Depression can make you think of the future, and make you
even more depressed sometimes. I hope you enjoy the visit,
I have on occasion have problems with my dad, but also deal
with neighbors, and other fears, like online. Glad to see
you back.

David

"lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
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is, as of yesterday, 80 years old. none of his blood
relatives has lived so long. he's doing pretty well, but i
know i won't have him too much longer. it's surprising
that someone whose first heart attack was at age 40 has
lived so long as it is. i should just enjoy this time with
him, but i can't help but think about how much i'll miss
him.

-lisa

Depression can make you think of the future, and make you even more
depressed sometimes. I hope you enjoy the visit, I have on occasion have
problems with my dad, but also deal with neighbors, and other fears, like
online. Glad to see you back.

David

"lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
news:Xns98B1DF3AECEDEmccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4...

is, as of yesterday, 80 years old. none of his blood relatives
has lived so long. he's doing pretty well, but i know i won't
have him too much longer. it's surprising that someone whose
first heart attack was at age 40 has lived so long as it is. i
should just enjoy this time with him, but i can't help but think
about how much i'll miss him.

-lisa

lisa in mass. wrote:

is, as of yesterday, 80 years old. none of his blood relatives
has lived so long. he's doing pretty well, but i know i won't
have him too much longer. it's surprising that someone whose
first heart attack was at age 40 has lived so long as it is. i
should just enjoy this time with him, but i can't help but think
about how much i'll miss him.

-lisa

This is soooo wierd. My Da will be 80 on the 20th. He had his
first heart attack at 42. He has had three now. He has had two
bypass operations. He had a pacemaker put in last year. The
doctors are blown away that he is still kickin. Nobody is more
suprised then Da. He has had one foot in the grave for thirty years
now. Who says god does not have a sense of humor.
It is really hard for me to think about losing him. I see this
tiny little old man and I just ache with love for him. He thinks if
we really knew him we wouldn't be able to love him.
So if we do love him it's because he's got us all fooled. I am the
same way. I am my father's daughter in so many ways. My Mother use to
say he spit me out. That way she could get us both with a single shot.
It is true that the older I get the more I am like him, proud of it
too, he is a good man he just doesn't know it. There are areas where
we are very different. He is deeply religious , even when everything
in him screams it couldn't possibly be true he chooses to believe. I
hope for his sake it is all true.
Dad has had alot of health problems this year , he is down to 110
pounds , he claims his taste buds have already died,
I can't bear to think of not having him in my life. who will blame
me for everything even if it couldn't possibly be my fault. Who will
come around the corner in his old grapes of wrath pick up and rescue me
when my battery goes dead. Who will bug me to save all my alluminum
cans so he can send the money to the poor indian kids in mexico. Who
will fight with me about how we have to stay the course in Iraq because
, well dad would vote for mickey if he ran on the rebuplican ticket,
I tell him I love him but you know if he doesn't know that by now he
never will. I try to be there to do what I can. I remember last
time he was in the hospital I couldn't find his room and I was
wandering the halls carrying his teeth in a little plastic cup. I
really hope I survive losing him , I don't know if I will I really
don't know how I will bear it, JILL