feel ok because of
numbness. i don't really feel anything. if i bite my lip it
feels like it's happening a hundred miles away. maybe i
feel awful anytime the feelings break through. if so, i'll
take numb.
Welcome to the rapid cycling club. I can crash into the Pit
in minutes, without warning, but it takes hours to climb
out. I try to sleep it off, which usually works to some
extent. I like sleep.
I tend to have periods of a week or so when it happens,
then I get back to some level of stability. No doubt you're
still finding new side-effects of the wash-out. Did you do
this before you found Parnate, or is it something
completely new?
i used to cycle, though not so rapidly. lamictal fixed it.
this seems to be a degree of dissociation that i'm passing in
and out of. when i'm halfway elsewhere, all the pain goes away
and i feel fine. i shouldn't. in the long run, it's better to
stay feeling. in the moment, i wish i didn't know that...
-lisa
like , partial
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| User: "lisa in mass." |
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| Title: Re: mood swings |
15 May 2006 11:07:15 PM |
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% wrote...
"lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
news:Xns97C4E857ABF4Dmccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4...
Alan Harding wrote...
In message
<Xns97C3E518AB560mccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4>, lisa in
mass. <mccats@rcn.com> writes
i've never had swings like this. i can be perfectly fine
one hour, then a total wreck the next. two hours ago i
was crying, now i found myself wondering if i really
need partial if i feel like this. but maybe i feel ok
because of numbness. i don't really feel anything. if i
bite my lip it feels like it's happening a hundred miles
away. maybe i feel awful anytime the feelings break
through. if so, i'll take numb.
Welcome to the rapid cycling club. I can crash into the
Pit in minutes, without warning, but it takes hours to
climb out. I try to sleep it off, which usually works to
some extent. I like sleep.
I tend to have periods of a week or so when it happens,
then I get back to some level of stability. No doubt
you're still finding new side-effects of the wash-out.
Did you do this before you found Parnate, or is it
something completely new?
i used to cycle, though not so rapidly. lamictal fixed it.
this seems to be a degree of dissociation that i'm passing
in and out of. when i'm halfway elsewhere, all the pain
goes away and i feel fine. i shouldn't. in the long run,
it's better to stay feeling. in the moment, i wish i
didn't know that...
-lisa
like , partial
each day at partial, my goal is to stay present and in the
moment. it would be too easy to allow myself to drift off into
my comfortable fog. the problem with the fog is that the
longer i stay there, the harder it is to find my way out. so
i'm present as much as i can be, knowing that it's a safe
place to feel pain, and if i get too swamped there's help
available. sometimes, partial's a good place for me to be.
-lisa
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| User: "Alan Harding" |
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| Title: Re: mood swings |
20 May 2006 06:00:42 PM |
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In message <Xns97C4E857ABF4Dmccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4>, lisa in mass.
<mccats@rcn.com> writes
Alan Harding wrote...
In message <Xns97C3E518AB560mccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4>,
lisa in mass. <mccats@rcn.com> writes
i've never had swings like this. i can be perfectly fine
one hour, then a total wreck the next. two hours ago i was
crying, now i found myself wondering if i really need
partial if i feel like this. but maybe i feel ok because of
numbness. i don't really feel anything. if i bite my lip it
feels like it's happening a hundred miles away. maybe i
feel awful anytime the feelings break through. if so, i'll
take numb.
Welcome to the rapid cycling club. I can crash into the Pit
in minutes, without warning, but it takes hours to climb
out. I try to sleep it off, which usually works to some
extent. I like sleep.
I tend to have periods of a week or so when it happens,
then I get back to some level of stability. No doubt you're
still finding new side-effects of the wash-out. Did you do
this before you found Parnate, or is it something
completely new?
i used to cycle, though not so rapidly. lamictal fixed it.
this seems to be a degree of dissociation that i'm passing in
and out of. when i'm halfway elsewhere, all the pain goes away
and i feel fine. i shouldn't. in the long run, it's better to
stay feeling. in the moment, i wish i didn't know that...
We've worked out that my recent problems with mood swings and protracted
declines are almost certainly due to swapping lithium (which worked) for
lamotrigine (which doesn't). I'm currently on both - I come off the
lamotrigine when the lithium's at therapeutic levels. Maybe upping the
lamotrigine would help you. As I said, it may not work too well, but I
am allowed to increase my dosage when I'm seriously down or unstable.
--
The opinions given above may be mine. They might also
just be what I feel like saying right now, okay?
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| User: "%" |
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| Title: Re: mood swings |
20 May 2006 06:26:49 PM |
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"Alan Harding" <Alan@harding.demon.co.uk> wrote in message
news:DI6JGqLa+5bEFwjW@harding.demon.co.uk...
In message <Xns97C4E857ABF4Dmccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4>, lisa in mass.
<mccats@rcn.com> writes
Alan Harding wrote...
In message <Xns97C3E518AB560mccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4>,
lisa in mass. <mccats@rcn.com> writes
i've never had swings like this. i can be perfectly fine
one hour, then a total wreck the next. two hours ago i was
crying, now i found myself wondering if i really need
partial if i feel like this. but maybe i feel ok because of
numbness. i don't really feel anything. if i bite my lip it
feels like it's happening a hundred miles away. maybe i
feel awful anytime the feelings break through. if so, i'll
take numb.
Welcome to the rapid cycling club. I can crash into the Pit
in minutes, without warning, but it takes hours to climb
out. I try to sleep it off, which usually works to some
extent. I like sleep.
I tend to have periods of a week or so when it happens,
then I get back to some level of stability. No doubt you're
still finding new side-effects of the wash-out. Did you do
this before you found Parnate, or is it something
completely new?
i used to cycle, though not so rapidly. lamictal fixed it.
this seems to be a degree of dissociation that i'm passing in
and out of. when i'm halfway elsewhere, all the pain goes away
and i feel fine. i shouldn't. in the long run, it's better to
stay feeling. in the moment, i wish i didn't know that...
We've worked out that my recent problems with mood swings and protracted
declines are almost certainly due to swapping lithium (which worked) for
lamotrigine (which doesn't). I'm currently on both - I come off the
lamotrigine when the lithium's at therapeutic levels. Maybe upping the
lamotrigine would help you. As I said, it may not work too well, but I
am allowed to increase my dosage when I'm seriously down or unstable.
--
The opinions given above may be mine. They might also
just be what I feel like saying right now, okay?
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| User: "lisa in mass." |
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| Title: Re: mood swings |
20 May 2006 08:51:52 PM |
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Alan Harding wrote...
In message <Xns97C4E857ABF4Dmccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4>,
lisa in mass. <mccats@rcn.com> writes
Alan Harding wrote...
In message
<Xns97C3E518AB560mccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4>, lisa in
mass. <mccats@rcn.com> writes
i've never had swings like this. i can be perfectly fine
one hour, then a total wreck the next. two hours ago i
was crying, now i found myself wondering if i really need
partial if i feel like this. but maybe i feel ok because
of numbness. i don't really feel anything. if i bite my
lip it feels like it's happening a hundred miles away.
maybe i feel awful anytime the feelings break through. if
so, i'll take numb.
Welcome to the rapid cycling club. I can crash into the
Pit in minutes, without warning, but it takes hours to
climb out. I try to sleep it off, which usually works to
some extent. I like sleep.
I tend to have periods of a week or so when it happens,
then I get back to some level of stability. No doubt
you're still finding new side-effects of the wash-out.
Did you do this before you found Parnate, or is it
something completely new?
i used to cycle, though not so rapidly. lamictal fixed it.
this seems to be a degree of dissociation that i'm passing
in and out of. when i'm halfway elsewhere, all the pain
goes away and i feel fine. i shouldn't. in the long run,
it's better to stay feeling. in the moment, i wish i didn't
know that...
We've worked out that my recent problems with mood swings
and protracted declines are almost certainly due to
swapping lithium (which worked) for lamotrigine (which
doesn't). I'm currently on both - I come off the
lamotrigine when the lithium's at therapeutic levels. Maybe
upping the lamotrigine would help you. As I said, it may
not work too well, but I am allowed to increase my dosage
when I'm seriously down or unstable.
i'm already on as much lamotrigine as my pdoc's comfortable
with. i'm not sure now that it's mood swings. i think it's the
difference between feeling and being numb. neither is good.
-lisa
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| User: "Alan Harding" |
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| Title: Re: mood swings |
21 May 2006 07:32:17 AM |
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In message <Xns97C9DE5EEFBBFmccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4>, lisa in mass.
<mccats@rcn.com> writes
Alan Harding wrote...
In message <Xns97C4E857ABF4Dmccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4>,
lisa in mass. <mccats@rcn.com> writes
Alan Harding wrote...
In message
<Xns97C3E518AB560mccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4>, lisa in
mass. <mccats@rcn.com> writes
i've never had swings like this. i can be perfectly fine
one hour, then a total wreck the next. two hours ago i
was crying, now i found myself wondering if i really need
partial if i feel like this. but maybe i feel ok because
of numbness. i don't really feel anything. if i bite my
lip it feels like it's happening a hundred miles away.
maybe i feel awful anytime the feelings break through. if
so, i'll take numb.
Welcome to the rapid cycling club. I can crash into the
Pit in minutes, without warning, but it takes hours to
climb out. I try to sleep it off, which usually works to
some extent. I like sleep.
I tend to have periods of a week or so when it happens,
then I get back to some level of stability. No doubt
you're still finding new side-effects of the wash-out.
Did you do this before you found Parnate, or is it
something completely new?
i used to cycle, though not so rapidly. lamictal fixed it.
this seems to be a degree of dissociation that i'm passing
in and out of. when i'm halfway elsewhere, all the pain
goes away and i feel fine. i shouldn't. in the long run,
it's better to stay feeling. in the moment, i wish i didn't
know that...
We've worked out that my recent problems with mood swings
and protracted declines are almost certainly due to
swapping lithium (which worked) for lamotrigine (which
doesn't). I'm currently on both - I come off the
lamotrigine when the lithium's at therapeutic levels. Maybe
upping the lamotrigine would help you. As I said, it may
not work too well, but I am allowed to increase my dosage
when I'm seriously down or unstable.
i'm already on as much lamotrigine as my pdoc's comfortable
with. i'm not sure now that it's mood swings. i think it's the
difference between feeling and being numb. neither is good.
True. Feeling I end up suicidal; numb I end up catatonic. I'll settle
for comfortably depressed.
--
The opinions given above may be mine. They might also
just be what I feel like saying right now, okay?
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| User: "Bacon" |
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| Title: Re: mood swings |
14 May 2006 09:55:55 PM |
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On 15 May 2006 02:31:24 GMT, "lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
i've never had swings like this. i can be perfectly fine one
hour, then a total wreck the next. two hours ago i was crying,
now i found myself wondering if i really need partial if i feel
like this. but maybe i feel ok because of numbness. i don't
really feel anything. if i bite my lip it feels like it's
happening a hundred miles away. maybe i feel awful anytime the
feelings break through. if so, i'll take numb.
Wonder where Dr. Nome's been, maybe he'd be familiar with symptoms
like that. Hope you get some sleep.
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| User: "lisa in mass." |
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| Title: Re: mood swings |
14 May 2006 10:48:22 PM |
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Bacon wrote...
On 15 May 2006 02:31:24 GMT, "lisa in mass."
<mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
i've never had swings like this. i can be perfectly fine
one hour, then a total wreck the next. two hours ago i was
crying, now i found myself wondering if i really need
partial if i feel like this. but maybe i feel ok because of
numbness. i don't really feel anything. if i bite my lip it
feels like it's happening a hundred miles away. maybe i
feel awful anytime the feelings break through. if so, i'll
take numb.
Wonder where Dr. Nome's been, maybe he'd be familiar with
symptoms like that. Hope you get some sleep.
i've been numb before. when i feel too bad for too long, i just
shut down my emotions and feel nothing. it feels better, but
when i finally let the emotions back in, i tend to get swamped.
it's time to work on regulation again, i think.
-lisa
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| User: "David" |
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| Title: Re: mood swings |
14 May 2006 09:35:35 PM |
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Sorry you're having a rough night.
lisa in mass. wrote:
i've never had swings like this. i can be perfectly fine one
hour, then a total wreck the next. two hours ago i was crying,
now i found myself wondering if i really need partial if i feel
like this. but maybe i feel ok because of numbness. i don't
really feel anything. if i bite my lip it feels like it's
happening a hundred miles away. maybe i feel awful anytime the
feelings break through. if so, i'll take numb.
-lisa
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| User: "lisa in mass." |
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| Title: Re: mood swings |
14 May 2006 10:42:32 PM |
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thanks david. the thing is that overall it doesn't feel so bad.
i'll have a period of feeling bad, then i'm fine again. i'm just
not sure if it's numbness that's doing it. if so, i'll take it
anyway.
-lisa
David wrote...
Sorry you're having a rough night.
lisa in mass. wrote:
i've never had swings like this. i can be perfectly fine
one hour, then a total wreck the next. two hours ago i was
crying, now i found myself wondering if i really need
partial if i feel like this. but maybe i feel ok because
of numbness. i don't really feel anything. if i bite my
lip it feels like it's happening a hundred miles away.
maybe i feel awful anytime the feelings break through. if
so, i'll take numb.
-lisa
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