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Sociology > Depression |
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"Bacon" |
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12 Jan 2007 11:12:53 PM |
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My Goodbye Letter (to alcohol) |
We had to write these goodbye letters in the dual diagnosis (mental
illness & addiction) outpatient program at Edgewood addressed to our
substance of choice. Still on the wagon but % has me thinking
cranberry and vodka, just kidding.
January 27, 2005
Dear Alcohol:
I can live without you. You've defined me and my personality since I
was in high school. I haven't had a night out and barely a night in
without you. When I wasn't in the process of drinking, I was thinking
about my next drink. You have consumed most of my energy and thoughts
for as long as I can remember. I've been without you for 2 weeks and
it feels so good. I sleep better, think more clearly and have more
free time.
You've accompanied me to weddings, funerals, proms, parties, work,
baseball games, meetings, golf outings, movies, holidays, weekends,
weeknights and every other aspect of my life. It is difficult to
imagine life without you. I like the buzz but hate the hangovers and
the guilt. If I don't go on without you, you will kill me. My life
is not manageable with you in it. You are not my friend, you are my
worst enemy and I have to live my life like a normal person, and this
cannot and will not include you.
Goodbye forever and good riddance.
Bob
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| User: "%" |
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| Title: Re: My Goodbye Letter (to alcohol) |
12 Jan 2007 11:16:15 PM |
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"Bacon" <rbkfour@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:07qgq2ps92654vj0bavm5dkfjtaafgmsmr@4ax.com...
We had to write these goodbye letters in the dual diagnosis (mental
illness & addiction) outpatient program at Edgewood addressed to our
substance of choice. Still on the wagon but % has me thinking
cranberry and vodka, just kidding.
January 27, 2005
Dear Alcohol:
I can live without you. You've defined me and my personality since I
was in high school. I haven't had a night out and barely a night in
without you. When I wasn't in the process of drinking, I was thinking
about my next drink. You have consumed most of my energy and thoughts
for as long as I can remember. I've been without you for 2 weeks and
it feels so good. I sleep better, think more clearly and have more
free time.
You've accompanied me to weddings, funerals, proms, parties, work,
baseball games, meetings, golf outings, movies, holidays, weekends,
weeknights and every other aspect of my life. It is difficult to
imagine life without you. I like the buzz but hate the hangovers and
the guilt. If I don't go on without you, you will kill me. My life
is not manageable with you in it. You are not my friend, you are my
worst enemy and I have to live my life like a normal person, and this
cannot and will not include you.
Goodbye forever and good riddance.
Bob
P ' HA ! oh by the way , normal people drink alcohol too
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| User: "GlennT" |
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| Title: Re: My Goodbye Letter (to alcohol) |
12 Jan 2007 11:20:11 PM |
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% wrote:
"Bacon" <rbkfour@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:07qgq2ps92654vj0bavm5dkfjtaafgmsmr@4ax.com...
We had to write these goodbye letters in the dual diagnosis (mental
illness & addiction) outpatient program at Edgewood addressed to our
substance of choice. Still on the wagon but % has me thinking
cranberry and vodka, just kidding.
January 27, 2005
Dear Alcohol:
I can live without you. You've defined me and my personality since I
was in high school. I haven't had a night out and barely a night in
without you. When I wasn't in the process of drinking, I was thinking
about my next drink. You have consumed most of my energy and thoughts
for as long as I can remember. I've been without you for 2 weeks and
it feels so good. I sleep better, think more clearly and have more
free time.
You've accompanied me to weddings, funerals, proms, parties, work,
baseball games, meetings, golf outings, movies, holidays, weekends,
weeknights and every other aspect of my life. It is difficult to
imagine life without you. I like the buzz but hate the hangovers and
the guilt. If I don't go on without you, you will kill me. My life
is not manageable with you in it. You are not my friend, you are my
worst enemy and I have to live my life like a normal person, and this
cannot and will not include you.
Goodbye forever and good riddance.
Bob
P ' HA ! oh by the way , normal people drink alcohol too
Whatever is killing you doesn't make you stronger. I can handle alcohol
but I'm not normal and it is one of the few vices I can handle. I know
others are different.
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| User: "Bacon" |
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| Title: Re: My Goodbye Letter (to alcohol) |
12 Jan 2007 11:52:30 PM |
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On Fri, 12 Jan 2007 22:16:15 -0700, "%" <persent@gmail.com> wrote:
"Bacon" <rbkfour@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:07qgq2ps92654vj0bavm5dkfjtaafgmsmr@4ax.com...
We had to write these goodbye letters in the dual diagnosis (mental
illness & addiction) outpatient program at Edgewood addressed to our
substance of choice. Still on the wagon but % has me thinking
cranberry and vodka, just kidding.
January 27, 2005
Dear Alcohol:
I can live without you. You've defined me and my personality since I
was in high school. I haven't had a night out and barely a night in
without you. When I wasn't in the process of drinking, I was thinking
about my next drink. You have consumed most of my energy and thoughts
for as long as I can remember. I've been without you for 2 weeks and
it feels so good. I sleep better, think more clearly and have more
free time.
You've accompanied me to weddings, funerals, proms, parties, work,
baseball games, meetings, golf outings, movies, holidays, weekends,
weeknights and every other aspect of my life. It is difficult to
imagine life without you. I like the buzz but hate the hangovers and
the guilt. If I don't go on without you, you will kill me. My life
is not manageable with you in it. You are not my friend, you are my
worst enemy and I have to live my life like a normal person, and this
cannot and will not include you.
Goodbye forever and good riddance.
Bob
P ' HA ! oh by the way , normal people drink alcohol too
Oh of course, I fully support drinking. I just wasn't normal when I
drank...not that I am now but you know what I mean, maybe
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| User: "Fret bored" |
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| Title: Re: My Goodbye Letter (to alcohol) |
13 Jan 2007 12:22:52 AM |
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"Bacon" <rbkfour@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:ursgq2hd53478gt9odlmborb4653ri94a9@4ax.com...
On Fri, 12 Jan 2007 22:16:15 -0700, "%" <persent@gmail.com> wrote:
"Bacon" <rbkfour@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:07qgq2ps92654vj0bavm5dkfjtaafgmsmr@4ax.com...
We had to write these goodbye letters in the dual diagnosis (mental
illness & addiction) outpatient program at Edgewood addressed to our
substance of choice. Still on the wagon but % has me thinking
cranberry and vodka, just kidding.
January 27, 2005
Dear Alcohol:
I can live without you. You've defined me and my personality since I
was in high school. I haven't had a night out and barely a night in
without you. When I wasn't in the process of drinking, I was thinking
about my next drink. You have consumed most of my energy and thoughts
for as long as I can remember. I've been without you for 2 weeks and
it feels so good. I sleep better, think more clearly and have more
free time.
You've accompanied me to weddings, funerals, proms, parties, work,
baseball games, meetings, golf outings, movies, holidays, weekends,
weeknights and every other aspect of my life. It is difficult to
imagine life without you. I like the buzz but hate the hangovers and
the guilt. If I don't go on without you, you will kill me. My life
is not manageable with you in it. You are not my friend, you are my
worst enemy and I have to live my life like a normal person, and this
cannot and will not include you.
Goodbye forever and good riddance.
Bob
P ' HA ! oh by the way , normal people drink alcohol too
Oh of course, I fully support drinking. I just wasn't normal when I
drank...not that I am now but you know what I mean, maybe
You have nearly a year. I could tell ya my story, but it's long, so I won't
here. But I am a different guy when I drink. // I think everybody knows
at least one person that they wish wouldn't drink, because of the complete
immediate personality change. I also know a few that I wish would get
schnookered, just so I could hear the truth for once.
Not drinking sucked after 10 years, I felt that life was getting boring, and
I lost my connection to the program.
All I can say is that I started the holidays a month early, and ended a week
late. But I didn't do it tonight. Sometimes a binge and all it's
consequences feels like a mini-suicide which I survive.
Cheers
Frett
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| User: "Bacon" |
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| Title: Re: My Goodbye Letter (to alcohol) |
13 Jan 2007 01:06:51 AM |
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On Sat, 13 Jan 2007 01:22:52 -0500, "Fret bored"
<adriftversion@yahoo.com> wrote:
"Bacon" <rbkfour@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:ursgq2hd53478gt9odlmborb4653ri94a9@4ax.com...
On Fri, 12 Jan 2007 22:16:15 -0700, "%" <persent@gmail.com> wrote:
"Bacon" <rbkfour@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:07qgq2ps92654vj0bavm5dkfjtaafgmsmr@4ax.com...
We had to write these goodbye letters in the dual diagnosis (mental
illness & addiction) outpatient program at Edgewood addressed to our
substance of choice. Still on the wagon but % has me thinking
cranberry and vodka, just kidding.
January 27, 2005
Dear Alcohol:
I can live without you. You've defined me and my personality since I
was in high school. I haven't had a night out and barely a night in
without you. When I wasn't in the process of drinking, I was thinking
about my next drink. You have consumed most of my energy and thoughts
for as long as I can remember. I've been without you for 2 weeks and
it feels so good. I sleep better, think more clearly and have more
free time.
You've accompanied me to weddings, funerals, proms, parties, work,
baseball games, meetings, golf outings, movies, holidays, weekends,
weeknights and every other aspect of my life. It is difficult to
imagine life without you. I like the buzz but hate the hangovers and
the guilt. If I don't go on without you, you will kill me. My life
is not manageable with you in it. You are not my friend, you are my
worst enemy and I have to live my life like a normal person, and this
cannot and will not include you.
Goodbye forever and good riddance.
Bob
P ' HA ! oh by the way , normal people drink alcohol too
Oh of course, I fully support drinking. I just wasn't normal when I
drank...not that I am now but you know what I mean, maybe
You have nearly a year. I could tell ya my story, but it's long, so I won't
here. But I am a different guy when I drink. // I think everybody knows
at least one person that they wish wouldn't drink, because of the complete
immediate personality change. I also know a few that I wish would get
schnookered, just so I could hear the truth for once.
Not drinking sucked after 10 years, I felt that life was getting boring, and
I lost my connection to the program.
All I can say is that I started the holidays a month early, and ended a week
late. But I didn't do it tonight. Sometimes a binge and all it's
consequences feels like a mini-suicide which I survive.
Cheers
Frett
Now that you mention it, I stopped on June 16th, this letter is dated
January 27...forgot I continued drinking after rehab until I wrecked
the car drunk and on ambien...then I quit. I have over 18 months now.
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| User: "" |
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| Title: Re: My Goodbye Letter (to alcohol) |
13 Jan 2007 01:26:03 AM |
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On Jan 13, 2:06 am, Bacon <rbkf...@yahoo.com> wrote:
On Sat, 13 Jan 2007 01:22:52 -0500, "Fret bored"
<adriftvers...@yahoo.com> wrote:
"Bacon" <rbkf...@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:ursgq2hd53478gt9odlmborb4653ri94a9@4ax.com...
On Fri, 12 Jan 2007 22:16:15 -0700, "%" <pers...@gmail.com> wrote:
"Bacon" <rbkf...@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:07qgq2ps92654vj0bavm5dkfjtaafgmsmr@4ax.com...
We had to write these goodbye letters in the dual diagnosis (mental
illness & addiction) outpatient program at Edgewood addressed to our
substance of choice. Still on the wagon but % has me thinking
cranberry and vodka, just kidding.
January 27, 2005
Dear Alcohol:
I can live without you. You've defined me and my personality since I
was in high school. I haven't had a night out and barely a night in
without you. When I wasn't in the process of drinking, I was thinking
about my next drink. You have consumed most of my energy and thoughts
for as long as I can remember. I've been without you for 2 weeks and
it feels so good. I sleep better, think more clearly and have more
free time.
You've accompanied me to weddings, funerals, proms, parties, work,
baseball games, meetings, golf outings, movies, holidays, weekends,
weeknights and every other aspect of my life. It is difficult to
imagine life without you. I like the buzz but hate the hangovers and
the guilt. If I don't go on without you, you will kill me. My life
is not manageable with you in it. You are not my friend, you are my
worst enemy and I have to live my life like a normal person, and this
cannot and will not include you.
Goodbye forever and good riddance.
Bob
P ' HA ! oh by the way , normal people drink alcohol too
Oh of course, I fully support drinking. I just wasn't normal when I
drank...not that I am now but you know what I mean, maybe
You have nearly a year. I could tell ya my story, but it's long, so I won't
here. But I am a different guy when I drink. // I think everybody knows
at least one person that they wish wouldn't drink, because of the complete
immediate personality change. I also know a few that I wish would get
schnookered, just so I could hear the truth for once.
Not drinking sucked after 10 years, I felt that life was getting boring, and
I lost my connection to the program.
All I can say is that I started the holidays a month early, and ended a week
late. But I didn't do it tonight. Sometimes a binge and all it's
consequences feels like a mini-suicide which I survive.
Cheers
FrettNow that you mention it, I stopped on June 16th, this letter is dated
January 27
It's also dated 2005, which I thought was last year.
....forgot I continued drinking after rehab until I wrecked
the car drunk and on ambien..
ooo...a patrick kennedy. He did that this summer
..then I quit. I have over 18 months now.
Well, it's something to hang onto. I know when I re-started, it caused
a lot of problems that I didn't have for ten years.
they say the first time, it's a gift. the second time, if I get one,
is something that takes work.
I do remember that no matter how bad it got during the dry years, I
could always say, "at least I wasn't drinking." I remember going to
the ER at 11pm when my dog scratched my cornea, and as the nurse was
looking at my eye, I was thinking, "Hey. I'm not drunk. She's in my
face, and it's 11 o'clock, and I don't smell of booze."
That was a good feeling. I miss it. Never know when a squirrel might
bite my ear lobe.
--
Frett
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| User: "used2be" |
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| Title: Re: My Goodbye Letter (to alcohol) |
13 Jan 2007 09:53:21 AM |
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"Bacon" <rbkfour@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:07qgq2ps92654vj0bavm5dkfjtaafgmsmr@4ax.com...
We had to write these goodbye letters in the dual diagnosis (mental
illness & addiction) outpatient program at Edgewood addressed to our
substance of choice. Still on the wagon but % has me thinking
cranberry and vodka, just kidding.
January 27, 2005
<snip>
and there's the most important birthday of all...the day you embraced
sobriety. did you go into rehab on your real birthday, bacon?
more power to ya!!!!!!
~u2b
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| User: "Bacon" |
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| Title: Re: My Goodbye Letter (to alcohol) |
13 Jan 2007 07:30:34 PM |
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On Sat, 13 Jan 2007 09:53:21 -0600, "used2be" <used2be@nowhere.com>
wrote:
"Bacon" <rbkfour@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:07qgq2ps92654vj0bavm5dkfjtaafgmsmr@4ax.com...
We had to write these goodbye letters in the dual diagnosis (mental
illness & addiction) outpatient program at Edgewood addressed to our
substance of choice. Still on the wagon but % has me thinking
cranberry and vodka, just kidding.
January 27, 2005
<snip>
and there's the most important birthday of all...the day you embraced
sobriety. did you go into rehab on your real birthday, bacon?
more power to ya!!!!!!
~u2b
I think I went in before and I only spent one night in and had to get
out...
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| User: "Frettbored" |
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| Title: Re: My Goodbye Letter (to alcohol) |
13 Jan 2007 08:31:02 PM |
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Bacon wrote:
On Sat, 13 Jan 2007 09:53:21 -0600, "used2be" <used2be@nowhere.com>
wrote:
"Bacon" <rbkfour@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:07qgq2ps92654vj0bavm5dkfjtaafgmsmr@4ax.com...
We had to write these goodbye letters in the dual diagnosis (mental
illness & addiction) outpatient program at Edgewood addressed to our
substance of choice. Still on the wagon but % has me thinking
cranberry and vodka, just kidding.
January 27, 2005
<snip>
and there's the most important birthday of all...the day you embraced
sobriety. did you go into rehab on your real birthday, bacon?
more power to ya!!!!!!
~u2b
I think I went in before and I only spent one night in and had to get
out...
I went to one. Told the guy who brought me to wait. They took away my
harmonica. I said get me the hell out of here. So I was there for an
hour. But it worked, for a few years.
--Frett
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